About Me
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LETS SAy THE W0RLd iS c0MPLETELy BLAcK.. FULL 0F dARKNESS..
& y0U d0NT kN0W WHERE T0 G0..
N0 MATTER WHAT y0U diD 0R H0W HARd y0U TRiEd, y0U SEEM T0 ALWAys GET y0URSELF iN THE WR0NG SiTUATi0NS (A L0T LiKE LiFE)..
UNTiL 0NE dAy.. y0U SEE A LiGHT... & THE 0NE WiTH THE LiGHT..
cALLS y0UR NAME... y0U ANSWER.. & y0U BEGAN T0 F0LL0W..
BUT S0METHiNG ELSE GETS iN THE WAy... & WiTH0UT REALiZiNG iT; y0UR SUddENLy diSTRAcTED..
& N0W y0UR 0FF TRAcK.. & y0U L00SE SiGHT 0F THE LiGHT...
THE 0NE WiTH THE LiGHT cALLS y0U.. ANd cALLS y0U.. BUT y0U G0 S0 FAR AWAy y0U cAN N0 L0NGER HEAR HiM..
BUT STiLL HE FiNDS A WAy T0 REAcH y0U.. 0NcE AGAiN, y0U F0LL0W..
BUT N0W y0U HAVE AN idEA 0F WHATS 0UT THERE.. 0UT iN THE dARKNESS..
i MEAN y0U ENJ0yD HAViN FUN WiTH THE PPL y0U MET 0UT THERE iN THE dARKNESS
EVEN TH0UGH y0U WERENT ABLE T0 SEE THEiR TRUE FAcES BEcAUSE 0F THE ABSENCE 0F LiGHT...
y0U FIGURED THEY WERE 0K PE0PLE.. JUST LIKE Y0U, L00KIN F0R S0METHING IN LIFE
y0U HAd FUN F0RGETiNG AB0UT THE LiGHT.. ANd PLEASiNG y0URSELF.. EVEN TH0 A PART 0F y0U REMEMBERD THE LiGHT.. THE 0THER PART 0F y0U W0ULd RATHER d0 WHAT y0U WANTEd.. s00N AFTER THE LiGHT diDNT MATTER AS MUcH...
BUT y0UR BAcK 0N TRAcK & WHiLE y0UR F0LL0WiNG THE LiGHT... y0U dEcIDE T0 MAkE y0UR 0WN TURN & y0U kN0W. JUST T0 SEE WHAT iTS LiKE 0VER THERE.. WHERE y0UR"FRIENDS" ARE.. N0T REALizING THEiR T00 iN dARKNESS..
AGAiN; THE 0NE WiTH THE LiGHT cALLS 0UT y0UR NAME, BUT THiS TiME iTS EVEN HARdER T0 HEAR... y0UR T00 cAUGHT UP iN y0UR MiND.. T00 cAUGHT UP iN THE FUN y0UR HAViNG.. WHiLE THE LiGHT iS GETiNG PUSHED FURTHER.. AND FURTHER AWAy..
y0UR "FRiNEDS" TELL y0U... "MAN EVERyB0dy SAyS THEyVE SEEN THE LiGHT..."
"iT AiNT N0THiN T00 diFFERENT FR0M WHAT WE SEE, WERE d0iN FiNE... JUST THE WAy WE ARE..."
y0U GET cAUGHT UP.. THiNkING JUsT LiKE THE c0MPANy y0U KEEP.. d0iN JUsT WHAT y0UR c0MPANiES BEEN d0iNG..
y0U LiE... y0U STEAL.. y0U cHEAT.. y0U dEF0UL y0UR B0dy. I MEAN AT FiRST iT B0THERD y0U RIGHT?.. BUT THE M0RE y0U diD It... THE EASiER iT BEcAME..
UNTiL 0NE dAy.. y0UR LyiNG GETS y0U iN A PlaCe y0U cANT GET 0UT; & y0U d0NT EVEN UNdERSTAND H0W y0U G0T THERE.. 0R WHy iTS S0 HARd T0 GET 0UT..
N0 MATTER WHERE y0U WENT THiNGS KEPT GETTiNG dARKER.. AND dARKER..
N0 LiGHT ANy WHERE..
TiME WENT 0N: y0U RAN iNT0 A FEW MATcHES LiT.. BUT AFTER WHiLE THEY WENT 0UT.
y0U RAN iN T0 A cANdLE.. THiNGS WERE G00D. BUT AFTER WHiLE..
THAT RAN 0UT..
y0U EVEN F0UNd S0ME0NE.. WH0 WAS AL0T LiKE y0U..S0ME0NE WH0 AFTER A sH0RT WHiLE SAid THEy L0VEd y0U... ANd UNLiKE EVERy0NE ELSE, THiS S0ME0NE WAS diFFERNT. THiS S0ME0NE ALWAys cARRiED A FLASH LiGHT... THEy T0LD y0U H0W MUcH y0U MEAN T0 THEM.. THEy EVEN TELL y0U iTS EN0UGH LiGHT F0R THE B0TH 0F y0U..
BUT AFTER WHiLE... THiNGS cHANGE, THEy cHANGE.. & THE BATTERy diES d0WN..
y0U FiNd y0URSELF iN A dEEPER WH0LE; y0UR L0ST.. EVEN TH0UGH y0U HAVE T00 MUcH PRidE T0 SAy S0... y0UR T00 HURT AND EMBARRASSED T0 TELL y0UR "FRIENDS".. y0U WANT T0 cHANGE.. 0R THAT y0U WANT THE VERy LiGHT y0U M0cKEd.
y0U FEEL LiKE y0UR LiFE iSNT W0RTH iT.. THE FEELiNG 0F EMTyNESS iSNT W0RTH iT... ALL THE PAiN AND UNcERTANTy.. iTS N0T W0RTH iT..
y0U cALL 0UT... y0U cRy.. y0UR SpIRiT iS WEEPiNG..
ALL 0F A SUddEN...
y0U HEAR A SMALL V0iCE..
& THAT V0iCE TELLS y0U T0 STANd UP..
y0U STANd UP...
iT TELLS y0U T0 WALK F0RWARd..
y0U HESiTATE.. y0U SAy "BUT i cANT SEE... W-WHAT iF i FALL?..."
THE V0iCE REsP0Nds cALMy.. "HAVE yE N0 FAiTH?... WALk F0RWARd.."
S0, y0U STANd... & y0U WALK.
y0UR LEGS SHAkiNG... HANdS 0UT iN FR0NT 0F y0U..
&y0U c0NTiNUE T0 WALK.. FURTHER.. ANd FURTHER..
BUT THEN y0U TRiP... ANd y0U FALL...
THE V0iCE SAys.."GET UP... WALk F0RWARd"
S0 y0U GET UP...
& y0U WALK...
THEN..y0U HEAR 0NE 0F y0UR FRiENDS 0N THE LEFT cALLiNG y0U T0 c0ME 0VER...
y0U PREPARE T0 TURN T0WARDS y0UR "FRiEND"
BUT THEN y0U REMEMBER BEF0RE.. y0U REMEMBER JUST WHAT ITS LiKE T0 G0 0FF TRAcK..
& y0U REMEMBER THE V0iCE..
y0U cANT L00SE iT AGAiN..
THEY c0NTiNUE T0 cALL.. THiS TiME iTS M0RE 0F THEM cALLiNG 0UT y0UR NAME
TEMPTiNG y0U WiTH WHAT y0U WiTH THE THiNGS THAT HAd y0U B0UNd...
BUT STiLL, y0U c0NTiNUE T0 WALk...
y0U REALiZE ..y0UR WALkiNG FASTER... & FASTER..
y0UR "FRiENDS" V0iCE SUDDENLy TURNS iNT0 A SH0UT..
THEy cALL y0U A F00L... THEy TELL y0U THEiRS N0THiNG WHERE y0UR G0iNG.. THEiR TELLiNG y0U y0UR A HyPOCRITE & THAT y0UR N0 BETTER THAN THEM..
yET STiLL y0U PUsH...
0NLy N0W y0U REALiZE... y0UR RUNNiNG..
y0U c0ME ACR0SS A HiLL...
S0 y0U cLiMB..
iT STARTs T0 RAiN & THE WiNd BEGiNS T0 BL0W iN THE 0PP0SiTE diREcTi0N..
BUT y0U PUsH..
y0U FALL... y0U FEEL LiKE GiViNG UP
BUT THE TH0UGHT 0F THE LiGHT RES0RES y0UR ENERGy..
y0U STANd.. & y0U PUSH..
y0U cAN N0 L0NGER HEAR THE V0iCE..
BUT dEEP d0WN, y0U kN0W iTS THERE..
y0UR MiNd TRiES TELLiNG y0U y0UR AL0NE...THAT y0U sH0ULD JUsT TURN BAcK
BUT.. y0U SPEAK 0UT..
y0U TELL y0URSELF.. "KEEP G0iNG..."
& S0 y0U RUN THR0UGH THE dARKNESS
WiTH ALL THiNGS PUT AWAy...
& ALL THiNGS LEFT BEHiNd y0U...
.. y0U SL0W d0WN..
y0U SEE A SMALL LiGHT...
y0U WALK cL0SER..
iT GETS BRiGHTER..
y0U WALK EVEN cL0SER & y0U BEGiN T0 SEE THE cUTS & THE BRUiSES & y0U WATcH AS THEy BEGAN T0 HEAL..
THE cL0SER y0U GET THE BRiGHTER THE LiGHT BEc0MES
S0 BRiGHT...y0UR F0RcED T0 TURN AWAy..
THE VERy SAME V0iCE SPEAks T0 y0U..
"WELL d0NE.. THy G00d & FAiTHFUL SERVANT."
BEiNG SAVEd.. MEANS BEiNG BR0UGHT 0UT. BR0UGHT 0UT 0F THE dARKNESS 0F THiS W0RLd iNT0 THE LiGHT 0F JESUS 0UR L0Rd & SAVi0R & HiS MERCy & HiS PEACE.
G0d W0RKs iN MANy WAys.. WAyS WE d0NT ALWAYS UNDERsTANd;
BUT THATS WHy HES G0d... & WHEN WE SEEK HiM diLiGENTLy...
HE BEGiNS T0 0PENS 0UR EyES, & HE BRiNGS A PEACE THAT PASSES ALL UNdERSTANdiNG.
S0 i SAy UNT0 y0U.. T0 THE 0NES LiKE ME; THAT S0METiMES FEEL 0UT 0F PLAcE.. LiKE y0U HAVE T0 cHANGE WH0 y0 ARE 0R WHAT y0U BELIEVE iN 0RdER T0 FiT iN.. WHAT y0U FEEL.. WHAT y0UR L00kiNG F0R.. THAT SMALL V0ICE.. iS JESUS.. & HES cALLiNG y0U.. T0 BE BR0UGH 0UT 0F dARKNESS & iNT0 THE LiGHT... ALL HE WANTs US T0 d0, iS LiSTEN. & HAVE FAiTH.
KEEP FiGHTiNG...
& WHEN y0U FALL.. d0NT G0 BAcK
GET UP AGAiN.
EVEN AFTER ALL THE DRAMA AND HEART ACHE IVE BEEN THROUGH THROUGHOUT MY LIFE, IVE LEARNEDALOT. I ALWAYS USE TO WONDER "WHY ME?" I MEAN WHEN I PUT TRUST IN SOMEONE AND THEYCONSTANTLY ABUSED IT I WONDERED. "WHY ME?" WHENEVER I WAS PUT IN THE POSITION TO HAVE MYHEART BROKEN AND GOOD TURNED OUT FOR WORSE, I WONDERED "WHY ME" WHEN I PRAYED EVERY NIGHTFOR GOD TO HELP ME THROUGH MY TRiiALSz. FOR HiiM TO TELL ME WHY... ii NEVER GOT AN ANSWER.ii FELT LiiKE PRAYiiNG WASz A WAiiSTE OF MY TiiME, NOT KNOWiiNG THAT THE DOUBT ii HADWHiiLE PRAYiiNG WAS JUST THE BEGiiNGiiNG TO MY LACK OF FAiiTH.
THE MORE ii GOT CAUGHT UP iiN SiiTUATiiON AFTER SiiTUATUATiiON, ,THE FURTHER AWAY ii GOTFROM THE LORD, THE MORE ii BEGAN TO TAKE ON THE ATTiiTUDESz OF TE PEOPLE ii SURROUNDEDMYSELF BY, THE MORE ii BEGAN TO GET FURTHER AWAY FROM THE LORD, UNTiiL FiiNALLY ii STOPPEDCARiiNG, ii FELT LiiKE LiiFE WASzNT MEANT FOR ME TO BE HAPPY, BECAUSE NO MATTER WHAT iiDiiD... ii ALWAYSz ENDED UP SAD.
ii KNOW iiM NOT THE ONLY PERSON TO GO THROUGH SOMETHiiNG LiiKE THiiSz, TO FEEL LiiKETHERESz ALWAYS SOMETHiiNG MiiSSiiNG iiN YOUR LiiFE...TO CRY WHEN YOUR ALONE AT NiiGHT,HOPiiNG THAT ONE DAY LiiFE WiiLL GET BETTER.
TODAY MY LiiFE iiSz BETTER NOT BEKUZ OF MYSELF, BUT BECAUSE OF THE PRAYERSz OF MY MOM, MYDAD, MY CHURCH & MY FANSz. ii DiiDNT KNOW THAT THEiiR PRAYERS COULD MAKE SUCH A DiiFERENCE,BUT THEY DO. THE PRAYERSz FROM YOUR LOVED ONESz ARE WHAT PROTECTSz YOU, AND COVERSz YOU.
EVEN THOUGH ii HAD MY DOUBTSz... ii EVENTUALLY BEGAN TO PRAY MORE THANKSz TO THE LOVE ANDMERCY OF GOD, THiiNGSz BEGAN TO CHANGE BECAUSE ii BEGAN TO LiiSTEN. BEFORE THEN... iiTHOUGHT PRAYiiNG TO GOD WASz LiiKE TALKiiNG TO MYSELF. WHEN REALLY, HE COUD HEAR ME ALLALONG, iiTSz JUST ii HAD GONE SO FAR FROM HiiM, ii WASNT ABLE TO HEAR HiiM.
SO FOR THE PEOPLE WHO HAVE GONE THROUGH THiiSz, I WANT YOU TO KNOW YOUR NOT ALONE, & LiiKEEVERYONE ELSE iiM HUMAN, NO GREATER THAN ANYONE ELSE...GOD LOVESz YOU AND ME, AND HESz BEENTHERE ALL ALONG.
HE ALLOWSz US TO GO THROUGHT THESE TRiiALSz AND TRiiBULATiiONSz SO THAT WE LEARN FROM THEM,HE CONSTANTLY SENDSz PEOPLE OUR WAY TO HELP US, BUT iiNSTEAD WE LOVE THE PEOPLE WHOMiSTREAT US, AND MISTREAT THE PEOPLE WHO LOVE US. SO LETSz US GET iiNTO THE SiiTUTUAiiToNUNTiiL YOU DUG A WHOLE SO DEEP, NO ONE KAN GET YOU OUT, BUT GOD.
BUT ALSO... NOT EVEYONE HAS TO GO THROUGH THISz. NOT EVEYONE ONE iiS TOLD BEFORE ITHAPPENSz. SO iiM TELLiiG YOU NOW. DONT GO THAT WAY... DONT PUT YOUR SITUATION TO GET HURT,JUST WAIT ON GOD. IF YOU DONT HAVE PEOPLE WHO CARE ENOUGH TO HELP YOU, THEN SURROUNDYOURSELF WITH PEOPLE WHO DO. FIND SOMEONE WHO WILL PRAY FOR YOU IN YOUR TIME OF NEED. & IFTHERES NO ONE, PRAY FOR YOURSELF WITHOUT DOUBT... PRAY AND BELIEVE.
ILL PRAY F0R Y0U, JUST D0NT G0 THAT WAY...WAIT 0N G0D. I D0NT WANT T0 HEAR Y0U SAY "WHYME." I L0VE Y0U & G0D L0VESz Y0U. L0VE&G0D BLESS..
- AUBURN.
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FLy AWAy
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