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This is the picture I paint of myself today....
I'm an eclectic (sometimes blonde) brunette, about 40 pounds overweight - well proportioned (I think-chubby all over, not just in one spot), 5' 8 1/2" tall. I have naturally curly hair that's going gray just above both temples (bride of Frankenstein - ack!), it's just below shoulder length. I have a belly, stretch marks, scars and tattoos, & I love them all.
I consider myself painfully honest, open-minded, loyal to a fault, compassionate, & passionate. My preferred companions don't judge a book by its cover, just as I don't. A good sense of humor, HONESTY, COMPASSION, EMPATHY and open mindedness are important qualities for the people in my life to posses.
I LOVE music, both playing & listening. I read every day, mostly for entertainment in the crime and horror genre, but sometimes something spiritual in nature. I enjoy very much watching movies - murder mysteries, thrillers, horrors, comedies and anything with music!
Every day I'm being creative with my computer and/or beads or whatever grabs my interest at the moment.
I'm medically retired on a small fixed income, and do some odd jobs and sell my beadwork for extra money. Because of my finances, I don't get out a lot, but when I do, I'd much prefer to go to a large body of water, or a museum, rather than a bar or a movie theater. I love to spend time on, in or near water. My wild-child days of drinking and partying until I'm sick are far behind me, but my wild-child spirit still raves on and I have just as much fun singing and dancing in my own living room.
I'm highly domesticated, and much prefer to try to cook some lovely new recipe for dinner than go out and buy an expensive meal. If I see something I like, I'll usually try to make it before I'll buy it.
Besides finances being an issue, I have to sheepishly admit that sometimes I choose not to participate in outside interests because I can't take my doggie-baby-most-best-friend Gracie along (hence the loyal to a fault?).
My desire to be completely honest with those I care about sometimes winds up meaning that I avoid them altogether, because the things I feel I need to say might not be received well. Either because it might make me look bad (human?),
or I feel it's something they won't want to hear.
I am inconstant and fickle. I'm a diagnosed-and-being- treated-manic-depressive. My moods change usually in monthly cycles, and I don't tend to stay committed to many things (as evidenced by my beadwork or lack thereof).
However, my claim to fierce loyalty is absolutely true in my mind, which means if I love you as my friend, you may not hear from me for a month or two, but if someone says a bad word about you, or causes you some harm, I'll beat their ass
(figuratively speaking - perhaps literally depending on what time of the month it is).
I am not dependable. I am not to be counted on unless you are in physical or emotional distress or danger and Sunshine would probably say don't count on me even then.
I'm lazy and selfish. There's too many ways to illustrate this to bother going into it, I'm too lazy.
I am avoiding my friends who are boys because of a not-so- recent heart-hurt, and relationships that appear to me to have the slightest chance of trying to be romantic are like the plague. If the boys treat me like one of the boys, perhaps I can get over my avoidance.
Generally speaking if you give me one ouchy, or two, regardless of gender, you become the plague.
I am a poor person with a spending problem. Spending money is one of the only mood-altering activities I participate in...
So, to sum up, I'm inconstant, fickle, irrational, undependable, lazy, selfish and living a great portion of my life in fear.
Anyone interested in making friends with a chubby, domesticated, inconstant, fickle, irrational, undependable, lazy, selfish, fearful semi-hermit, hippie computer nerd, feel free to contact me!