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m i d l o p e

the deeper you go the darker it gets

About Me

25, male, on a border, touching things. Loves green skies and heavy fogs.

My Interests

transformation, freedom as a sense, ecstasy, extremes, the breakdown of symbol, sensuality, ineffability

I'd like to meet:

myself without linkage, White Tara, Colette Thomas, Saint Lucy, Syd Barrett in the woods, fireflies

Music:

Alexei Stanchinsky, late Skriabin, Ciurlionis, old Liszt, Syd Barrett, Les Rallizes Denudes, Luigi Russolo, Mosolov, Schillinger, Ustvolskaya, Mainliner, High Rise, LSD March, Comus, Sciarrino, Luciano Cilio, Tar Pet, Plastic Crimewave, Spires That in the Sunsets Rise, Calico Wall, Third Bardo, Wyschnegradsky, Gesualdo, Merzbow

Movies:

Artaud's bit in Joan D'Arc when the nuclear bomb went off

Television:

static

Books:

Lautreamont, Artaud, Styrsky, Mishima, Kafka, abnormal psychology, technical writing, visionary mysticisms, Breton, Bataille, A. di Michele, outsider art

Heroes:

Maldoror, Archilochus, Mishima, Les Rallizes Denudes, Syd Barrett, Hijikata, le momo, Richard Dadd, Unica Zurn, Sonia Sekula, Caracalla

My Blog

sloop

a surge of eyesspun bird-flightsI caught the reflectionfrom her watchas it wobbled on my handlike a flagnow, in bed,childhood floating to my surfacedreams poking throughlike chesthairswe've becomeaqua...
Posted by m i d l o p e on Fri, 19 Sep 2008 02:53:00 PST

strawberry matter

tide-stains on the window.  throbbing dick of a headache.  splatter.a ceiling fan stirs my chest hairs while i shrink between flanking sheets.my right palm upturned.  christ-in-prosthes...
Posted by m i d l o p e on Sun, 03 Aug 2008 01:56:00 PST

egg

12 steps to the .22 that broke my reflection in a narrow yellow strip.put 2 in the chamber.  light a cig.  maybe irony.  nicotine, then death.open the front door.  maybe away is be...
Posted by m i d l o p e on Thu, 31 Jul 2008 11:52:00 PST

phospho tide

a woman in blue shoes.   stainless.   the rug on the wall swings my eyes away from the faux-wood paneling.  shrug.  some sort of failing of mine-- the urge to carpet, the...
Posted by m i d l o p e on Fri, 25 Jul 2008 12:13:00 PST

angsty, grey

1:30.  a little off the dot.   the loneliness sets in.  maybe a placebo effect.  or just protocol.the bed's raw, sheetless.  a sheeny blue mattress, a thin blanket, crumpled l...
Posted by m i d l o p e on Sun, 20 Jul 2008 12:04:00 PST

the room. 1.

a nightlight moans in the darkness.  sam the sham & the pharaohs' "little red riding hood" is lapping at the oily door, humping the indifferent drywall.  you're combing your hair in a gr...
Posted by m i d l o p e on Tue, 08 Jul 2008 01:56:00 PST

a greyscale neon scape

the smell of turpentine idles in.   streaks on the window from a dog's wet nose.  the wet bottom of my dissociated shoes.  incapacitated, i crawl on top of the hair you sheared from my ...
Posted by m i d l o p e on Mon, 07 Jul 2008 12:24:00 PST

enamel

a shrug.   she leans forward on a pleather-cushioned chair, draping her fingers around a small, unresponsive dinner bell.  a thin string dangles from the sleeve of her hoodie.  the cig ...
Posted by m i d l o p e on Sun, 06 Jul 2008 12:58:00 PST

future sale

his left hand is wet.  a mixture of rosewater and gasoline, a top-heavy smile that snaps into a mumble when his eyes are met, crash-like.  he wants the ivy that hangs right above and behind ...
Posted by m i d l o p e on Wed, 02 Jul 2008 02:10:00 PST

spartan/nodding

Obukhov under my mattress.  Clenched obliques, sweat, headache centered in the occipital, remembered rosaries turning into seaweed, then the white dotted lines of a highway straightaway...
Posted by m i d l o p e on Mon, 30 Jun 2008 11:04:00 PST