I'm not easily defined, or able to be defined into a certain category. What I can tell you is that I choose to remain enigmatic, and usually clairvoyant at most times, that's just how I'm wired I guess. I have found its easy to go about life when you realize your specialties and short comings, and I certainly have a few of both.
Do any of us really know our inner self that well. Seriously if you think about it, do we have any Idea who we are, I like to look at m yself from an outside perspective. I find when I do that I see a whole different side of myself and its kind of refreshing too, why live a lie in denial. I challenge anyone to tell me what they really think, why the hell would anyone want them to tell them what they want to hear, no soul can ever grow that way. I know that I will never truly figure out everything I want to know but that won't stop me from at least trying.
Always striving, and attempting to morph, grow, and transcend my way through this bitter weary, dreary existence we call life, full of strife, but a times full of hope, sometimes life's not easily coped, but still some of us are predestined to overcome our struggles and achieving the long awaited goal that keeps us wanting more. Never deceiving, always believing that a new day awaits, a better way takes away my restraints, and a predetermined state of mind is where I can only find my one true power, hour after hour, I await my fate.
I am loyal to the ones who remain loyal to me, I build up walls so others can break them down. I have filtered through the pointless people that only bring me down, and stick with the ones who allow me to learn from. Love it or leave it, accept me or me reject me, it makes no difference because in the end your true colors always emerge, better sooner than later. I would rather have more enemies than loyal friends if it meant that I didn't have to waste my time with those that choose to remain fake and put on a facade. I have been through enough in my day so far to know that its just not worth the struggle to try to change someone. By now if they haven't learned to change their ways most likely they never will. A wise person learns from their mistakes and does their best to make a new path for themselves when they are not the person they want to be. I don't realy trip on futile things anymore when I run into them, the every day difficulties and struggles that life brings me. I just remind myself what awaits me when I leave this mortal coil.
I have lived, loved, and learned and can never learn enough. In fact I think the more I learn the more I realize I don't know. I have made mistakes like anyone else but I don't regret, regretting, would mean that I regret who I am. I accept who I am, with all the flaws, mistakes, and imperfection so any one who can't accept that isn't a real friend of mine and is a waste of time.
Just like any one else I have seen and observed a lot of beauty and ugliness on this earth. You cannot see the beauty in the world without seeing a the opposite every now and then. I have found that my search for happiness and true satisfaction is found only in God and through keeping the ones I love the most around me. I have learned to be content with just being me no matter what the circumstance, regardless of who I might be infatuated with at the time or what girl I'm in love with. I will keep on being my individual self, and eventually I will find my peace of mind, but in the mean time I will enjoy the ride that is ever so changing, and unfaltering.
"Dreams pass into the reality of action.
From the actions stems the dream again; and this interdependence produces the highest form of living .
The dream was always running ahead of me. To catch up, to live for a moment in unison with it, that was the miracle.
Dreams are necessary to life.
To accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream; not only plan, but also believe.
Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart. Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens.
Nothing happens unless first a dream.
Nothing happens unless first we dream."
"It's the love of guilt that forms the habit
Of being dramatically over-dramatic.
We live like vampires
And we, we, we love like killers;
We all die like infants,
And we trust like mirrors."
"The songs they sing are in the key
Of the illusion of pain and its irony.
In the midst of lust and dropping names
The drugs they numb and they keep us sane.""Slow suicide...like it or not, it's what we do."
