Err...beating people to death, the occasional swinging to somebodies left/right temple with a pick axe. but on the odd rare occasion i do indulge myself in the more finer arts of butchering people alive with a plastic knife stolen from a garden party a few months ago but only on a Sunday where church goers are plentiful & fresh so can be hand picked for convenience & quality. but of course if i was actually anything like that id be in some mental institute by now. now on to the serious stuff.....
Friends...nothing I treasure more in this life then my friends who I would defend, even till death. I know not of other things that make me more happier. Love you all & you know who you are, no matter what the distance....
PC Engineering,
Pc Gaming,
Manga Writing,
Paintballing,
Listening to my music,
Playing my guitar
AMV creating
& trying to keep my room tidy
Heres one of my few vids i created...
I'd like to meet:
If it were possible Id like to meet the past & future versions of myself (but mainly the one from the future for various reasons)Maybe for a cup of tea & a chat before I kill him & get revenge for all the countless numbers of times he's killed me. He's always been the stronger out of the two of us no matter what the situation. But no matter how hopeless it seems Ive got no choice but to Carry on. The longer he lives he will continue to hammer nails into my coffin till I no longer have the strength left to fight back.
long story short, i bare a lot of self hatred towards myself which will keep on eating away at me until i cease to exist, most people will look to others for motivation, others will look to a shrink to help them unwind & find the source of the corrosion...
& as for me being who I am, I have no choice but to carry this pain. I'm not looking for sympathy or acceptance from others, & If u do come to know me then like I say to all those who know me, If I must I will continue to walk alone - Ive already made it this far by myself.
who id like to meet? John Petrucci, Brian May, John Malkovitch, Felix The Cat, Jimmy Page, Johnny Carr, Bill Bailey, Jesus Christ, God Almighty, The Virgin Mary, Arnold Swarznegger, Harrison Ford, Keano reeves, Natalie Portman, Mike Portnoy, Popeye The Sailor ManCan I be arsed? no not really....
Music:
18 Visions,
36 Crazyfists,
Ac Dc,
Alesisonfire,
Alien Ant Farm,
All Shall Perish,
All That Remains,
Alter Bridge,
American Headcharge,
Arch Enemy,
As I Lay Dying,
At The Gates,
Atre Yu,
Audio Slave,
Aushvitz,
Avenged Sevenfold,
B.4.M.V,
Beyond All Reason,
Beyond Embrace,
Billy Talent,
Biomechanical
Blood Staind Child,
Blood,
Breaking Benjamin,
Breed77,
Bruce Dickinson,
C.O.F,
Caliban,
Celldweller,
Chimaria,
Coheed & Cambria,
Concerto Moon,
Creed,
Damien Rice,
Darkest Hour,
Daylight Dies,
Dead Poetic,
Death Gaze,
Deftones,
Demon Hunter,
DespairsRay,
DevilDriver,
Dir En Grey,
Disturbed,
Dream Evil,
Dream Theater,
Embrace,
Evanescence,
Exist Trace,
F.4.A.F,
Foo Fighters,
Forever Never,
Fort Minor,
Gargoyle,
God Forbid,
Gojira,
Gorillaz,
Heaven Shall Burn,
Hizaki Grace Project
Hurt Process,
Hyde,
Ill Nino,
In Flames,
Incubus,
InMe,
Into Eternity,
Iron Maiden,
It Dies Today,
Jimi Hendrix,
John Petrucci,
Kagerou,
Karnivool,
Kid Rock,
Korn,
K.S.E,
Lacuna Coil,
Lamb Of God,
Led Zepplin,
Lost Prophets,
Machine Head,
Mendeed,
Monoral,
Mudvayne,
My Vitriol,
Nevermore,
Nightmare,
Opeth,
-OZ-,
P.O.D,
Panic Cell,
Placebo,
Poets Of The Fall,
R.A.T.M,
Redemption,
S.O.A.D,
Scars Of Life,
Sekima II,
Seven Dust,
Shadows Fall,
Skindred,
Skyfire,
Soil,
Spineshank,
Staind,
Still Remains,
Stormental,
Sybreed,
Taia,
The Absence,
The Agonist,
The Butterfly Effect,
The Cult,
The Haunted,
Three Days Grace,
Tool,
Tracere,
Trail Of Tears,
Trivium,
Underoath,
Vagerke,
Versailles
Within Temptation,
Zakk Wyld,
so basicly anything thats rock, metal, Prog, Funk, Fusion, Death, melodic or alternative. my metal tastes at the moment are quite limited. but I like anything with a load of guitar work in it such as bands like opeth & KsE. right now im digging into some dream theater which i never thought id get into as i dont know much about the old classic rock metal bands but yeah. what can i say! petruci has charmed me!
Movies:
anything with a lot of killing
Television:
Dont have time for TV
Books:
back in the day when I did read (b4 I built my PC) I use to be a great fan of Tom Clancy books. I was in the middle of collecting them when I built my new pc. shame hes retired now. but on the other hand. it gives me plenty of time to catch up
Heroes:
ME!!!It Might Sound a little self centerd but you will understand what im on about if you listen to me.....
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1. Heroes ALWAYS die at the end
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2. Heroes have EXTREMELY bad time keeping, often arriving right in the nick of time to save you.
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3. Heroes are much like hope....the more time you waste hoping that a hero will come & save you, the more likely you will die. the more you will be kicking yourself for not acting sooner.
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4. The ONLY real hero is yourself. as draconian & horrific as some situations might be, only YOU can secure your own survival & make sure you live to see another day...or night in my case.
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5. heroes have arch nemisis' dont get caught up in their turf war, its not yours to fight.
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6. you inflate their egos when you get saved by the likes of them! always come prepared....carry a brick in your handbag!
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Remember...you dont need heroes cuz you are your own hero. Self Belief/confidence is all it takes....
