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Coll

What nourishes also destroys

About Me



MY BIRTHDAY WAS SATURDAY, DECEMBER SECOND AND IT WAS AWESOME! THANKS TO ALL WHO SENT WELL-WISHES-THEY WORKED. HA, HA, HA!

Disappointment doesn't kill, it only maims. Rejection kills.

Death is but a dream. A reality yet unrealized.

Ask...I have nothing to hide, or you can go to my personal site or business site & learn something new. (Hint for the short-bus kids: those underlined words are links, not just words...)

I can also be contacted on AIM with screen name: OfTheDark1S

My Interests

Ancient religious studies
Since I was 13 & settled on Druidism...later finding out my ancestors followed the same path...in fact one was an elder in his clan-or the equivalent of a High Priest.

My family
Can mostly just bite me.

My friends
I mean the ones I know I can count on who are more than just fleeting people in my life. My true friends may be freaks but I love them even more for that fact. They are like me & we understand each other. Remember-fleeting can happen in a day or 10 years, but in the end you know the difference. Im wondering just who those people are now too. It seems no matter where I turn theres no one there who can just BE there for me and not argue, just have a little compassion.

My pets
I love them! They don't play games, they don't lie, cheat or steal. They are always there for me when I just desperately need someone who actually does care. They are really the best!

Writing & Reading
I have been working on my first novel over the past year & must say it is a lot harder than I suspected originally. I get the ideas from my life and well, when my life is moving at a snail's pace there's not much inspiration, yet when it's speeding by there's no time to write. It is a double-edged sword.I have also been meeting a bunch of new people lately, which alone shows that my mood has improved. When in a funk I get really antisocial, but not now...no.

I'd like to meet:

People Who Aren't Just Out To Hurt Me.

People Who Would Just Listen Without Judgement.

which happy bunny are you?
you are the "you're so dumb" happy bunny. you are brutal in your words and enjoy putting others down.
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Music:

They say music soothes the savage soul. However, most of what I listen to simply awakens that savagery. Life gets more interesting that way!

Movies:

Often times it feels like my life IS a bad, b-rated, low-budget, movie and I keep waiting for the director to yell "CUT! And thats a wrap!" Yet that never comes, so I continue on, trying to find the things that make life more to smile about. I have been a bit more upbeat lately even...

Television:

If I have the time, I watch mostly learning channels such as the History Channel, National Geographic, etc. I also like science shows that are silly like Myth Busters. I also love specials on anything ancient (mostly Celtic and Egyptian), animals, or about outer-space. I also have all the released seasons of a few shows like Dark Angel & 24. I'm waiting for Rome to return to HBO since I watched the 1st season & loved it!

Books:

I love to learn, so I'm very into books about those things that get me interested, concentrating, & really thinking in general, such as life in ancient times (especially in the Celtic lands & Egypt), true crime, animals... I also read psychological thrillers & general fiction. I love a good book I end up staying up all night for because I can't put it down. My favorite authors are (but not limited to): Marian Zimmer Bradley (I have a small, hand-typed book titled "The Jewel of Arwen" by Bradley & Tolkien, which I love), Bret Easton Ellis, Thomas Harris, E.A. Poe...& for shorter stories, Ethan Hawke (yes, the actor...he writes good books).
I'm also writing a book of my own-a psychological thriller. I can't give too many details about that (wouldn't want to kill the suspense even before I'm done writing it) on here. Suffice it to say, it's coming along at what, to me, is a slow but steady pace. I do have a publisher (Okay, most likely. No papers have been signed, nor money changed hands, but I have been working with the same group since I submitted my treatment & a few sample chapters to them & they said they love what they've seen & would like to be the publishers for it when I'm done) & have started fine-tuning the 5 chapters I have so far so I can move on to chapter 6. It's a highly tedious task because I'm a total perfectionist when it comes to anything I do involving the creative process. We shall see!

Heroes:

Uhhh..............

My Blog

YULE

May You Have The Happiest Winter Solstice & Yule Blessings! Yule or Winter Solstice Yearly takes place on21st December in the Northern Hemisphere21st June in the Southern Hemisphere This is the ti...
Posted by Coll on Wed, 20 Dec 2006 11:37:00 PST

Pigeon Religion

So I have come up with a new concept.  I call it the pigeon religion.  You see, in today's society, people seem to want to believe in something they can see.  Something with tangible pr...
Posted by Coll on Mon, 18 Dec 2006 10:13:00 PST

GOD

Now, those who truly know me know this can be a rant or a thought in itself...good news, it's not a rant.If you look at the time I started writing this, according to MySpace, it's 3:29AM Central Time....
Posted by Coll on Thu, 16 Nov 2006 02:10:00 PST

A little ps

OK.  I just realized that when reading my past posts, one who knows my sordid past could easily assume history is in repeat.  Just to let those of you who may make that assumption know, I wa...
Posted by Coll on Thu, 02 Nov 2006 02:06:00 PST

Writing sux

So obviously I don't mean generally writing sucks...I mean authoring.  When I started this little venture I started it as a laughable idea that came to me from the blue as a way to purge my past....
Posted by Coll on Thu, 02 Nov 2006 11:18:00 PST

Alexian Brothers Hospital

Well, here I sit at Alexian Brothers Hospital, at almost 6 AM, and I await my meds.  In the morning they'll be sticking a needle about as thick as hanger wire and about as long asa pencil into my...
Posted by Coll on Thu, 19 Oct 2006 03:53:00 PST

No one left anyway

I have had the reality hit me that I literally have no one left to talk to, no one to laugh or cry with...no one.  I'm officially left with no friends or family.  I know they all had their r...
Posted by Coll on Tue, 30 May 2006 04:40:00 PST

Joke + warning

First, Ill tell you a joke   There are two guys, Jim and Chris.  They had grown up together, had been the closest and best of friends and practically never left each other's sides.  Pok...
Posted by Coll on Fri, 12 May 2006 02:23:00 PST

The CIA knows...

The CIA had an opening for an assassin. After all the background checks, interviews, and the sting were done, there were three finalists...two men and a woman. For the applicants final test, the CIA a...
Posted by Coll on Sat, 22 Apr 2006 06:09:00 PST

What a day!

So today was just bizarre.  The day started off with my trying to go to work, an hour early none-the-less.  I got there to be told that I should stay on disability or unemployment, the choic...
Posted by Coll on Tue, 14 Mar 2006 02:46:00 PST