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***Hi !My name is Teresa (Terri) and I live in a little town on the West Coast. I was once lost in a sea of drugs, alcohol, loneliness, depression, rejection, defeat, hopelessness and confused about why I existed. Never knowing yet always seeking the meaning of life. I mean, what the heck! Why are we even on this earth? Why is there so much pain? Why does the pain stay? Why doesn't the alcohol and drugs help me? It makes me feel a little bit better temporarily, but the pain always comes back… Why? So many questions, but never any answers! My life seemed hugely wasted. …..Ya know, drinking was my way of cutting. A lot of people cut/self mutilate. My drinking (for 25 years) was my cutting. But it was never enough.Now, don't get me wrong. I was great looking on the outside, lots of male attention, drove a corvette, had a great house, successful in my career, money in the bank...but still, alone on the inside, always, always alone, always in pain, never knowing, always looking, never finding. There didn't seem to be anyway out… but death.....suicide.One evening….. June 17, 1999 to be exact, I was in my living room, all by myself. I suddenly realized that I was all used up. No more fight, no nothing except emptiness. Sick and tired of being sick and tired of being sick and tired, if you get my drift. The end of my lifelong struggle had come to an end. I didn't want to go on any longer; I had no more fight left in me. I started crying (like I had done a million times before)... but this time was different. Some unfamiliar words started coming out of my mouth….new words….strangely new… what was I saying? Why was I saying this? The words were: "Jesus, please help me, I can't take this anymore".Now you need to know, through-out my whole life, I thought all this bible and Jesus stuff was, well, just mamby pamby religious tradition stuff that didn't have much meaning. I always believed in the "Big Bang" theory, and you know, the ape thing, didn't really believe in the Adam and Eve thing. Well, I got the "BIG BANG" that night all right.That evening I experienced a miracle. Jesus DID answer me! I WAS SHOCKED! JESUS REALLY DID EXIST, HE WASN'T JUST A MYTH, HE WAS REAL!!! I went through the "salvation" experience that afternoon, right there, in my own living room, all by myself, with no body else around. I was completely delivered from alcoholism in that second, and haven't touched a drop since then (no AA for me, Jesus delivered me from that alcohol demon). He put His spirit inside of me which started me on my journey in "The New Creation" experience.(read 2Corninthians 5:17 in the bible). Now, you might be saying, "well, good for you, but it will never happen to me because I am not good enough and I can't wrap my mind around something like that". Well, you're dead wrong.John 3:16 says that God loved the world so much that he gave His only Son as a sacrifice for our sins, that we can have eternal life with Him (paraphrased). As for wrapping your mind around it and understanding the salvation experience…please don't try to make "logical" sense of it, this is not something we try to "figure out", it is something we just believe by faith. The bible says that God put "a measure of faith" in us all ...in order for us to believe in Him.So, you are no different than me, and if God did this for me (a big time sinner), He can and will do it for you too,and desires to do it for you. He loves you and gave His life for you that you might come to know him and His good intents for your life (read Jeremiah 29:11). So you see, Salvation is a free gift from God, it's for you, for me and for all who are willing to receive Him.If you don't have Jesus in your life, do you want to? If so, just talk (pray) to Him. Tell Him that you repent of your sins (this part is important). Ask him to save you and fill you with His spirit, to teach you His word and help you stay out of sin....Now, He might not reveal himself to you in the same manner He did to me, He works in different ways, but I guarantee that He is listening and willing and ready to give you life eternal with him. Trust Him. He will never fail you, nor will He ever leave you. If you would like to pray the above prayer and start living for Him, please do so now, don't wait!!!After you pray, believe by faith that you are saved. Get yourself into a good bible teaching church that also manifests Gods power and love. Getting into a church is vital. We need each other and the bible tells us to fellowship with each other. You will also need a bible to start learning about God's Word and your new life.
Be blessed and prosper! Teresa..
