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citizen starcrusher

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About Me


"As if that blind rage had washed me clean, rid me of hope; for the first time, in that night alive with signs and stars, I opened myself to the gentle indifference of the world. Finding it so much like myself—so like a brother, really—I felt that I had been happy and that I was happy again. For everything to be consummated, for me to feel less alone, I had only to wish that there be a large crowd of spectators the day of my execution and that they greet me with cries of hate."

My Interests

- Writing + Poetry
- Reading
- Art
- Music
- Movies
- Sports
- Thick Ladies
- Video Games
- Manga
- Thinking
- Guns
- Weightlifting
- Hair
- Design + Architecture
- Food + Drink
- Body Modification

I'd like to meet:



circa mid '02. we were all just kids back then.

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My Blog

song for her

trying to do something goodtry and build a new world orderbaby if you think we shouldtell me on the tape recordertell me that alone you stoodhear about my sleep disorderthe faux pas 'misunderstood'hol...
Posted by citizen starcrusher on Tue, 06 May 2008 03:25:00 PST

falling

title : "falling" - named it after the song i had on repeatmodel : my gf, from memorycatering : several cans of coke zerooverall expense : ???total time : 5-ish hours, between the pencil, scan, cell s...
Posted by citizen starcrusher on Sun, 20 Apr 2008 02:26:00 PST

heady fluff

you are a light, my dearcast into my lifedark things scattermy eyes react to the changeand quickly grow accustomedi would stumble and falterwithout your beautiful illuminationto bask in your pulchritu...
Posted by citizen starcrusher on Sun, 06 Apr 2008 01:26:00 PST

return of the existentialist fuckhead

"Mankind, instead of being the central figure on the stage of reality, the rational creature for whom the nonrational world exists, is actually an accident, a late and adventitious newcomer whose life...
Posted by citizen starcrusher on Sat, 05 Apr 2008 04:09:00 PST

ruin

and thinking lately;that maybe i am to ruin myselfwhat if i were just to beat in my brains?is it true that the world and it’s people might change?that i won’t have to play the same fucking...
Posted by citizen starcrusher on Mon, 24 Mar 2008 03:23:00 PST

goodbye halcyon days

it’s five in the morningi can’t ever sleepi’ve become weak againreliantdon’t mind it-they said :i can’t explain it to youyour mother, that’s who loves youi know i&r...
Posted by citizen starcrusher on Sat, 15 Mar 2008 05:23:00 PST

comfort

we all look for itthe natural reaction to the inherent cruelty; life
Posted by citizen starcrusher on Wed, 12 Mar 2008 09:47:00 PST

death and love

i write too much about death and lovebut that's all there is to ityou can live without loveand die the same wayor center yourselfand bring death to paindeath is where we're all goinglove lets us enjoy...
Posted by citizen starcrusher on Fri, 22 Feb 2008 04:03:00 PST

no fate

why do i like to break myselfwhy do i only like things that are fucked upwhy do i make things more complicated than they arewhy am i so plagued with concern over my imagewhy does everyone need to know...
Posted by citizen starcrusher on Sat, 09 Feb 2008 04:15:00 PST

im thinking with a gaussian blur

but it's alrighti loose myself with youand it feels so god damn magnificentlove, bleak, important, crying, kissing, release, greyscale ---hip, sad, happy, fucked ----why, why not, life, death ---word,...
Posted by citizen starcrusher on Fri, 01 Feb 2008 02:22:00 PST