My name is Ice. I am 18. I am shy when meeting new people. I don't take the initiative to introduce myself.People have to introduce themselves to me and start a conversation because I won't know what to talk about. I don't really go out anywhere. I tend to hang by myself at my house. I don't make or keep friends easily. My best times were 9th and 10th grade band w/ my flute friends who kept me laughing. Nothing has ever come close to the fun I had those two years. If I could relive those years I would in a second.
I used to believe I could wish on a star and everything would work out. But stars come out every night, and every night I wish on the first one, and not one wish has come true. Now I know that wishes don't exist. They are simply dreams you know you'll never achieve which is why you feel the need to wish rather than going out and making it happen. You wish for the impossible, because it gives you hope. Hope that one day your wishes will be granted. But sometimes it's a waste of energy to hope. Sometimes no matter how much you hope, and wish, what you want will never be yours. I know, because all I want is one person, and all that person wants is to be out of my life forever.
march 1st is si awareness dayWhat About Self-Injury?
People who self-injure use different ways to hurt themselves. It is usually hard to tell if someone self- injures just by looking at them, unless they talk about it. People who self-injure are people who have not learned a better way to deal with their emotions. They hurt themselves as a response to their emotions because they cannot talk about them.This may seem like a strange thing to people who don't self-injure, but it is a coping mechanism more than anything else. People who self-injure need to feel the pain of an injury, or see the result of one in order to calm themselves. There are many other reaons people hurt themselves, and many other feelings that are involved. Some different types of self-injury include cutting, burning, scratching, and hitting. Most of these are pretty self-explanatory, but here are some short descriptions.
Cutting
Cutting is probably the most common form or self-injury. People who cut themselves use razors, knives, or other sharp objects to break their skin. Occasionally, these cuts may require stitches. People who cut themselves are usually self-counscious about their scars, and try to cover them up by wearing bracelets on their arms, long-sleeved shirts during the summer, or long pants. The most common place to cut is on the wrists or arms, but people might also cut themselves on their thighs, legs, stomach, chest, or other places.
Burning
Burning, like cutting, causes direct injury to the skin. Using cigarettes, lighters, and candle wax are some of the more common ways to burn. These burns can range anywhere from minor burns to third degree burns that need medical attention. Burning also leaves scars that self-injurers might try to cover up.
Scratching
People who scratch themselves use their fingernails to scratch their skin. These scratches might break the skin, or might just leave marks that last for a few hours. While scratching usually doesn't require emergency medical attention, it is still a form of self-injury, and a way that people cope with emotions. Occasionally, the scratches can turn into deeper cuts that need first aid. The severity of the injury is not the point in self-injury, rather, it is the emotional pain that caused the injury.
Hitting
Hitting can be a severe form of self-injury, although it is not the most common. People who hit themselves can cause bruising on the body, but also can cause bones to break. Some people hit their head against things, which can sometimes cause severe head injuries or brain damage. People also hit themselves on their arms and legs, causing bruising or swelling.
