{AKA: TAYLOR}

Thursday, January 05, 2006
sometimes these words fight to tear out of me..
i feel each one like a knife is stabbing me
every time i try to soart them all out
i get dizzy and my heart starts to pound
they will bother me until i let them free
they just want to be outside of me
these words know me all too well
they know i disappear when things go to hell
my typical smile doesnt hide the pain anymore
my body is bruised, broken and soar
i dont have time to make excuses for you
it happened so quickly that there wasn't time too
i have no more feelings about what you said
just lots of confusion trapped in my head
I want to fight back and return this illusion
make someone else figure out a conclusion
your words were too lovely to argue against
but now my heart beats only in my chest
thats what it feels like to have to find your own
like youve hit rock bottom and your all alone
i can be lovely
i can be nice
but you fucked with my heart
and it effected my mind
my stomach hurts at the sound of your music
now silence is golden so i dont abuse it..
ahhhhhhhhh i want to hit the wall repeatedly
and make all this pain and emotion leave me
i want to feel numb to the lost that surrounds me
so that i no longer see what is all around me
if i could i would throw these thoughts and questions
into your head for you to see your reflection
you would be amazed of what you didnt know
went through my head
when the world went soo cold..
the feelings that run through me are deep...
when i use words to describe them it scares me
'little violin play for me
the sound of a child crying misery
dont cry wolf little girl
noone will believe you
you smile too much
their just going to laugh at you
why would something be wrong
your always so happy..
the feelings that you hide away
make it impossible for people to understand
that you are in pain
was broken once too often before
now pain has a key to the lock on your front door
be smart little girl
dont be a problem...
just lie down and close your eyes
it will be alright..'
this is what comes to mind right now
when i think of the last three days and the new years of my life...
Fallen.. Angel
I love you
This might seem insane
The way I curl my fingers
The blood makes them sticky
As I pound my fist
Against the mesh of your face
Open chest
Your heart Beats again
Stitch it up
Your alive my friend
You were lost
Thought it would mend
You were incorect
Love never ends
Eat your food
Cradle your head
Whipe your tears
Its over your dead
NOT i wont let you slip away