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"Sometimes some people get me wrong, when it's something I've said or done Sometimes you feel there is no fun, that's why you turn and run But now I truly realise, some people don't wanna compromise Well, I saw them with my own eyes spreading those lies, and Well I don't wanna live my life, too many sleepless nights Not mentioning the fights, I'm sorry to say lady I'm walking away from the troubles in my life."
i was so much prettier when i hated myself.
i want to be so much more then what i am.
it kills me to know im not what i want, im not everything that she wants
i am a very insecure person, yet i am also extremely confident.
i have never felt like i was the only woman on someones mind while i was dating them... i always and still do feel that the woman i date still thinks of someone else as meaning more to them then me.
never been told i was perfect and believed it.
never been told i was something to amazing to handle.
i guess ive never felt like i was anything special from anyone else.
nobody has ever made me feel like i was- and when someone does. ill be sure to erase this...

You're a Lipstick Lesbian!

You're the one all the guys want and you like to let them know they can't have you. You're quite popular and you've got good hair. I hate you, but OH how I love you. Let's dance together at prom, you sexy bitch.
i mean everything i say.
--if i say its the truth it is, and if i say its false- it is.
i dont say things to make people "happy".
my opinions are set in stone. What i say i mean.
DO NOT take me for granted. Once you flip MY bitch switch, i feel sorry for you.
for once i would love to have someone actually show that they care. Love is not only about saying it- but showing it too. Even a post-it note on my door saying "thinking of you" is a good way. I dont expect expensive things. Doing the little things like... buying lunch and taking it to their work, thinking of little things that just the 2 of you can do. I LOVE suprises- but i can easily hate them if you stupidly tell me.
i hate people that go back on what they say. Dont be immature and wishy washey around me, i have ZERO tolerance. I believe in Karma and so will YOU (( ill make sure of it)) if you make me mad. Play me dirty and see what you get back. I dare you :).
The day someone cordually comes up to me and asks me on a date i will flip. Im convinced itll never happen. For once i want someone to show interest by doing more than me. Taking the FIRST initiative, showing enthuasiam in gettign to know me.
Dont hit on me, stop sending me mesages and shit unless 1.) you are a female. this is a lesbians profile doofus. 2.)have read this and know that saying "hey baby you have amazing tits can i feel them sometime?" will get you a slap in the face. NOT a reply back.
i have amazing friends. and my best friend is just as crazy as me so... i geuss if you make either one of us mad youll get 2 angry bitches fior the price of one... oh look its the karma bullshit ive been talking about :). I am very compassionate and have these ears that love to listen. And my friends like to bitch so it evens out :).
yeah so i am bitchy. Thats because if im nice people walk over me. Im sick of being a bridge for assholes. Now ... i have this internall ball of bitch built inside. But believe it or not i do have a soft spot for people.
I love meeting new people. and laughing. Laughter is the only medicine i want. Im SUCH a sucker for motivated sweet women that it would probably shock you. Yeah, i am capable of being molded into a big pile of lesbian mush once in a while.
i love fast food. HA. probably why im not 100lbs. BUT... i also love working out.
going to my weekly kickboxing class, and dance class. and using my punching bag at home.
dont touch me. ill hurt you :).
im super spontaneous. yes, i will do things at 3 in the morning, and dont worry you wont wake me up because im nocternal.
i like staying in and going out at 8 at night. The night looks alive then.
i like going for walks. BUT not alone anymore. wanna come with??...
im always looking into my future. Criminal Justive will be my major and becomming a homicide detective will be my ultimate goal.
i love the rain, especially if its still sunny out.

I believe in love and lust and sex and romance.
I don’t want everything to add up to some perfect equation.
I want mess and chaos.
I want someone to go crazy, out of her mind for me.
I want to feel passion and heat and sweat and madness, and I want Valentines and Cupids and all the rest of that crap.
I want it all

and this my love. this is what i call life.
this is what happens when the insomniacs attack. this is what happens when you run on diet pills & water for 8 1/2 days straight. This is what happens when you think to much and over analyze every little detail of every given subject. This is for waking up 15 minutes before you have to leave and still get compliments on how good you look throughotu the day. This is for knowing its wrong but doing it anyways because your heart told you to. This is for the artists, the creaters, the lovers and the fighters. This is for the "emo", the punk, the preps, the goths, the nerds, the band geeks, and the lipglosses. This is for going to work and forgetting everything. This is for singing in the car and dancing at red lights and looking next to you and realizing the people in teh car are staring at you like your fucked up. This is for saying good-bye to a past love that did you wrong... and staying gone, for once- that one person who made you unbreakable broke you. This is for saying life screws you over with a smile on your face. This is for reading books and libraries. This is for the happy couples who love, love. This is for the people who have the "idowhatiwant" attitude. This is for who the whogivesa shit's. This is for being a waitress and going up to your table saying "My names Perkins welcome to Tessa! How can i help you?" with a straight face. This is for drinking and not driving. This is for realizing the best you ever had must not have been the best since it ended. This is for realizing family counts. This is for not giving up without a fight. This is for screaming and pulling your hair and throwing child like temper tantrums. This is for everybodys who were once nobodys. This is for the people who thought they were less then dirt and brought themselves back up to diamonds in the rough. This is for diamonds being a girls best friend. This is for laughing at the most inapproprite times. This is for your cell phone going off at the total wrong time. This is for trying a sport and failing miserably. This is for the confidence, and lack of. This is for the will, the drive, the motivational push. This is for the shouldve's and hasbeens who will always be known as "once a great...". This is for not finishing 3rd. This is for Diet Coke and fuck you, its better then regular. This is for random drives because you can. This is for love and doing it right. This is for holding hands not just because its "cute" but really because you cant be in that persons presence without touching them somehow. This is for you rather taking pictures of the funny things that happen in a night rather then one with maybe all smiles. This is for bitchyness. This is for the kind hearted. This is for the authenticity you present. This is for fast food and tredmills. This is for working out working hard. This is for the blood, sweat, and tears put into making yourself who you want to be. This is for molding yourself to your ideal perfect.This is for not getting angry, but getting revenge. This is for personality. This is for Starbucks vanilla frapuccinos. This is for elation. This is for Edgar Allen Poe and The Scarlet Letter. This is for every little thing in life symbolizing something. This is for not wanting to just fuck, but make love. This is for that palce inbetween sleep and awake. This is for random ass text messages. This is for the "im sorrys" that wont matter
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