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Pesemerga Stigmata Crowned with Thorns in Golgotha

odi et amo... I Don't Love You Anymore ____ My Love a serpent beauty I lay in the heart of Gemorrah_

About Me


Hello, My name is Jackins...
AIM-GodofAbhorrence
[email protected]
My Xbox360 Live gamertag is
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My ability to spell is nearly repulsive.
We're Made of Stardust...
You're too busy
Thinking in circles
Or straight lines
But my thoughts
Have no need of geometric sense
Math complicates symmetry
Chemistry obscures the notions of human perception
History complicates the present me
So I look to the skies
And wonder if the stars are in my reach
I look to the skies and wish to drift away
With the cosmic breeze
But space is empty
Who ever knew love would be so out of control like your senses peeling and in rage, trying to pull yourself together whilst the heart is caught up in a violent storm. Fatalalistic love affair. This is what I'm dying for. This is what I'm dreaming of... Every decision that you make in life is a compromise with death and destiny, 'cause in the end we'll both rot six feet under, returning to dust from dust we came, and we'll be answering, atoning, unforgiven for our sins. I'm an artist of sorts, writing is my passion, love/romance my obsession. A picture tells a thousand lies.
And photographs simply mirror a static image of a soul
I'm Straight but I support gay rights. Read the Declaration of Independence; preamble states-"We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness."
African American Civil Rights Movement 1955-1968 effectively abolishing racial segregation, racial discrimination and gives full rights to all American citizens unbaised of color.
Black Power Movement 1966-1975 "to include racial dignity, economic and political self-sufficiency, and freedom from White domination."
The right for non-land/non-property owners to vote. A basic liberty which had been ignored.
Woman's Sufferage: Amendment XIX ratified on August 1920 gives woman the right to vote
We have failed to learn from our history if we continue to deny "certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness" to homosexuals citizens. If it is wrong to discriminate persons based on the pigment of their skin, sex, creed, nationality and/or property ownership than why is it right to discrimate people based on their sexuality. We deny homosexuals the right to marriage and benifits of partnership. We deny homosexuals the right to hold service in the armed forces (Don't ask don't tell). And we deny homosexuals the right hold government position (a homosexual man was fired early 2007 from the Pentagon after it was discovered he was gay)
If you want to bash on me for this belief feel free. It is your unalienable right of speech to call me a faggot or a queer but I'll defend a fellow human being before I defend ignorance or bigotry. Human rights before you and your god's vision of divided and unequal rights.
P.S. Don't fight with me over myspace/internet if you're not a fan. It's pathetic and lame at best to insult me over the internet. I'd also like to point out the fact that it is more than probable that I will make an ass out of you. I would love to destroy you with words alone.
Sites where I can be found
http://live.xbox.com/member/Pesemerga
http://profile.gamebattles.com/Pesemerga/photos.html
http://www.360voice.com/tag/Pesemerga
http://www.zeitgeistmovie.com/ (amazing documentary, just watch and learn)
http://www.achieve360points.com/list/
Intelligence simply is the ability to create, to dream, to imagine. To fly away with the clouds, to paint with colours so deep and rich. To write with thoughts free of care. To create the unimagineable. Intelligence is making something that is ordinary into something that is extradorinary. Anyone and everyone has the ability to learn as we are taught, to grasp concepts as they are presented, to absorb as we are fed. Growth in knowledge is simply wisdom attained. But true intelligence is defined by the minds of thinkers, of movers, of artists and creators.
Follow me as I lead:
Perpetual genocide exists not in the evil of men but in the willingness of the vast public and denizens of this world to accept the mass extermination of men, woman and children contained within a certain culture. It is in the willfulness of our society today to brush past the stories of on going human chrisis as nothing more than far away ficticious tales of misery that enables the mass murder of people on the city streets and in homes. How can we teach to our youths what evil had spawned from such events as "The Resolution to the Jewish Question" in our history books when Western nations and those in power do nothing to stop genocides of today? In order to stop this horrible tragedy in our modern culture people must take action. Action is empowerment and the weapon against the greatest crimes of our existence.

My Interests



Pyschology: Anorexia, Bulimia, Ego, Love, Lust, Self Mutilation, Selflessness, Suicide, Vanity
Art: Ambient sounds, Poetry, Prose,
Music: A'Cappella, Black Metal, Classical, Gregorian Chant, Death Metal,
Drugs: Cocaine,

I'd like to meet:

A girl who doesn't have the trashiest most whorish pictures of herself on her myspace profile. A girl with class. A girl with a bit of self respect. A girl who is above being just materialistic. A girl who is beautiful on the inside and out. In truth however I do not wish to meet anyone, especially under any set of guidelines. People come and people go. Different faces and different names yet all playing their exact same characters with their contrived little roles. People are people, disposable, replaceable and I'm no different.

Keep in mind when surfing through my page or considering to chat it up with me that I am just another cliche face with just another cliche name; furthermore I generally regard all persons that comes through my life as being the same and in that respect being replaceable or disposable.

I once met a girl who was tall with pretty blue eyes. She had this soft blonde hair that blushed under a bath of sunlight. I adored her hair curly or straight and she had the cutest nose in the world, a nose I so dearly loved.
She was a kind person. Heart of gold and the most romantic girl I had ever met. She was my perfect dream come true.
I called her Minnie. She called me Mickey. But her favorite nicknames for me were "Princess", "hunny", "babes", "cutey", "lil' bum bum" (just to name a few).
She was the only girl in the entire world who could excite me enough to scratch the tip of my nose (an awful habit I have, if I get too excited the tip of my nose gets really sensitive and tingly and itchy) just by the way she looked at me or saying "baby, I love you"
She was the only girl that I gave 100% of my heart to. She was the one that I truly loved from the depths of my heart. She was my one and only... She was my Minnie.

Now you know that a boy like me has indeed fallen madly in love, fallen real hard for a girl that meant more to him than the air and water that sustains him, to this day though he is without her.
Now you know he once kissed and held hands with a girl that meant more to him than the distant beacons of light that holds the weight of our hope across the vast void of darkness and space.

So please, with respect I wish to make it clear that I don't want anyone fawning over me or prizing me like I'm something special, I'm not. I'm just human and I don't want you.
I don't need or want anyone to sustain me.

The notion of love in its romantic form is merely a de-evolution of humanity, working retrograde to his true desires.

This myspace serves only one purpose. I've dedicated my blogs to my life's passion; poetry (writing).
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Music:

30 Seconds to Mars,
51 Peg,
69 Eyes,
100 Demons,
A Perfect Murder,
A Static Lullaby,
Abandoned Pools,
Acceptance,
Across Five Aprils,
Age of Ruin (-),
A-Ha,
Alesana,
Alexisonfire,
Alkaline Trio,
All Shall Perish,
All That Remains,
Android Lust,
Annie,
Apoptygma Berzerk,
Arch Enemy,
Architects,
Armor for the Broken,
Armor for Sleep,
ArmsBendBack,
As Blood Runs Black,
As I Lay Dying,
Atreyu,
Auf der Maur (Melissa),
August Burns Red (-),
Avenged Sevenfold (old A7X),
Axiom of Choice,
Azam Ali,
Bananarama,
Bangles,
Bark Cat Bark,
Behemoth,
Bel Canto,
Bella Morte,
Beloved,
Beneath the Sky,
Between the Buried and Me,
Bettie Serveert,
Black Maria,
Black My Heart,
Black Tape For a Blue Girl,
Bleed the Dream,
Bleeding Through,
blessthefall,
Bloodbath,
Bloodsimple,
Borknagar,
Bouncing Souls,
Boy George,
Boys Night Out,
Brazil,
Bright Eyes
Bring Me the Horizon,
Bullet for My Valentine,
Butterfly Boucher,
Centinex,
Chandeen,
Cheb Mami,
Children of Bodom,
Chimaira,
Chiodos,
Chrisis,
Christfuck,
Communique,
Cold War Kids,
Cradle of Filth,
Cult of Luna,
Daft Punk,
Dark Tranquility,
Darkest Hour,
Deadsy,
Death Cab for Cutie,
Del Shannon,
Demon Hunter,
Denez Prigent
DevilDriver,
DHT,
Diecast,
Dimmu Borgir,
Dj Sammy,
Dommin (-),
Dope,
DragonForce
Dream Theater,
Drop Dead Gorgeous,
Dropbox,
Earshot,
Eighteen Visions,
Element,
Emanuel,
Embrace,
Emery,
Emily Rose (-),
Enigma
Enter Shikari
Enya
Every Time I Die,
Eyes of Fire,
Fade to Black,
Falling Up,
Fear Before the March of Flames,
Flyleaf,
For Dire Life Sake,
From Autumn to Ashes,
From First to Last,
From Grace (-),
Funeral for a Friend,
Gigi D'Agostino
God Forbid,
Gym Class Heroes,
Hans Zimmer
Haste the Day,
Heaven Shall Burn,
HeartShed,
Hidden in Plain View,
Himsa,
His Infernal Majesty (old HIM),
Hollywood Undead,
Hopesfall,
Horrorpops,
Horse the Band,
I am X-Ray
I Killed the Prom Queen,
In Dire Need (-),
In Flames,
Into Eternity,
Into the Moat,
Ion Dissonance,
It Dies Today,
Jack Off Jill,
Jimmy Eat World,
Just Surrender,
Justin Goodrich,
Job For A Cowboy,
Kamelot,
Kane Hodder,
Keane,
Kenotia,
Kids in the Way,
Kill Hannah,
Killswitch Engage,
KMFDM,
Lacuna Coil,
Lamb of God,
Leaves' Eyes,
Letter Kills,
Lola Ray,
Lost Ocean,
Ludo,
M83,
Madonna,
Mae,
Manchester Orchestra,
Marilyn Manson,
Maroon,
Martyr AD,
Matchbook Romance,
Mayday Parade,
Medicine,
Melee,
MeWithoutYou,
Moments In Grace,
Most Precious Blood,
Mozart Season,
Mutiny (-),
Nena,
Nightrage,
Nine,
Nine Inch Nails,
Niyaz
Nora,
Now It's Overheard,
Number One Fan,
On Broken Wings,
Open Hand,
Orgy,
Otep,
Our Last Night,
Parkway Drive
Placebo,
Poison The Well,
Pro-Pain,
Race The Sun,
Raging Speedhorn,
Ray Charles,
Remembering Never,
Rise Against,
s3rl
Satyricon,
Scars of Tomorrow,
Scary Kids Scaring Kids,
Scintilla
Senses Fail,
Shiny Toy Guns,
Shinedown,
Sia,
Sigur Ros,
Simple Minds,
Sinai Beach,
Since the Flood,
Siouxsie and the Banshees,
Soilwork,
Sonny Moore,
Sparta,
Stigmata,
Sting,
Story of the Year,
Strapping Young Lad,
Stutterfly,
Subseven,
Sugarcult,
Suicide Silence,
Superheist,
Superjoint Ritual,
Susperia,
Switchblade Romance,
Switchblade Symphony,
Taking Back Sunday,
Team Sleep,
Tech N9ne (T9X),
Terror,
The Acacia Strain,
The Academy Is...,
The Age of Rockets,
The Apex Theory,
The Azoic,
The Birthday Massacre,
The Black Dahlia Murder,
The Bloodening (-),
The Chariot,
The Churchills,
The Devil Wears Prada,
The Dresden Dolls,
The Early November,
The Echoing Green,
The Enemy,
The Faint,
The Firebird Band,
The Hurt Process,
The Killers,
The Mars Volta,
The Matches,
The Phantom of the Opera,
The Police,
The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus,
The Showdown,
The Sounds,
The Spill Canvas,
The Tony Danza Tapdance Extravaganza,
The Used,
The Verve,
The Yeah Yeah Yeahs,
Thirteen Yards to Victory,
This Mortal Coil,
Through the Eyes of the Dead,
Throwdown,
Trivium,
UnderOath,
Unearth,
Unicorn,
Until the End,
Vanna,
Vas,
Velvet Revolver,
VNV Nation,
Walls of Jericho,
West Indian Girl,
With No Remorse (-),
Wreath of Barbs,
Wumpscut,
Yellowcard,
Zao,
Zeromancer

Movies:

28 Days Later,
50 First Dates,
100 Girls,
A Man Apart,
A Walk On the Moon,
A Walk to Remember,
After the Sunset,
Alfie,
All the Right Moves,
Along Came Polly,
Amelie,
American Beauty,
American History X,
American Pyscho,
Better Luck Tomorrow,
Big Daddy,
Big Fish,
Blue Car,
Blue Spring,
Braveheart,
Cabaret,
Charlotte Sometimes,
Chicago,
Closer,
Coach Carter,
Cold Mountain,
Collateral,
Dangerous Minds,
De-Lovely,
Donnie Darko,
Don't Tell Mom the Babysitters Dead,
Drumline,
Edward Scissorhands,
Elephant,
Equilibrium,
Escaflowne,
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind,
Fight Club,
Frida,
Friday Night Lights,
Ghost In the Shell,
Ghost In The Shell 2: Innocence,
Gigli,
Gone with the Wind,
Gothica,
Grave of the Fireflies,
Grind,
Head in the Clouds,
Hedwig and the Angry Inch,
High Tension,
Hometown Legend,
Hotel Rwanda,
House of 1000 Corpses,
House of Flying Daggers,
I am David,
I am Sam,
Ice Castle,
Imaginary Heroes,
Jersey Girl,
Kingdom of Heaven,
Life as a House,
Lost in Translation,
Love the Hard Way,
Man on Fire,
Meet Joe Black,
Memento,
Metroplis,
Million Dollar Baby,
Moulin Rouge,
Mr. Deeds,
Mrs. Dalloway,
My Boss's Daughter,
October Sky,
Original Sin,
Pearl Harbor,
Perfect Blue,
Platoon,
Prozac Nation,
Rahxephon,
Ray,
Ready to Wear,
Requim for a Dream,
Resident Evil,
Secret Window,
Shaun of the Dead,
Silent Hill,
SLC Punk,
Sleepy Hollow,
Snow Falling on Cedars,
Spanglish,
Spinal Tap,
Spirted Away,
Stigmata,
Summer of Sam,
Sunshine,
Tears of the Sun,
The Brown Bunny,
The Butterfly Effect,
The Crow,
The Dreamers,
The Forgotten,
The Girl Next Door,
The Last Samuri,
The Life of David Gale,
The Lover,
The Nightmare Before Christmas,
The Notebook,
The Phantom of the Opera,
The Pianist,
The Piano,
The Place Promised in Our Early Days,
The Ring,
The Rocky Horror Picture Show,
The Tesseract,
The Texas Chainsaw Massacre,
The Village,
The Virgin Suicides,
The Whale Rider,
The Woodsman,
Thirteen,
Titanic,
Troy,
Vanilla Sky,
Vanity Fair,
Waking Life,
White Orleander,
Wings of Desire,
WWIII Patlabor the Movie,
X...

Television:

/ 20/20 / 60 Minutes / America's Funniest Home Videos / Boston Public / Cold Case Files / Distraction / Dr. Phil / Elfen Lied / Family Guy / Firefly / Full Metal Panic? FUMOFFU / Full Metal Panic! / Fuse / Futurama / G4TV / HBO / Headbangers Ball / Gantz / GetBackers / Gungrave / Law

Books:

1984
A Confederacy of Dunces
A Farewell to Arms
Animal Farm
Anne Frank: The Diary of a Young Girl
Ape and Essence
Atlas Shrugged
Beautiful Boy
Brave New World
Bridge to Terabithia
Choke
Cold Mountain
Cosmos
Crank
Dark Eagle
Falling Leaves
Fight Club
Gathering Blue
Haunted
Homer
I Am The Messenger
Ice Castle
Invisible Monsters
Island
Last of the Mohicans
Lullaby
Mister God, This Is Anna
Night
Nights in Rodanthe
Party Monster
Rant
The Barbarians Are Coming
The Book Thief
The Brothers Karamazov
The Communist Manifeso
The Dante Club
The Divine Comedy Vol. I: Inferno
The Dream Life of Sukanov
The Fountainhead
The Giver
The Giving Tree
The Great Gatsby
The Green Mile
The Hiding Place
The Hot Zone
The Illiad
The Perks of Being a Wallflower
Thirteen Moons
Time Must Have A Stop
To Kill a Mockingbird
Tweak
Survivor
Uncle Tom's Cabin
Where the Red Fern Grows
Where the Sidewalk Ends
Wicked

Heroes:


Lil' Wayne Something You Forgot Lyrics ..

My Blog

Ghost in a Shell

The margins inside these pagesaren't spread wide enoughto contain my thoughtsfrom spilling out unto the floorthe walls inside this roomaren't thick enoughto hold me upevery night that Idrown myself in...
Posted by Pesemerga Stigmata Crowned with Thorns in Golgotha on Thu, 08 May 2008 12:37:00 PST

Where Shadows Play in the Shade

Some daysI wish the breath inside my lungswould escape me and leave me in peaceSome daysI wish the music inside my heartwould stop its rhythm and beatThere is nothingnothing romantic or poeticabout de...
Posted by Pesemerga Stigmata Crowned with Thorns in Golgotha on Tue, 13 May 2008 10:29:00 PST

A Poem for Sobering Up (Open House of Addiction)

I like hershe hasblonde hairgreen eyesa cute smileand those curvesshe's a chill girlkeeps with the current trendsbut doesn't really care about themshe's a real girlclip-on hairwith fake nailsand big b...
Posted by Pesemerga Stigmata Crowned with Thorns in Golgotha on Tue, 06 May 2008 10:36:00 PST

A Poem for Sobering Up (Loneliness Intoxicated)

I sit on my couch watchingstatic blizzard on the TV screenlike prime time televisionI'm high as child's faceglued to the windows of a monorailsuspended and adrift over snow covered mountainsI'm high a...
Posted by Pesemerga Stigmata Crowned with Thorns in Golgotha on Tue, 22 Jan 2008 09:33:00 PST

Autumn Vestige

One daythese lime green bruiseson my cheekwill melt awaybut they will never fadeOne daythese lime green bruiseswill stain my skin a different shadeto a colder greyBut today I bear witnessto the collap...
Posted by Pesemerga Stigmata Crowned with Thorns in Golgotha on Sat, 24 Nov 2007 07:27:00 PST

per antea somnium

LIQUID PAINKILLERTwo big spoonfuls of cherry flavored medicineto fall asleep at night...maybe I won't dream tonight80 proof PLACEBO And I'll just chase the bitter tastewith some vodka or bourbonand ma...
Posted by Pesemerga Stigmata Crowned with Thorns in Golgotha on Sat, 24 Nov 2007 06:38:00 PST

Parasite Hunger

So here we aredivided by countless milesof urban desertvoid of meaningand seas of deep azurethat burn like kerosene from the top where our feet tread lightlyto the abysswhere our sails breakand our sh...
Posted by Pesemerga Stigmata Crowned with Thorns in Golgotha on Tue, 13 Nov 2007 03:39:00 PST

Candy Coated Acid Trip

you said you wanted to fly one afternoonso I picked you up off your feet and carried you away in my armsand you soared as weightless as a feather in the breezeI said I wanted to die one nightso you ki...
Posted by Pesemerga Stigmata Crowned with Thorns in Golgotha on Fri, 27 Jul 2007 08:40:00 PST

I Love You

Where are the days of my happiness? When I exhausted myself in tears, in fearsWhere are the days when my heart would swell with romanceAnd my thoughts teeming with joy?I'm bone thin hungry for moreWhe...
Posted by Pesemerga Stigmata Crowned with Thorns in Golgotha on Fri, 27 Jul 2007 08:40:00 PST

Inamorato

And I take it all in like a stale breath of air this heartache   And I carry it deep inside this methane love that chokes me -breathless your kerosene lips that ignites me -cauterizing ...
Posted by Pesemerga Stigmata Crowned with Thorns in Golgotha on Fri, 27 Jul 2007 08:40:00 PST