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B-R-I-A-N-!

I need an answer, kid: You're either with me or not at all

About Me

If I die with only my stories left to show, then I think I will be content with that.
I enjoy finding happiness in subtlety. People's idiosyncrasies are my favorite parts about them. Loud and up front when I want to be, quiet and reserved when I feel the need- either way I am taking it all in and evaluating every detail. My independence is my strength; my experiences are my backbone. But sometimes I get tired of keeping it all in.
Things that I am currently enamored by:
- Self-reliance
- Vitamin Water
- Maps
- Coldstones trips
- Passion
- People being perceptive of who I am
- Badass rock'n'roll shows
- Rockstar dreams
- Finding greatness when you weren't even looking
- Trust
- "Green eyes"
- California
- Trying to say everything I am thinking
- The Stratosphere
- Slurpee delivieries
- 5, 14, 31, and free drinks
- People standing beside you when you need it most
Things that can currently ruin a perfectly good mood:
- The idea that the passionless "succeed" before the passionate
- The fact that EVERYTHING annoys me to some extent.
- How I cannot, for the life of me, be patient- no matter how hard I try
- The thought of endlessly working for someone else for the rest of my life
- Distance
- Missing my family
- Inconsiderate people
- Music with no heart
- Getting old
- The worry
- The job
- Vegas heat
- Things being out of my hands
- Feeling like everything is on repeat
- HAVING ALL OF MY MUSIC GEAR STOLEN
I am always honest, and sometimes harsh. I'd rather hear the truth than be lied to. And honestly, I'd rather have someone try to get to know me than read something I wrote and think they understand. Because I promise, you don't.
My life goals include:
- Seeing a UFO first hand
- Chasing a tornado (ala "Twister"...duh)
- Traveling around the world
- Having a lovely wife and amazing children
- Playing a sold-out arena tour
- Looking back on my life and saying "FUCK YEAH!!!!"

My Interests

Playing music, listening to music, writing music, being music, maps, laughing, self-expression, talking, reading, making new friends, traveling, perseverance, sincerity, hope

I'd like to meet:

People who understand this:
"If you die by the roadside- so be it. But at least you know you've tried. Ten minutes in the music scene was equal to one hundred years outside of it."- Robert Plant

The one person that won't EVER forget me.

say what you want, but say it well

Music:

Current patterns: Hot Water Music, Flobots, Presidents of the United States of America, Oasis

Patterns repeated throughout time: Nirvana, AFI, Jimmy Eat World, At the Drive-In, Boy Sets Fire, Foo Fighters, Minus The Bear, Guns N Roses, Dillinger Escape Plan, The Beatles, Refused, Get Up Kids, Fiona Apple, Texas Is The Reason, Thursday, Thrice, Stone Temple Pilots, Pearl Jam, Soundgarden, Deftones, Tool, Cake, Everclear, Ten Foot Pole, No Use For A Name, Lagwagon, Stretch Arm Strong, Shai Hulud, The Format, Ensign, Strife, and so many many many more

Movies:

Magnolia, Requiem For A Dream, Billy Madison, Waynes World, Batman Begins, Edward Scissorhands, Moulin Rouge, Boogie Nights, Snatch

Television:

24, The Simpsons, Family Guy, The Office, The Wonder Years, The Price Is Right

Books:

The Catcher In The Rye, Everything Is Illuminated, Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close, A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius, The Godfather, In Cold Blood

Heroes:

People who follow their hearts.

My Blog

Three cheers for tyranny, unapologetic apathy...

Entry 00860It is almost humorous how attached we become to the things we own; how it can feel like a piece of your soul is missing when things are lost. Maybe, deep down, it is the invasion of your pr...
Posted by B-R-I-A-N-! on Wed, 04 Jun 2008 10:43:00 PST

You don’t bowl or race fast cars...

Entry 00859If I can say everything, then let's say it all. I made a promise and I intend to keep it...but how different for me. A victin of my own thoughts. A simple explanation: I refuse to settle. ...
Posted by B-R-I-A-N-! on Mon, 26 May 2008 11:58:00 PST

Where no one goes....

Entry 00858And it just goes and goes and goes. Everything twirls around...like water going down the bathtub drain when you were five, or a twister ripping through the scattered midwest towns. It twis...
Posted by B-R-I-A-N-! on Tue, 13 May 2008 12:45:00 PST

Giving up is getting old....

Entry 00857The worry is kind of like that drip down the back of your throat during a head cold. It's not really painfull, and you can forget about it for a while if properly distracted. But suddenly, ...
Posted by B-R-I-A-N-! on Tue, 06 May 2008 02:06:00 PST

Standing on broken glass....

Entry 00856For the first time, I really, truly have learned to rely completely on myself. There have been points in my life before when I thought I felt this way, but there were still crutches of comf...
Posted by B-R-I-A-N-! on Wed, 09 Apr 2008 05:54:00 PST

Read me like an open book....

Entry 00855I have come to an interesting conclusion; had a realization of sorts:It is much easier to live in the moment- seemingly, mostly carefree- when the moments are meaningless in the end. Not to...
Posted by B-R-I-A-N-! on Tue, 22 Jan 2008 11:59:00 PST

Fix your face...

Entry 008541. What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before? went to montana (only 5 more states to go!). partied in multiple hotel rooms. bought a guitar on tour. went swimming in a river. did...
Posted by B-R-I-A-N-! on Thu, 13 Dec 2007 11:43:00 PST

I’m still right here...

Entry 00853Giving blood; keeping faith.And I'm still right here.Completely content with who I am. Satisfied with the fact that I am never satisfied with who I am. Content to know that there is civil u...
Posted by B-R-I-A-N-! on Tue, 11 Dec 2007 08:38:00 PST

I can hear you now...

Entry 00852 When I am the most exhausted, is when I see things with the most clarity. My head is spinning from pushing myself to the limit, and yet everything seems so serene. Maybe it's a lack of ene...
Posted by B-R-I-A-N-! on Thu, 22 Nov 2007 02:08:00 PST

Sing it when Im alone now....

Being patient is the hardest thing for me. Trusting anyone beyond the basic "sure, I'll tell you about my day" isn't very appealing. Thinking and worrying about everything is so easy. Have a little fa...
Posted by B-R-I-A-N-! on Thu, 18 Oct 2007 10:58:00 PST