Video clips of me are located just below my Mood.....
And I only gamble if its with my life!
"True friends stab you in the front."
Too many people hide from their passions just to live the comfortable life, the pursuit of comfort and banality for happiness, some are content with this.... but if thats what it means to be content then HELL WITH THAT!!!
my life changes every year it seems....
new things going on, new viewpoints and all.
I am still Jarred, but i change a lot it seems....
Im not afraid of embarrassment and i don't believe in shame with a natural defiant attitude that only listens to reason always looking for other options.
I enjoy new ideas as long as they arn't self destructive in anyway such as drugs. I've never been drunk or high etc.
I like constructive feedback so dont ever hesitate to tell me whats on your mind, no matter what lol
I have a high level of dreams and goals
but with a sometimes be sassy cuz I feel like ive
experienced it all in a way, so im always trying to feel more....everything is just a phase to me.
so i keep friends cuz i figure i might as well.
sometimes they feel like lab rats but they are more to me then that lol
I dont have much sympathy or empathy for others
unless they really didnt do it to themselves
ive developed a high level of critical thinking but to suit my own perspectives tho....
I am straight to the point with most things and speak my mind freely cuz i feel that is as truthful and genuine as one can get.
so im always willing to learn about others personalities and how they c things, but i dont care if they dont even know why they think the way they do lol
I am rarely content having this ongoing striving to know everything to no end and as you can see I am a very open book due to not believing in insecure based reputations cuz i would rather deviate from the norm then just do as others do and due to this I am not afraid of you using information against me, the world is quite big actually.
Over exaggerating things is really annoying to me, if u want more drama in your life then go do different things.
I am not big on excuses and tend to be judgmental towards those who are full of them! and superficial things are just superficiality, not reality!
I don't expect everyone to like me but the ones that do are much appreciated.
My style is far more inventive then traditional in many cases.
I am a playful giggly type of person who knows the difference between love and lust and with this high sense of adventure enjoys getting to know new people ^_^
Thank you for taking an interest!
My History:
age 1-3= Born in Kentucky but dont remember it really.
age 4-15=Raised in Minnesota on a dairy farm with cows and fields. ^_^
age 9 = Got to choose my own first name in 2nd grade to what it is now.
age 12= Knows that inventing board games is a main hobby/passion of mine!
age 14-15= Found a good group of friends at lunch in middle school all playing magic cards
age 15-18= Decided to home school through high school for whatever reasons on the farm.
age 18-20=Went to college for Massage Therapy my associates degree.
Lost my virginity at age 21, and went off to L.A. to live on my own.
age 21-22=Owned my own business for a while there but relatively homeless.
age 23-24= Regrouped myself back at home with a wonderful mom who lets me do anything.
age 24 = By this point ive had 33 jobs ranging from security guard to exotic dancing.
age 24-Now going back to college again for psychology and am really enjoying learning!
http://www.keirsey.com/keirseytemptheory.aspx
Mirrors and Karma,
Destiny and Luck,
Ethereal and Physical,
Internal and External,
Acceptance and Denial,
Freedom and Confined,
Power and Moral,
Law and Honer,
God and Grim,
Time and Space,
With all being real,
Then when is where if a why?
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Around the dead one lies to mend
In a corps with no beginning
Hollow defend upholds an end
As one cries in hopes of nothing
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Elliptical Earth denies Endless Birth
Bleak forgetting denies ever changing
Tainted perfection denies all obsession
Pure blood water denies curse sworn martyr
Charismatic talents denies a mounted balance
Haunted roses denies venoms frozen
Archaic dreams denies sleeping nemes
Candles of din denies angles within
Inner provoke denies my caged cloak
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Love is not about you, my lone heart.
Love is about the other, all the others...
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There will be the day, when holding on only hurts
There will be the day, when seduction is your curse
There will be the day, when hiding is unallowed
There will be the day, when searching is all you know
There will be the day, when honer is no longer
When there be the day, You wallow in my ego!
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On this beach of bones, births a barricade of benevolence
In these skies of seraphs, they search for a sphere of sins
Around this grave of ghosts, gardens a gambit of gates
Between these islands of ire, they fall ill to immortality
Below this promontory of peril, Punishes all to piaculum
Abuve these auras of outcasts, they obide to no ordinance
Unto this liar of luck, lucids a lotus of lycanthropy
Apon these dimensions of divinity, they dream of a docile demon
Dead rooted rage of rituals, race to revive a red rose
live whispers of winter wasps, they wake to warp your wounds
The marauding of martyrs, massacre's merely the merciful
You hide in the hopes of help, they hollow your hate of harmony
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Someone once told me that an utopia can't exist
I figured his veiw of it must have been little off
He proceeded to convince me that it was impossible
As I pondered to realize that his idea certainly was
Instead of wondering what thoughts were in my head
He remained blind unquestioning me and himself
We are all to believe what we want and what we choose
I just know that my limits of this are ever changing
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Shackles disarm my shields slithering across a harmonic voyage, seers abominate my sea of bodies caged in solid flames, crowned by the thought that peace was to be my utopia, I embrace the barbs of anarchy letting my lungs slip away.
Kneel before my kind as the one who disciples only wishes, fathom a blood of black winds marching below all respects, in a kamakazee ritual hide with the lurkers whom dance with the dead, dainted by the reality that my malice is only for god.
Whirling like the cries of a hundred wolves my prayers only place me victim, Chasing a hound which prays on my scent, through a labyrinth of mazes on a universe of globes, rape my lies and anoite my oaths in the name of truth.
Beholder of shields flamed in peace crown my anarchy before its time, disciples of wishes bleed in black lurk for god among the dancing dead, cry a song through out the universe on a truth that I merely chase, my memories of you hold me true in a heart thats crippled apart.
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Jarred's interpretation of imagination kindreds:
@ Critical = Taking things in as detail oriented. However connecting dots seems to come natural to them.
@ Counterparts = Applying objects or things to one another to find the next purposeful idea in life.
@ Emotional = Spiritual or ethereal connections in any ways or just changing their outlook on a situation and grasping the concept of those ideals.
@ Abstract = Imagination where the persons idea's seem to come out of know where on the spot and are usually very symbolic.
- Memory = is used for both critical and abstract as polar opposites in a way, one being simple straight forwards the other being more of a conglomeration.
- Historic = is used for counterparts and emotional as polar opposites in a trial and error basis, ones mainly detail thought provoked the other is more conceptual.
Abstract & Emotional use internal ways of putting things together.
Counterparts & Critical use external ways of putting things together.
@ Applying senses to them at different strengths wheather it be visually, auditory or kinesthetic without even being in the situation is a whole nother scale. Practice makes perfect with all of the branches of imagination.
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Charecters in my book: The Journals of Dove.
Dove: Ghost Born, symbolizes Curiosity
Othash: Shape shifter, symbolizes Confusion
Couldren: Ambrosian Thrall, symbolizes Moral
Karinath: Shadow Slave, symbolizes Order
Arybis: Fallen Disciple, symbolizes Faith
Rane: Hollow Rose, symbolizes Manipulation
Illotus: Martyr Dame, symbolizes Power
Glyft: Exiled Dance, symbolizes Searching
Sir Perjian: Karma Hunter, symbolizes Justice
Xixi: Angel Sleeper, symbolizes Fears
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I call the nameless place my home
I call all my journeys as my place
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Who are you? Choose your favorites...
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A).Leader= Genuinely are themselves and is in no way afraid of being just that.
A).Mirror= Reflects a place and time for everything in any/all situations.
B).Charmer= Seeds their schemes scattered wherever their little heart desires.
B).Fighter= Has these set ideals that feels actions speak more loudly then words.
C).Master= Focused on a particular passion and becomes the greatest one of all.
C).Grazer= Is usually uncertain about subjects yet wants to experience it all.
D).Partner= Loyal to one anything in an eternal bonding tie forever and ever.
D).Thinker= Self obsorbed in their analysis to critically see between all lines.
E).Anchor= Stable minded emotinally, finacially, mentally as the way to be.
E).Dreamer= Impulsive behaviors and loves to play as they imagine their ways.
f).Sinner= The ones who dare to stray on their own path and be a somebody.
f).Healer= Compassionate to all and spreads the warmth between all crevices.
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