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About Me

Hello, I'm Tia. I am a high school graduate, class of 07. I am enrolled at Pierce college and I have about 50 credits there, but I don't know what I want to do. I love art and I would love to have a career in art but the pay is a little low and the percentage of people that make it in art careers isn't very high. I don't want to settle for mediocrity just to have enough money to survive, you know? So I don't know what career I'm going to pusue, but when I do, I'll let you know as well.I am strong willed and stubborn and not looking for anyone to criticize me for who I am. I'm really outgoing, I've been called sparatic, unique, weird, strange, and anything else you can probably think of that is different... sometimes even "bubbly" but I just try to have a good time. I'm not that big on drinking but I will do it on occasion and yes I smoke. I am not one to brag about what I have and I don't appreciate others bragging to me or around me. If someone doesn't like me, that's perfectly fine but don't make a big scene about it. I could care less how you feel about me because I enjoy who I am.I love music, all types, mostly punk/pop/screamo or whatever you would like to call it. Whatever puts me in a good mood. I adore techno with every fiber of my being. I get along with all types of people and I hate categorizing, so please don't try to fit me into some steriotypical standard of society, I can tell you now, I won't fit.
START MAKEMS.com SCROLL BOX CODEI AM...
I am... flawed.
I am... honest to a fault.
I am... a lover not a fighter.
I am... beautiful where it counts most.
I am... outgoing.
I am... fatherless.
I am... broken.
I am... never fully content.
I am... often in disbelief.
I am... unpredictable.
I am... lonely.
I am... growing up.
I am... obnoxious.
I am... pefectly imperfect and I embrace it.
I am... sometimes indifferent.
I am... surviving depression.
I am... just a girl.
I am... a hopeless romantic.
I am... stubborn.
I am... not always who I want to be.
I am... your best friend and your worst enemy.
I am... a perfectionist.
I am... everything and nothing at the same time.
I am... hilarious.
I am... full of laughter on a good day.
I am... one to talk.
I am... always on defense.
I am... unconfident at times.
I am... a paradox.
I am... musically talented.
I am... envious.
I am... dramatic.
I am... stuck in the past.
I am... playing the hand I was dealt.
I am... artistic.
I am... religiously confused.
I am... slow to make decisions I should already know the answer to.
I am... on the outside.
I am... completely incomplete.
I am... vocal.
I am... inquisitve.
I...
I... can't help but care.
I... have a hard time sleeping alone.
I... wish I had a father.
I... deserve more.
I... don't fit a category or label.
I... want a loving family.
I... want to be happy.
I... despise fake people.
I... want people to pay attention.
I... want to know the truth.
I... love peircings and tattoos.
I... push people away to avoid getting hurt.
I... can act careless.
I... like strange things, just because they're strange.
I... don't trust easily.
I... think more than I do.
I... say more than I should.
I... can change if I wanted to.
I... love to argue.
I... want to be invisible sometimes.
I... never really had a childhood.
I... can be irresponsible.
I... don't want to be just like everyone else.
I FEEL...
I feel... insufficient at things I want to do.
I feel... undesirable to those I desire.
I feel... unworthy of anyone.
I feel... angry at my father.
I feel... abandoned by everyone.
I HAVE...
I have... ambitions.
I have... a lack of self-control.
I have... low self-esteem.
I have... had braces.
I have... an undying past.
I FEAR...
I fear... losing anyone I love.
I fear... dying alone, or just dying period.
I fear... what can happen in the dark, when no one is looking.
I fear... never experiencing real love again.
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My Interests

My interests are music, art, english, math, just observing people, singing, acting, dancing (if I could do it better), and reading, I suppose. I have hobbies as well, but who cares? jk, I like to see movies, go out and eat, sew, create, do needlepoint, knit, play guitar, play Mario Party (lol), feed the duckies at the park, go on drives, and just hang out I suppose.

I'd like to meet:

I'd like to meet fun people to hang around with, go to concerts with, go out with, people I can just be myself around who like similar things and who can respect and love me for who I really am. Someone who can take me out on a real date and be a man about it, or should I say a gentleman. Not someone just opening doors because he wants to get down your pants on the first date. I mean, a genuine person, true to themselves. Someone who can prove to me that life is more than just something you have to get through and that friends are what get you through the day. You have to be able to be friends with someone before you can love them otherwise your differences will separate you before you even get close.

Music:

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Music is my life. Some of my favorite bands are
MSI
Evanescence
Kittie
Taking Back Sunday
The Used
Motion City Soundtrack
Less Than Jake
Reel Big Fish
The Aquabats
The White Stripes

Movies:

Movies are amazing! Some of my favorites are:
Anchorman
Stranger Than Fiction
Zoolander
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
Requiem For A Dream
The Life of Brain
Underworld and Underworld Evolution
Girl Interrupted
White Oleander
Fight Club
Donnie Darko
The Rocky Horror Picture Show
I adore funny movies. Laughing is definitely a highlight of life.

Television:

I'm not much of a television person really... I think that it really gives people an unrealistic standard of what society wants you, as a person, to be. I watch tv at other people's houses and I do like Family Guy. ha.

Books:

Anything by Anne Rice... um... Greg Behrent is a very talented writer as well. I loved the Replica Series. Some biographies. Not so much horror stuff though. Wicca books are always good.

Heroes:

Guitar Hero! lol and my mother of course. =)

My Blog

Moving forward... I think

So I started my new job at Hertz on Monday, or should I say new job training. I love it so far. I am farther than anyone in the class and I have completed everything first (which reminds me, I have ho...
Posted by its easier if you just accept that im awesome on Sat, 17 May 2008 09:42:00 PST

No matter what they told you, you’re not alone

Take me away from this placeTake me away from meRemove my brain, my heart, my organs from withinThe seed grows deepIt's grown so longThis pattern I can not breakIt's taking over meI no longer have con...
Posted by its easier if you just accept that im awesome on Thu, 01 May 2008 11:25:00 PST

It will get better

I don't need your shoulder to cry onor your hand to catch me if I fall.It's out of my control.You took too long to seenow I don't want your help at all.I can't stand here alone and watch you fall.You&...
Posted by its easier if you just accept that im awesome on Mon, 21 Apr 2008 11:16:00 PST

I lovely lie of a lost cause

if I'm dreaming,why is the pain so real?it's raining ice.pouring fate.I'm sweating empathybut standing still.mind racing.eyes wander.is all this new?so I hide.or run away.I'm still here.left behind?bu...
Posted by its easier if you just accept that im awesome on Mon, 21 Apr 2008 11:10:00 PST

April showers...

bring may...?.... I'm not so sure we're gonna have all these flowers considering the weather that has been going on lately. And this mysterious "they" say that global warming is a myth. psh!
Posted by its easier if you just accept that im awesome on Mon, 21 Apr 2008 11:05:00 PST

all of me

I don't remember the first time I realized I was interested in girls sexually because I think I have always looked at both as sexual beings. Both have their assets and their faults. Both can make you ...
Posted by its easier if you just accept that im awesome on Mon, 21 Apr 2008 11:31:00 PST

could you repeat that?

Drink off your dress.It's all starting again.Drown all your regret and bury your face in shame.But you're the life of the party-they say.The air supply is sucked directly from your lungs.They suck you...
Posted by its easier if you just accept that im awesome on Mon, 21 Apr 2008 11:03:00 PST

The Glass

it doesn't really matterwhether the glass is half fullor half empty-either way something is missing
Posted by its easier if you just accept that im awesome on Mon, 21 Apr 2008 11:00:00 PST

*******

I can’t shake the stress againbottling upI can’t breatheI want to let it gobut it’s tied in knotsaround my neckmy heart burnsthis sicknessis more like a diseasethat weighs me downund...
Posted by its easier if you just accept that im awesome on Wed, 19 Mar 2008 12:57:00 PST

time

my mind is running dryon overtime-too much timeyet it seems to be not enoughbut I’ve lost sense of this-so called timemeasuring every movement of humanitycapturing every memoryholding stead...
Posted by its easier if you just accept that im awesome on Wed, 19 Mar 2008 12:54:00 PST