Kurt

im sorry i dont check this space so much(because i'm dead), hardly at all, i always forget. so people please be patient."Punk is musical freedom. It's saying, doing and playing what you want. In Webster's terms, 'nirvana' means freedom from pain, suffering and the external world, and that's pretty close to my definition of Punk Rock."-Kurt Cobain...................................................... ............................................................ ............................................................ ............. My favorite songs are something in the way because it has to do with my time of life that sucked balls, do re mi because i just love it, and smells like teen spirit because my fans love it and i love my fans.. by the way, I dont want fans that are mean, racist, cruel, posers, rapers or anything bad......................................................... ............................................................ ........................................................To Boddah pronounced Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile camplainee. This note should be pretty easy to understand. All the warnings from the punk rock 101 courses over the years. Since my first introduction to the, shall we say, ethics involved with independence and the embracement of your community has proven to be very true. I haven't felt the exitement of listening to as well as creating music along with reading and writing for too many years now. I feel guilty beyond words about these things. For example when we're backstage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowd begins it doesn't affect me the way in which it did for Freddy Mercury who seemed to love. relish in the love and adoration from the crowd. Which is something I totally admire and envy. The fact is I can't fool you. Any one of you. It simply isn't fair to you or me. The worst crime I can think of would be to rip people off by faking it and pretending as if I'm having 100 % fun. Sometimes I feel as if I should have a punch in time clock before I walk out on stage. I've tried everything within my power to appreciate it, (and I do. God, believe me I do, but it's not enough. I appreciate the fact that I and we have affected and entertained a lot of people. I must be one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when they're one. I'm too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasm I once had as a child. On our last three tours I've had a much better appreciation for all the people I've known personally and as fans of our music, but I still can't get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone.There's good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much. So much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. The sad little, sensitive, unappreciative, pisces, Jesus man! Why don't you just enjoy it? I don't know! I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy and a daughter who reminds me too much of what I used to be. Full of love and joy kissing every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function. I can't stand the thought of Frances becoming the miserable self-destructive, death rocker that I've become. I have it good, very good, and I'm grateful, but since the age of seven I've become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along, and have empathy. Empathy! Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much I guess. Thank you all from the pit of my burning, nauceous stomach and remember, its better to burn out than to fade away. peace, love, empathy. Kurt Cobain.I'd rather be hated for who i am then loved for who i ampunkrock is nirvana to me ..... . . . .Kurt Cobain was a great, depressed, struggled musician. he had a huge heart and a great mind, and without knowing it he changed music history forever and is one of the most popular musicians in the world.Sure he wasnt a good guitarist, he couldnt pull off a line like hendrix, gilmour or page, you might be wondering or mad why he is considered so good or as good as them even though he couldnt play to well, its cuz he is a great musician and he is proof that a great musician doesnt have to be good at music....