My future child(ren), God, Anthony Kiedis, Betty Page, Jackson Pollock, Thom Yorke, Pablo Picasso, Ansel Adams, Snoopy, James Dean, William Shakespeare, Friedrich Nietzsche, John Lennon, William S. Burroughs, Jerry Garcia, Kit from Knight Rider, Jack Kerouac, Betty Friedan, Johnny Cash, etc etc etc, the list goes on and on...
Red Hot Chili Peppers, Vandals, Outkast, Catherine Wheel, Mars Volta, The Offspring, Suicidal Tendencies, Rancid, The Hives, Incubus, Thrice, Rooney, The Misfits, Everclear, Bad Religion, Bobby Pulido, Sublime, The Clash, One Man Army, Senses Fail, Le Tigre, Audioslave, Badly Drawn Boy, J.D. Crowe, John Frusciante, Pantera, Dios Malos, Slowdive, 30 Seconds To Mars, Gravity Kills, Fear Factory, Luna, The Shins, Ani Difranco, Gomez, The Horrors, Tori Amos, The Verve, The Breeders, AFI, The Used, Juliana Theory, Taking Back Sunday, Lords Of Acid, Saves The Day, The Get Up Kids, Sevendust, Hem, Sebadoh, Portishead, Morcheeba, Bob Dylan, Elvis Costello, The Wallflowers, New Order, A Perfect Circle, Local H, Anberlin, Patti Smith, Bauhaus, Lou Reed, Seven Mary Three, Iron And Wine, Syd Barrett, Pedro The Lion, Bowling For Soup, Coal Chamber, Arctic Monkeys, New York Dolls, The White Stripes, Quietdrive, The Strokes, Hot Hot Heat, Franz Ferdinand, CKY, The Grass Roots, Alejandro Sanz, David Gray, Sneaker Pimps, Kate Bush, Duncan Sheik, Dave Matthews Band, Aimee Mann, The Beta Band, Creedance Clearwater Revival, The Belles, System Of A Down, Wolfmother, Derailers, Snow Patrol, Feeder, Kittie, Ben Harper, Incubus, Albert Lee, Johnny Horton, Mary Lou Lord, Sade, The Vines, Toadies, Beulah, Santana, Garbage, Marbles, The Smiths, Nirvana, Zero 7, Beck, Moneen, Helena, L7, Velocity Girl, Jane's Addiction, Shiny Toy Guns, The Raconteurs, Weezer, Lynn Morris, Nine Inch Nails, Pixies, Sloan, Depeche Mode, Dead Girls Ruin Everything, The Cure, The Sex Pistols, Social Distortion, Fall Out Boy, Daughtry, The Velvet Underground, Cowboy Junkies, Godsmack, Live, Rainer Maria, Elastica, Veruca Salt, Slipknot, K's Choice, Tool, Iggy Pop, John Denver, The Spill Canvas, Modest Mouse, Jason Mraz, Queen, Deftones, Stray Cats, Pink Floyd, Johnny Cash, Collective Soul, The Smashing Pumpkins, Ozomatli, Our Lady Peace, Doves, Clutch, Skinny Puppy, Spontaneous Woo, Tony's Juice, Metalicca, Sufjan Stevens, Zao, Poe, Nada Surf, The Ataris, Mazzy Star, Kenny Wayne Shepherd, The Killers, Primus, Sugar, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, The Darkness, Paul Simon, Sun Kil Moon, Cyndi Lauper, Keb Mo, Tegan And Sara, Hole, Toad The Wet Sprocket, Nick Cave, Gin Blossoms, The Sundays, Guster, Alejandro Escovedo, Primitive Radio Gods, Linkin Park, Story Of The Year, Sunny Day Real Estate, Pretty Girls Make Graves, Dashboard Confessional, R.E.M., etc...etc...
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*Like A Stone~Audioslave*
On a cold wet afternoon
In a room full of emptiness
By a freeway I confess
I was lost in the pages
Of a book full of death
Reading how we'll die alone
And if we're good we'll lay to rest
Anywhere we want to go
In your house I long to be
Room by room patiently
I'll wait for you there
Like a stone
I'll wait for you there
Alone
And on my deathbed I will pray
To the gods and the angels
Like a pagan to anyone
Who will take me to heaven
To a place I recall
I was there so long ago
The sky was bruised
The wine was bled
And there you led me on
In your house I long to be
Room by room patiently
I'll wait for you there
Like a stone
I'll wait for you there
Alone, alone
And on I read
Until the day was gone
And I sat in regret
Of all the things I've done
For all that I've blessed
And all that I've wronged
In dreams until my death
I will wander on
In your house I long to be
Room by room patiently
I'll wait for you there
Like a stone
I'll wait for you there
Alone, alone
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*NUDE~RADIOHEAD*
DON'T GET ANY BIG IDEAS,
THEY'RE NOT GOING TO HAPPEN.
YOU PAINT YOURSELF WHITE,
AND FILL IN THE NOISE.
BUT THEY'LL BE SOMETHING MISSING.
AND NOW THAT YOU'VE FOUND IT ... IT'S GONE.
AND NOW THAT YOU FEEL IT ... YOU DON'T.
YOU'VE GONE OFF THE RAILS.
SO DON'T GET ANY BIG IDEAS,
THEY'RE NOT GOING TO HAPPEN.
YOU'LL GO TO HELL ...
FOR WHAT YOUR DIRTY MIND IS THINKING.
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*Medication~Garbage*
I don't need an education
I learnt all I need from you
They've got me on some medication
My point of balance was askew
It keeps my temperature from rising
My blood is pumping through my veins
Somebody get me out of here
I'm tearing at myself
Nobody gives a damn about me or anybody else
I wear myself out in the morning
You're asleep when I get home
Please don't call me self defending
You know it cuts me to the bone
And it's really not surprising
I hold a force I can't contain
Somebody get me out of here
I'm tearing at myself
Nobody gives a damn about me or anybody else
And still you call me co-dependent
Somehow you lay the blame on me
And still you call me co-dependent
Somehow you lay the blame on me
Somebody get me out of here
I'm tearing at myself
I've got to make a point these days
To extricate myself
Somebody get me out of here
I'm tearing at myself
Nobody gives a damn about me or anybody else
And still you call me co-dependent
Somehow you lay the blame on me
And still you call me co-dependent
Somehow you lay the blame on me
Somehow you lay the blame on me
Somehow you lay the blame on me
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*I'm Gonna Fall~Ash*
This is a beginning
Although this is an end
I got a sight of heaven
And it's gone straight to my head
And the time is right for falling
This time I'm gonna fall
That's the price I must pay
For a taste of your sweet love
I'm gonna fall
This time I'll fall
Gonna fall
Something in your glances
Puts a spell on me
As the world fades all around
You're all that I can see
And the time is right for falling
This time I'm gonna fall
That's the price I must pay
For a taste of your sweet love
I'm gonna fall
This time I'll fall
Gonna fall
Feel it taking over
Gonna reach there soon
The warmth of skies at sunset
I want to linger in this glow
And the time is right for falling
This time I'm gonna fall
That's the price we both pay
For a taste of your sweet love
I'm gonna fall
This time I'll fall
Gonna fall
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*Girl Sailor~The Shins*
The gutter may profess its love,
Then follow it with hesitation,
But there are just so many of
You out there for rent
A stronger girl would
shake this off in flight,
And never give it more
than a frowning hour,
But you have let your heart decide,
Loss has conquered you,
You've won one too many fights,
Wearing many hats every time,
But you wont win here tonight,
You've made it through the
direst of straits alright,
Can you help it if plain
love now seems less interesting?
You haven't changed an ounce in my eyes,
And I cannot lecture you,
And does anything I say seem relevant at all?
You've been at the helm since you were just five,
While I cannot claim to be more than a passenger,
But, you've won one too many fights,
Wearing all of your clothes
at the same time,
Let the good times end tonight,
Oh girl, sail her, don't sink her,
This time,
Just a moment or two from now,
Not a mind will retain even a trace,
Of the thoughts that I struggled to tell
And how our stack of cards just fell,
So settle this once and for all,
The light no longer shows
the cracks around my door,
And I have no lantern
to light your way home tonight,
You are not some saint who's above,
Giving someone a stroll through the flowers,
You've got so much more to dream of,
Oh girl, sail her, don't sink her,
This time,
This time,
This time.
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*I Wish I Felt Nothing~The Wallflowers*
Say when you're alone
It's better 'cause nobody knows you
When no one's your friend
It's better 'cause nobody leaves you
So you turned your back
On a world that you could never have
'Cause your heart's been cracked
And everyone else's is goin' mad
But I hear voices
And I see colors
But I wish I felt nothing
Then it might be easy for me
Like it is for you
Now all of these people
Come up from deep holes
Pullin' you down
And it's just no use
When all the abuse follows you down
By the morning you've gone
Leavin' me here all alone
Sayin' it's no mystery
I know that nobody here needs me
But I hear voices
And I see colors
But I wish I felt nothing
Then it might be easy for me
Like it is for you
And I know you believe that you and me
don't belong here
And the worst we could do
Is keep trying to pretend we care
But I hear voices
And I see colors
But I wish I felt nothing
Then it might be easy for me
Like it is for you
Like it is for you
Like it is for you...
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*Y Te Vas~Motel*
Y te vas,
deslizando en la oportunidad,
para escapar
A veces siento que la vida
es una cosa que nos deja
nos aleja nos refleja
y nos alienta sin mas
hay tantas veces que
quisiera protegerte
y de repente
simplemente lentamente volteas
y te vas
deslizando en la oportunidad
de dividir al tiempo para
escapar, la distancia
es una eternidad y no te
puedes detener a esperar
puedo decirte tantas cosas que
quisiera me dijeras
me pidieras me pudieras
prometer algo mas
pero el silencio de tus labios
es el precio que te debo
pues te quiero y
no te quiero dejarte
y te vas
deslizando en la oportunidad
de dividir al tiempo para
escapar, la distancia
es una eternidad y no te
puedes detener a esperar
para esperar
entiendo que todo sucedió
a veces no creo en el adiós
pudiera decirte
que me voy
pudiera decirte
a donde voy y hoy
y te vas
deslizando en la oportunidad
de dividir al tiempo para
escapar, la distancia
es una eternidad y no te
puedes detener a esperar
déjame llevarte una
vez mas y
desde lejos junto a ti
caminar la distancia es una
y nada mas
y para siempre
yo te voy a esperar.
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*Pictures Of You~The Cure*
I've been looking so long at these pictures of
you that I almost belive that they're real I've
been living so long with my pictures of you that
I almost believe that the pictures are all I can
feel
Remembering you standing quiet in the rain as
I ran to your heart to be near and we kissed as
the sky fell in holding you close how I always
held close in your fear remembering you
running soft through the night you were bigger
and brighter than the snow and
screamed at the make-believe screamed at the
sky and you finally found all your courage to
let it all go
Remembering you fallen into my arms crying
for the death of your heart you were stone
white so delicate lost in the cold you were
always so lost in the dark remembering you
how you used to be slow drowned you were
angels so much more than everything oh hold
for the last time then slip away quietly open
my eyes but I never see anything
If only I had thought of the right words I could
have hold on to your heart if only I'd thought of
the right words I wouldn't be breaking apart all
my pictures of you
Looking So long at these pictures of you but I
never hold on to your heart looking so long for
the words to be true but always just breaking
apart my pictures of you
There was nothing in the world that I ever
wanted more than to feel you deep in my heart
there was nothing in the world that I ever
wanted more than to never feel the breaking
apart all my pictures of you
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The Cure Shares Your Taste in Music
See their whole playlist here (iTunes required)
Which Musician (or Group) Shares Your Taste in Music?
Your Stripper Song Is
Closer by Nine Inch Nails
"You let me violate you, you let me desecrate you
You let me penetrate you, you let me complicate you
Help me I broke apart my insides, help me I?ve got no
Soul to tell"
When you dance, it's a little scary - and a lot sexy.
What Song Should You Strip To?
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No Puedo Comprender~Anibal Costa
No puedo comprender que es lo que siento...
sentimientos y emociones encontradas...
Estoy en la montaña rusa más grande de mi vida...
Una encrucijada con muchos caminos por elegir...
y es complicado...
No es sencillo cuando la razón
es dominada por el cuerpo emocional...
Sé que no me gusta estar asÃ,
sé que el amor no es sinónimo de sufrimiento...
pero es tan difÃcil...
Ya no sé si esperar el momento,
quise dejar de ser espectador,
pero obtuve el mejor palco de mi vida...
¿Qué es lo justo o lo injusto?
Preguntas sin respuestas... solo el tiempo lo dirá...
Una vez robe una frase que decÃa...
“... y será que ella nunca vio las huellas de mis
lagrimas...â€,
hoy vuelvo a repetirlo...
“nunca verás las huellas de mis lagrimas...â€,
y ese jirón de corazón que perdà en estos dÃas
solo será un secreto entre mi cuerpo y mi alma...
solamente yo sabré cuando cerrará esa cicatriz profunda
en mi alma...
cuando desaparecerán las huellas de mis lagrimas...
esas...tal vez de un amor...
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TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: Yer Mama?
Birthday: Birthday? I don't have one of those.
Birthplace: Asheboro, NC.
Current Location: My desk...
Eye Color: Green...Hazel...Brown
Hair Color: dark brown
Height: 5'1''
Right Handed or Left Handed: right handed
Your Heritage: I'm a zesty blend of ingredients...
The Shoes You Wore Today: Roxy flip flops
Your Weakness: caramel apple lollipops
Your Fears: I have no fears. :p
Your Perfect Pizza: veggie
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Can't tell you. It's a secret. *snicker*
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: Hardly ever use IM anymore.
Thoughts First Waking Up: Alarm Clock = out the window!
Your Best Physical Feature: It's a secret...
Your Bedtime: Oh, hmm don't have one of those.
Your Most Missed Memory: How can you miss a memory?
Pepsi or Coke: bottled water...
MacDonalds or Burger King: gross
Single or Group Dates: single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Hojicha... or Pom Green Tea.
Chocolate or Vanilla: Lime!
Cappuccino or Coffee: Yes please... on ice though.
Do you Smoke: Nuh uh
Do you Swear: Hardly ever, makes people sound ignorant if you ask me. Bitch.
Do you Sing: Much too often!
Do you Shower Daily: Of course...
Have you Been in Love: Without a doubt.
Do you want to go to College: I'm done with school.
Do you want to get Married: Yes...someday.
Do you believe in yourself: More often than not.
Do you get Motion Sickness: Nuh uh.
Do you think you are Attractive: Uh huh.
Are you a Health Freak: I'm a freak, that count?
Do you get along with your Parents: I did, yes.
Do you like Thunderstorms: I love thunderstorms...
Do you play an Instrument: Yes, play guitar, piano, violin... etc etc etc.
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: Yep...
In the past month have you been on Drugs: Nothing without a prescription?
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: Not that I can remember, no.
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: No, that's a bit excessive.
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: Mmm...yes.
In the past month have you been on Stage: Once.
In the past month have you been Dumped: Nuh uh.
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: Only in the bathtub...
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: Nuh uh.
Ever been Drunk: Yeah...
Ever been called a Tease: Oh indeed yes...
Ever been Beaten up: What kinda question is that?
Ever Shoplifted: Never once.
How do you want to Die: Violently? WTF kinda question is this?!
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: A ROCKSTAR!
What country would you most like to Visit: All the places I've never seen in the U.S.
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: yours.
Favourite Hair Color: Doesn't matter really.
Short or Long Hair: short.
Height: Taller than me, the cereal is up too high...
Weight: I like a little squish to the tummy.
Best Clothing Style: Clean...
Number of Drugs I have taken: Wow, interesting question.
Number of CDs I own: I got rid of almost all my CDs, music is on ipods or computer now.
Number of Piercings: eight.
Number of Tattoos: eleven.
Number of things in my Past I Regret: Hmm, too complicated, just ask me, I'll explain.
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!
Hero-Cruel Intentions-The Dark Crystal-Trainspotting-Queen of the Damned-Kama Sutra: A Tale of Love-Go-Monty Python And The Holy Grail-Apocalypto-But I'm a Cheerleader-Blow-Marked For Death-One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest-Shrek 1 & 2-Hard Candy-Slums of Beverly Hills-Girl-Pumpkin-Donnie Darko-Empire Records-Fast Times At Ridgemont High-Deathrace 2000 (*snicker*) Oh... hmmm sooo many I can't think of at the moment...
Ok, I have a dish now and no more TiVO lol, but I love that now... so um yeah. Bleh, I don't really watch much TV, no time for it really. :)
Fiction, non-fiction... doesn't matter, I'm an information junkie and read anything I can get my hands on.
I recently read-
Como Agua Para Chocolate
by Laura Esquivel
I just finished reading-
Ain't Nobody's Business If You Do:
The Absurdity of Consensual Crimes in Our Free Society.
by Peter McWilliams
Now I'm reading a book about mantra meditation...
I haven't gotten very far into it yet, but so
far it's enlightening to say the least.
www.leukemia-research.org
Blood Cancer Doesn't Descriminate...
It can happen to anyone.