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Jay [In memorial: Rodney Milholland 07/78-08/07]

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About Me

The capacity for sin and redemption exists in every man. It is that man who must turn his gaze to the heavens and seek forgiveness, and that man who must keep his eyes on earth, letting sin take him.I am a hedonist, one who seeks to find the pleasures of life while minimizing the pain. Life, it seems, is contrary to my dreams, throwing as much pain as it can find while keeping the pleasures from me.

My Interests

I like working with computers, including website design, text-based role-playing games (MUDS, MOOs, MUSHes, etc), and more traditional computer games.

I'm an actor, and I've appeared in one Hollywood movie so far: Outbreak. The one about the monkey that gets the whole town bad nasty sickish. I was an extra, but it was some time on film."Are all adult problems this depressing?"
"Not at all. Most of them also involve taxes. So, what do you want to be when you grow up?"
"... Dead is an option, right?"

"Of course. Only adults don't have death. We have retail jobs."
As seen here . God Bless You, Randy.

I'd like to meet:

The lost, those whom I have once know but have fallen away from. Those I once loathed, that I might make amends and give them the chance for the same. Those I loved and hurt, that I might take away those hurts, and those I loved from afar, that I might express to them what I once felt.I seek those who take me as I am, not as they would have me be. I take those who do not wear masks to buy my favor.I seek the sinners and the saints.

Music:

Disturbed, Metallica, Rammstein, Rage Against the Machine, Kittie, the Deftones, Rob Zombie, Drowning Pool, AC/DC, Black Sabbath, Iron Maiden, Aerosmith, and other bands of this nature.

Television:

There's not too much I watch on TV any more, but there are a few shows I still like. The Simpsons, Las Vegas, and Prison Break. That's really about it.
There's too much of this reality TV crap on there. By the way, to anyone who thinks living on an island with nothing for a few months is reality, wake up. Here's reality for you: Come work a 9-5 that pays you just enough to squeak by, but nowhere near enough to help you recover from the mistakes you made when you were younger.
Screw your 'immunity challenges.' You aren't immune to anything in the real world. Pay your taxes, work your minimum-wage job, and try to raise a family with next to nothing. Worry about your bills for this month, and watch your credit cards go further and further over your account limits.
That's my reality TV.

Books:

Enders' Game
Ender's Shadow
Speaker for the Dead, Xenocide
Shadow of the Hegemon
Shadow Puppets Known collectively as the Enderverse Saga, by Orson Scott Card. It is a brilliant series about genius children forced to fight a war against an alien race. If you haven't read it yet, start.
I'm also a big fan of the different fantasy novels, but mostly the Forgotten Realms / Dragonlance books, though Piers Anthony's Xanth novels are good for a laugh from time to time.
Also, I do recommend the book Firefly, also by Piers Anthony. It's a horrorish novel, with a few sexual overtones. Rather an interesting read.
There's a book called Lightning by Dean Koontz. It's about time travel, another really good read.

Heroes:

I really don't have any heroes. To me, a hero is someone who does something extraordinary, and so far in my life I haven't met anyone who's qualified.I do have people who I admire, like my father, but I don't qualify him as an actual hero.

My Blog

3 Up, 3 Down

So I posted yesterday that Blue Ox was a no.Today I got a letter from the County, and it was a no as well. And, because I'm sick I asked to postpone my interview with the State, and the guy called bac...
Posted by Jay [In memorial: Rodney Milholland 07/78-08/07] on Wed, 07 Nov 2007 03:09:00 PST

One Down...

I got an e-mail back from Blue Ox yesterday. They decided to go with someone else.That means just the county and state jobs remain. I interview with the court tomorrow afternoon.I hope at least someon...
Posted by Jay [In memorial: Rodney Milholland 07/78-08/07] on Wed, 07 Nov 2007 10:15:00 PST

Im Only Happy When It Rains...

Wow.So that expression about "It only rains when it pours" (referring to the wealth of job interviews) continues to prove true.While I had the interview on Wednesday, and another next Tuesday with the...
Posted by Jay [In memorial: Rodney Milholland 07/78-08/07] on Thu, 25 Oct 2007 03:04:00 PST

Job Interviews

Jobs are like girlfriends. When you do not have one, no one is interested. The moment someone shows interest, so does everyone else.I put my resume in for Blue Ox Millworks last weekend, and on Monday...
Posted by Jay [In memorial: Rodney Milholland 07/78-08/07] on Thu, 25 Oct 2007 06:00:00 PST

Time Traveler Day

Screw talking like a pirate... I want this to be our next "day."
Posted by Jay [In memorial: Rodney Milholland 07/78-08/07] on Sat, 29 Sep 2007 10:02:00 PST

Im Coming Undone.

When I finally got to sleep (it was 5am, by the way) my toothache was still there. I'd numbed it as best as I could with some gel (I forget the name), and just said screw it.So I woke up a few times t...
Posted by Jay [In memorial: Rodney Milholland 07/78-08/07] on Fri, 28 Sep 2007 01:46:00 PST

Rodney’s Obituary

So that I will not forget, so that I will always remember.Rodney Phillip Milholland Jr. passed away on Aug. 28, 2007. He was born to Rod and Donna Milholland in Puyallup, Wash. He had a rough start, b...
Posted by Jay [In memorial: Rodney Milholland 07/78-08/07] on Mon, 10 Sep 2007 02:08:00 PST

Death Shroud

I find myself wondering if, perhaps, I have a death shroud around me. Less than a week after I lost my best friend, the oldest of our finches (and my favorite) has died. He has been sick ever since we...
Posted by Jay [In memorial: Rodney Milholland 07/78-08/07] on Wed, 05 Sep 2007 12:37:00 PST

For the Gamers


Posted by Jay [In memorial: Rodney Milholland 07/78-08/07] on Sun, 02 Sep 2007 06:48:00 PST

RIP: Rodney Milholland

Today I lost my best friend.I don't know what was wrong, but he had been in the hospital down in San Francisco for several weeks. He had bleeding in his brain, and massive trauma. He was not expected ...
Posted by Jay [In memorial: Rodney Milholland 07/78-08/07] on Wed, 29 Aug 2007 04:06:00 PST