We are what we are. Black, white, brown, yellow. Point is don't be ashamed of who you are, man. You wanna call it stereotyping. Hey, this is me, orale vato, this is who I am. Take me or leave me. You don't like me? Turn around and look the other way. It’s that simple.
I don't know what to say so ask me what you wanna know. I guess the best way to describe me is...weird but I like to say extreme. To me being extreme means taking chances, making mistakes and not caring, because you only live once but if you do it right once is all you need.
I have no interest in drinking, smoking or doing any kind of drug. It's just not me. I'm not going to label myself as "straight edge" because I hate labels. I just prefer not to indulge myself in drugs or alcohol. I'd rather walk away from people who try to peer pressure me into that junk than be their friends. It's just how I roll.
What I really thrive off of is climbing up a big ladder and jumping off. Just like so many other morons. But that's just me. It's that extreme attitude I've always kind of had. "Don't think you can...know you can! Your human body is the most impressive tool that you will ever own. Even if you can't control everything...you can always control something. Your body - Use it...Amuse it...because one day...you're going to lose it."
I realize that I am a bit different, but that's just me. I feel like a loner in the world pretty much everyday. I get along with everybody, for the most part, and I have some good friends, but it's not like I have really close friendships. I know a lot of people still say, 'He's weird. He's a strange one. He's crazy.' and I honestly hate that, but I'm used to it. Even in school I never really hung out with the main cliques. I would always go up to the nerdy or outcast guys in the corner and speak to them at lunch.
You could ask anybody who knows me about me, and they'll say, 'That dude, he's cool. He don't give a damn. He's laid-back.' Laid-back is the perfect description of me. I'm a laid-back person, but that doesn't mean I don't get nervous, or I'm not interested in stuff. I don't let people know that I'm really nervous, or at least I do my best not to let them know. So, a lot of people just jump on that, but they don't really know what's going on inside of me as far as being all torn up.
It's funny because I often act like a fool and people seem to think that I am real positive but I'm not. I just do what I want, when I want. It's no big deal. Sometimes I do other stuff like writing and drawing but only when I'm bored and I'm bored a lot. I like to draw and write stuff but I don’t like being pushed or forced to do it. If something feels good or right then I do it. I also have no idea what I wanna do when I "grow up" because I've never really had any dreams but I'm hoping to stumble into it soon and if I don’t it wont matter because I'm OK.
I've made some mistakes but who hasn't? I've done my best to rectify my mistakes and even if I don't always succeed it's OK because at least I've tried. I'm ashamed of what I did, but I'm not ashamed of what I've done to correct my mistakes...I'm proud of who I am. I've busted my ass to get the little that I have and even though I don't really have anything and I've been screwed over a lot, I don't care. At least at the end of the day whether it was good, bad or in between I can say I tried. I can say that I loved, lost and got screwed but I would do it all over again given the opportunity.
You cannot achieve success, without the risk of failure. And I learned a long time ago, you cannot achieve success, if you fear failure. If you're not afraid to fail, man, you have a chance to succeed. But you're never gonna get there unless you risk it, all the way. I was a failure. Sometimes, half the fun is failing. Learning from your mistakes, waking up the next morning, and saying 'OK. Watch out. Here I come again. A little bit smarter, licking my wounds, and really not looking forward to getting my ass kicked the way I just did yesterday.' So now, I'm just a little more dangerous.
I have battled and lost, struggled and won. I have had victory in defeat and defeat in victory. I will never be over matched or unprepared. This is who I am and who I will always be. This is my life.
**NOTE: Some of the thing’s written above were written or said by people whom I admire. I simply took them and added them to my profile because I also feel they help describe me. The people are Paul Heyman, Jeff Hardy, Chris Benoit and of course Eddie Guerrero. **
Brandon Lee Vasquez:
Fill not your hearts with pain and sorrow,
But remember me in every tomorrow.
Remember the joy, the laughter, the smiles,
I've only gone to rest a little while.
Although my leaving causes pain and grief,
my going has eased my hurt and given me relief.
So, dry your eyes and remember me,
not as I am now, but as I used to be.
Because, I will remember you all and look on with a smile.
Understand, in your hearts, I've only gone to rest a little while.
As long as I have the love of each of you,
I can live my life in the hearts of all of you.
God bless the dead:
This is only a small sample of deaths I have experienced in recent years...to put everyone who has passed would be to dedicate a whole website to them all. But to all of those who have passed....we will miss you all. Every man, woman, and child. We will miss you all and not a day goes by when I don't think of one of you.
