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~I am Andii/Ikemari/Kaji/Toushiro/Shamu/the Portable Portal/many many many other things ^^
~I'm a guy, if you couldn't already tell O.o.
~My age is a secret...that is...unless you already know it.
~I love playing videogames, especially RainRO, a private server for Ragnarok Online.
~Drawing is...one of the few things i'm ok at, along with playing the piano....and videogames :D
~I can be a very artistic person, and like to give things my own personality.
~My profile changes randomly, but in fun ways ^^
~Sometime's not all that fun, just a few things here and there.
~I don't know why i'm here writing this...i'm just bored.
~i like squigglies :D
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~are you done reading about me?
~stalker .

[murasaki furyou ka](violet downfall) -written by me, andii-
(sana helped with the japanese)
losing everything
i'm broken apart
i can't even conjure the words
everything's just so unclear
thundering inside my head
echoing inside my mind

i want you to see
i just want you to know
these feelings i'm suffering
but you can't, you just can't
falling into the crowd
becoming just another face

am i going mad?
am i imagining things?

among my jumbled words
among my scrambled thoughts
i just want to say
what i can't seem to say
somewhere in my mind
somewhere in my head
i'm always thinking of you
but i'm falling behind

i'm losing all of my hope
i'm losing all of my will
my will to live is...
it's withering away
this darkness taking over
this nightmare taking over
i'm falling into nothing
i just wanted to know...

kimi dare ka?
boku dare ka?
boku wa nanimo nai, demo...
kimi dake wa, boku no subete...

These are my friends who mean very much to me, but i've only met them online, which is the only reason they aren't on my top.
this is Sana. she's like my cool asian sister ^^' she's helping me learn japanese a little bit, and she's a really good friend.

This is Sam ^^ I can tell her anything, and not have to worry about being judged by her. I don't see her online as much anymore, but anytime i can talk to her is a really good time.

This is Mar and her iPod. ^^ She's a really cool person, and i love her hair XD it's sooo amazing. it's all like...."whoosh! rawr! bang! kapow! i'm cooler than you!"

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Male
17 yrs old
United States
sch'dy, New York
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127lbs
5'4 1/2"
"you crush your hat and hope to die"

hey..

People call me Andii. I have a few random nicknames here and there, but unless you know them...there's no point in telling them to you.
I like japan, very much...if you couldn't tell already. I like Anime, Manga, J-rock, Visual Kei, Japanese...well...all the stuff that comes with japan.
no, i'm not a japanese fanboy just like all the other japanese fanboys. I don't like this stuff because other people do, or because i'm "supposed to"...I just like it, because i actually find it interesting. Unlike most things here in america _
aaanyways, on to me...I am...a very sentimental person, yet, i'm always emotionally confused. I never truely know what i want...I rarely understand what I'm thinking. I am very indecisive. I'm also very unorganized...yet, me being unorganized to most people, I'm actually quite organized in my eyes. Because, I tend to know where things are, and even in my writing, even though it's mostly jumbled nonsense, it makes sense to me.
one thing you'll probably notice about me if you talk to me long enough, is that i contradict a lot of the things i say. I can't help it though, it's just part of the fact that i don't understand what goes on in my mind.
I'm trying to make this look organized...but if you couldn't tell...it's not....oh well.
well, i like kitties, very much ^^. they're my favorite animal. I don't like people very muc. I have a hard time getting close to people...there's very few people i've gotten close to. And a lot of the people i get close to, i end up...parting with them. because, i dunno...I have a hard time staying close to people. If you want to try to get close to me, go ahead ^^ i just can't promise that we'll stay close...
that's prolly why i'm always single too...because i can't stay close...i can't find the right person...i don't think they're out there...i don't get my right person. but that's okay...i'm living...sorta...
oh yeah, i hate being single. I'm prettymuch...always single, because nobody talks to me...and if people don't talk to me, i don't talk to them...because i'm shy like that. I talk to people online...that's different, but in person, i'm..very shy. and i hate it. If you want to talk to me, go ahead, i don't judge people. I just want to be talked to...i don't like being alone..
by the way, i'm taking breaks while writing this...so some stuff might be completely off topic
I like to draw, write lyrics(actually poems i guess you could say, but i call them lyrics, cause i plan on making songs with them), and photoshop pictures, although recently, i haven't been able to. my creativity is shot...
recently, i haven't been able to think straight...at all. I don't even know who i like anymore...I just can't tell. I no longer have a favorite band, favorite person...or anything...i'm so confused it's not funny.
i really like japanese rock, very much...actually, music is one of my favorite things to do. ...er listen to...but i play piano and guitar...sorta..piano i'm really good though. i can sing, although...i'm not sure if it's good. I listen to music very often though. I like a lot of bands very much...up near the top of the list is RENTRER EN SOI, MUCC and D.
I like to play videogames. It's my way of getting away from reality, because i don't have to think of what's going on in the real world. I tend to avoid the real world very often. I live in my own fantasy inside my head.
I can't take drama. I get really depressed if i'm around too much drama. I avoid it as much as possible. I can only take it from myself..and stuff that happens around me. I don't need it from other people. I know that sounds selfish, but oh well. If you do'nt like it, you don't need to talk to me.
I'm not saying that i don't listen to people's problems, I like trying to help people. I just...gah , i don't know how to explain...i'm not gonna bother...so anyways...yeah...
i probably don't sound like a very happy person, or fun to be around, but...i'm just in a bad mood right now...so yeah...i can be happy though, and very hyper and i can be very fun when i get hyper XD
I dislike a lot of things....and i also like a lot of things...i dunno...blah...i suck..
well that's me...if you don't like it, don't talk to me then. i don't care.
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w00t! my first fansign...sorta...lol
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some of my photoshop works:

i can edit photos for anybody, just ask. the only thing is, i'm only home usually mondays, tuesdays, and sunday nights, and that's the only place i havephotoshop, but i'll try to get them done as soon as possible
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New song [kimi wa boku o mirenai]

looking back at the worldlooking through my own eyesi see you, yet...looking through the hatredlooking through all the feari see you, yet...i'm burning insidethe agonizing pain of knowingknowing that ...
Posted by dysphoric maniac on Fri, 02 Mar 2007 08:25:00 PST

nijuu sanbun no boukou [English Translation]

23rd AssaultI'm alone, help meI'm alone, help meI am dyingLove is witheringMaliciousnessEven if it kills me, even if it kills meI'm afraid, help meI'm afraid, help meI am dyingLove is witheringcrying ...
Posted by dysphoric maniac on Thu, 04 Jan 2007 04:07:00 PST

new song: nijuu sanbun no boukou

I wrote a song completely in japanese with barely any help  --> -->  I didn't think i could do it. I'm proud of myself ^.^nijuu sanbun no boukou hitori desu, tasuketehitori desu, tasuketebok...
Posted by dysphoric maniac on Fri, 22 Dec 2006 12:11:00 PST

New song: hitori

alone...lostit's almost overit's almost overbroken in an instant where am i? flutter, flutter,little dragonflyflutter, flutter,into your deathtrap sooner or later it'll endbreaking the chain of madnes...
Posted by dysphoric maniac on Sun, 19 Nov 2006 09:53:00 PST

Fade into Fantasy

Well, here's the most recent song that I've written:   Fade into FantasyI stare as they all pass byAll of the colors faded to a blurSwept away in the hectic crowdTrampled into the mudForgotten an...
Posted by dysphoric maniac on Sun, 04 Jun 2006 11:30:00 PST