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I am here for Friends

About Me


Even though I'm only five inches across the Starting Line of Life with a long way to go, I 've gotten somewhere and I like that. I possess love too digilent for it to be wasted on those who don’t appreciate it. So if you want to play games, break out your cards and play Solitaire.
My outward appearance doesn't compromise my intelligence or integrity. I'm just the same as you. For some reason, because of the way I choose to present myself, people often seem surprised that I can string sentences together. Don’t underestimate, you’ll be embarrassed. I live in a paradoxical world in which tattoos are mutilation and plastic surgery is a godsend, and I want nothing to do with it.
The feeling of love has only extremes. Right now it is mind-numbingly amazing.
My life at this point is a giant question mark, and I’m scared to fucking death. I go to sleep at night repeating to myself that everything will be ok. And it will, eventually.
I’m Sarah. I'm a dork. I'm returning to UNCC to finish a Communications/French: Womens' Studies degree. It's nice and all, but I sigh every day knowing I'll never use it. In the next year I'll be going to culinary school to specialize in Baking and Pastry.
I take five minutes every day to sit outside somewhere and ponder. If I didn't I think my head would explode.
I have been working at the Mellow Mushroom on the corner of 36th and N.Davidson in NoDa for the last year and a half. I am a server/pizza thrower, and I have the burns to prove it. I'm a cookie decorator at Cookies by Design in South Charlotte. I also make desserts freelance for weddings and other events. Let's just say I have a functional obsession with sugary sweets.
I do this as a hobby and for extra $$$ now; but Ace of Cakes, watch out!
Holding fast to one crowd by denying all others really limits your life experience. Take the chance and get to know people you normally wouldn't. You'll be pleasantly surprised.
I am a work in progress. I screw up...a lot, but I’m still here to tell you about it. I am my own Jekyll and Hyde. I embody a lot of oxymorons. Chronic Depression diagnoses run in my family, and I am a recovering self-mutilator. These are true facts about me, and I don't take destructive criticism and judgement lightly. I want to share my experiences in the hopes that I can help someone, anyone. These are problems I have to deal with, even if they make you uncomfortable. I don't let them run my life, and I don't want your pity. If you can't deal with a real, pure human being, don't bother me. I don't complain, I just want to be happy; and I'm trying my best to make it happen. I consider myself a realist with a dash of optimism.
Yes, my tattoos hurt and they took a long time. I have at least one. I'm not here to be put on display. No, I don’t want to discuss them with someone who is arrogant and/or ignorant. No, I don’t want to see your siq tribal armband or your Superman emblem. Save it for someone who doesn’t know any better.
I tend to be a people pleaser. I put other people's thoughts and feelings before my own. You'd think by now I would have learned my lesson. When I make mistakes I make life-shattering, earth-altering mistakes. I don't take advice well, I'm the kind of gal that has to fuck up on her own first. I'm not afraid to call anyone out on their bullshit. We could all use a little honesty, including me.
I love music, blah blah blah. Doesn't everyone? I don't care if you know all the lyrics by heart. Music is an emotion, anyone can feel the beat.
I cook and I love it. I would totally be Big Mama if I could find enough friends that enjoyed Sunday dinners. Sometimes I create healthy things, and sometimes I cook things that are delicious and fattening and full of sugar and carbs. Stop counting your calories for a few minutes and savor that chocolate cake you know you’ll regret later. The small pleasures in life are catalysts for the big ones.
Yes, I'm a feminist. If that word scares you, pick up a book. We all deserve a chance, no matter what.
I'm hoping after I graduate from culinary school I can somehow weasel my way into being best friends with Oprah Winfrey. That Rachel Ray sure knew what the hell she was doing. I know you want to get to know me... and you know it too.

My Interests

Music, enough said. Food: cooking, eating, decorating. I love it all. Photography; remembering the small moments in life my brain won't be able to when I'm really old and the perfect grandma. Writing a lot of nonsense, drawing doodles I'll immediately throw away. Shooting guns, but not at people of course.

I'd like to meet:


I've met a guy that not only gets me, but happens to be a Pro-Wrestler by the name of Daniel "The Nose-Rammer" Woodson.
Other guys need not apply.
Friends that can keep it old school. The guy that sold Martin Lawrence the crack that he smoked that caused him to act like this.

Music:



You forgot about this real hip-hop a long time ago. Of Montreal, Lowry, Heidi Sidelinker, Josh Panda, Flamboyant Bella, Dear and the Headlights, Portugal the Man, Mae, Copeland, Damiera, Love Hate Hero, Bitter:Sweet, Job for a Cowboy, The Mars Volta, Bright Eyes, The Faceless, The Absence, Conducting From the Grave, Gym Class Heroes, Rifles at Recess, The Demonstration, Prayer for Cleansing, Unearth, Comeback Kid, Kill Switch Engage, Panic! at the Disco, Death Cab for Cutie, The Damascus Intervention, The Postal Service, Rilo Kiley, Jenny Lewis, Arctic Monkeys, Metal, Hardcore Metal, Death Metal, B.B. King, Buddy Guy, The Used, The Hives, The Vines, The Killers, The Strokes, Beastie Boys, Fugazi, Jill Scott, Kanye West, The Neptunes, MF Doom, Blackalicious, Zion I, Mos Def, Blackstar, Jay-Z, Deftones, Interpol, Bob Marley, Incubus, Ziggy Marley, Damien Marley, Billy Idol, Blondie, The Bangles, Bananarama, David Bowie, The Cutting Crew, Guns 'N' Roses, Motley Crue, Def Leppard, Led Zeppelin, Phish, The Grateful Dead, Pink Floyd, Poison, Prince, Wang Chung, Queen, The Police, A-HA!!!!!!!, Flock of Seagulls, Cyndi Lauper, The Culture Club, basically 80s music and Hippie Music, Busta Rhymes, Dashboard Confessional, Get Up Kids, Thursday,Stephen Kellogg, Smashing Pumpkins, At the Drive-In, Virginia Coalition, Reggie and the Full Effect, Phantom Planet, Jimmy Eat World, Midtown, Saves the Day, Weezer, Duke Ellington, Louis Armstrong, Miles Davis, Ella Fitzgerald, Buddy Holly, Billie Holiday, Nirvana, As I Lay Dying, Funeral for a Friend, Beloved, The Clash, Misfits, Dead Milkmen, The Foreskins, Sex Pistols, Norma Jean, The Descendants, Talib Kweli, Showbread, The Ramones, Blink 182, Lit, Marcy Playground, No Doubt, Everclear, Rage Against the Machine, MxPx, Silverchair, Bush, Showcase Showdown, Screeching Weasel, N.E.R.D., The White Stripes, Unwritten Law, Kill Bill Soundtracks, Mighty Mighty Bosstones, Queen, The Specials, The Toasters, Reel Big Fish, De La Soul, Gangstar, Foul-Mouthed Jerk, People Under The Stairs, Heiroglyphics, X-excutioners, Roc Raida, Jimi Hendrix, any good Jazz, underground hiphop, oddly enough, The Transplants, Senses Fail, Scary Kids Scaring Kids, Chiodos, La Chocha Loca, Self-Made Monsters, Nebula, The Bleach 03....Whew my hands are tired, I'll add more later!

Movies:

Bottle Rocket, The Science of Sleep, A Scanner Darkly, The Machinist, The Nightmare Before Christmas, Napoleon Dynamite, Fight Club, Constantine, Westside Story: The Musical, The Patriot, SLC Punk!, The Princess Bride, Monty Python and the Holy Grail, Dawn of the Dead, Blow, The Pianist, Hero, Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon, Casablanca, Pulp Fiction, Psycho, American Beauty, The Matrix, Se7en, Some Like it Hot, Kill Bill Vol. 1, Kill Bill Vol. 2, A Clockwork Orange, The Shining, Braveheart, Sin City, All Quiet on the Western Front, Back to the Future, Glory, Monsters Inc., Finding Nemo, Sling Blade, Groundhog Day, Almost Famous, Gia, Gandhi, Snatch., Beauty and the Beast, 21 Grams, Office Space, Austin Powers; International Man of Mystery, The Breakfast Club, Pretty in Pink, Sixteen Candles, Lemony Snicket's a Series of Unfortunate Events, Alfie, Land of the Dead, House of Flying Daggers, Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory, Breakfast at Tiffany's, Sparticus, Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, Wedding Crasher, The Whole Nine Yards, Lilo & Stitch, Boondock Saints, Crazy/Beautiful, Edward Scissorhands, Saved!, Fearless, The Descent, The Dark Crystal, ...more to come!

Television:

I don't really watch TV anymore, but if I did, I would watch this: Six Feet Under, Weeds, Dexter, Big Love, Flight of the Conchords, Hell's Kitchen, Top Chef, Ace of Cakes, Sex & the City, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, CSI (New York & Las Vegas), Unwrapped, Good Eats, Food Network in general, CASH CAB!, General Hospital, Jeopardy, Grey's Anatomy. Ah, I can't think of anything else so I'll get back to you.

Books:

Anything by Aldous Huxley, Amusing Yourself to Death by Neil Postman, anything on Feng Shui, Anne Rice, Kurt Vonnegut, information about different religions and spiritualities, The Giving Tree, Shel Silverstein, Harry Potter, Feminist Thought by Tong, Upton Sinclair, Charles Bukowski, way too many textbooks...

Heroes:

Mom, because she showed me that life is worth living despite being dealt a shitty hand.
Mario, in live-action.
The funniest man alive.
UNFORGIVABLE! The most diesel cat ever: Sue-[Sam].

My Blog

When All Else Fails, Crawl Back to What You Know.

In light of recent events, it has become considerably more and more clear to me exactly how few people there are left in this world to whom the words loyalty and integrity mean anything. In a society ...
Posted by im thinking of what sarah said... on Fri, 31 Aug 2007 06:04:00 PST

Road Trip Recall 2.

Road Trip Recall Part 2. Charlotte lights can't compare to the clearness of the air here Or the stand-still moment of time I take to breathe in, unwind here Natives standing by in this canyon, watchf...
Posted by im thinking of what sarah said... on Mon, 27 Aug 2007 07:23:00 PST

Road Trip Recall 1.

Road Trip Recall Part 1. Rolled up and packed away Got nothin' to say But hop on in this suitcase and run away with me.   They won't let me pass with more than three ounces But what do I do with ...
Posted by im thinking of what sarah said... on Mon, 27 Aug 2007 07:08:00 PST

It's Never Going to Stop, and I Don't Know That I Want it To.

I don't think it's ever going to stop, and it's slowly driving me crazy. Why is it still there, nagging at me, nudging me, trying to coerce me? I can't help but spend at least a fraction of my time ea...
Posted by im thinking of what sarah said... on Sun, 08 Jul 2007 10:11:00 PST

The Paradox of Societal Standards.

Anyone who has known me for a decent period of time knows that I've always had to struggle with my weight. I've been yo-yoing between slender, average, and overweight my entire life. This past Christ...
Posted by im thinking of what sarah said... on Tue, 19 Jun 2007 12:28:00 PST

Asphalt Adventure

After feeling it again, I'm quite sure that fresh lips are my favorite thing. Not only the sheer beauty of that awkward embrace, But the hope that lies within.   A small window of light unlocks e...
Posted by im thinking of what sarah said... on Wed, 06 Jun 2007 01:06:00 PST

Baby Steps.

While sitting on my front porch at 5:30 this morning, anticipating the sunrise and dreading having to go in and get ready for work, I had some time to ponder. I adore those random bursts of creativity...
Posted by im thinking of what sarah said... on Tue, 05 Jun 2007 10:49:00 PST

Straight Grimy.

The past couple of weeks for me have been...absolutely amazing. I have so many wonderful friends and so many opportunities to make new ones that I feel, for the first time in six months, at home. I've...
Posted by im thinking of what sarah said... on Fri, 01 Jun 2007 11:50:00 PST

I Would Be Sad.

I saw the Avett Brothers live for the first time yesterday at Manifest. It was truly an experience. That genre is definitely not my typical pick when it comes to music, but I find something about them...
Posted by im thinking of what sarah said... on Wed, 16 May 2007 09:05:00 PST

Farewell.

I hope you're happy. Because you've ruined me. Shame on me for trusting, loving, being optimistic for once in my entire fucking life. I had hoped I wouldn't end like this. We don't all get what ...
Posted by im thinking of what sarah said... on Sun, 13 May 2007 02:31:00 PST