silver linings are getting harder to manufacture.

About Me

Ill fake it through the day with some help from johnny walker red. You had plans for both of us that involved a trip out of town to a place ive seen in a magazine that you left lying around. I dont have you with me but I keep a good attitude. Do you miss me, miss misery Like you say you do? I know youd rather see me gone than to see me the way that I am, but I am in the life anyway. Next door the tvs flashing, blue frames on the wall. Its a comedy of errors, you see its about taking a fall. to vanish into oblivion is easy to do. And I try to be but you know me I come back when you want me to.

My Interests

How long is this going to last. You can't keep reliving your past. Screwing over the ones that you love. In the name of some new drug.

I'd like to meet:

i wasnt trying to ruin his life, i was just trying to make mine better.

Music:

nine inch nails. murder by death. elliot smith. circa survive. throwdown. nora. glassjaw. kill hannah. snow patrol. refused. international noise conspiracy. deviates. bouncing souls. jealous sound. the bled. velvet underground.

Movies:

tombstone. candy. clerks.

Television:

family guy. simpsons. cold case files. a&e investigates. anything about serial killers.

Books:

candy. paint it black. LA rex. fear and loathing in las vegas.

My Blog

dead men and sinners.

we're high above but on the floor. its not a habit, its cool, i feel alive. if you dont have it you're on the other side. i'm not an addict, maybe thats a lie. its over now. i'm cold, alone. i'm just ...
Posted by silver linings are getting harder to manufacture. on Fri, 15 Dec 2006 10:42:00 PST

bring out the old guillotine, we'll show him what we all mean.

youre just a sad song with nothing to say about a life long wait for a hospital stay. well, if you think that i'm wrong, this never meant anything to you. do you want to see how far down i can sink ba...
Posted by silver linings are getting harder to manufacture. on Tue, 12 Dec 2006 05:41:00 PST

i want everything and everyone.

i am apathetic i think.i am not sure whats going on in my life and its uncomfortable.i feel the changes and maybe i am not used to things going pretty well. i am way more used to things going downhill...
Posted by silver linings are getting harder to manufacture. on Mon, 04 Dec 2006 05:48:00 PST

lost and depressed.

i am sort of sad right now. i feel like i want to cry but i would rather not ruin my makeup. i'm not sure whats wrong. i wish i didnt feel like this. i've been reading my old journals and listening to...
Posted by silver linings are getting harder to manufacture. on Sat, 02 Dec 2006 07:11:00 PST

let it out. [breathe out.]

so i am sitting in my meeting tonight really wanting to share but finding myself unable to due to the fact that there are so many people raising their hands...and not to mention i am sort of scared of...
Posted by silver linings are getting harder to manufacture. on Thu, 30 Nov 2006 10:28:00 PST

i could make you satisfied in everything you do.

all your 'secret wishes' could right now be coming true. and be forever with my poison arms around you. no one's going to fool around with us. you fucking oughta stay the hell away from things you kno...
Posted by silver linings are getting harder to manufacture. on Thu, 23 Nov 2006 06:08:00 PST

they call me failure's art.

i know my place. hate my face. i know how i began, and how i'll end. strung out again. you get what you see, some things change invisibly. i never knew where i was going, thank god i can never know. m...
Posted by silver linings are getting harder to manufacture. on Wed, 22 Nov 2006 07:11:00 PST

thank you new jersey.

the rotted rind of this country rots in the west, and its beyond me why anyone would look there for anything unless you dont care what you're finding is blank and confining, there are no answers in ca...
Posted by silver linings are getting harder to manufacture. on Mon, 20 Nov 2006 04:47:00 PST

sometimes i think the damage is irrepairable.

we've always been at each other's throats, ready for war, fists clenched, spitting venom.and ive never been one for apologies, but maybe i'm sorry i ever let you in. it always came down to you and me ...
Posted by silver linings are getting harder to manufacture. on Sun, 19 Nov 2006 06:17:00 PST

sort of terrified. [ another disappointment?]

i am terrified. i know my past, its dead and gone. i am becoming more comfortable with the present, but this whole future thing, its really scaring me.i feel like i will always be alone. i seem to be ...
Posted by silver linings are getting harder to manufacture. on Fri, 17 Nov 2006 05:03:00 PST