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Okay, let's see... I've had a pretty rough life but I'm making the best of what I have, you know? I have a house with my best friend, Brooke, who's 23 in Columbus. When I am off work, I like to relax and listen to music, maybe watch a movie. I'm not all that exciting anymore. Life does that to you, it drains you when it's not going right. I've grown up so much since my mom kicked me out when she was drunk so many months ago, but we are on good terms again, and I feel like i've aged 20 years since 12:30 this morning. (That was a really rough night for me, back in March...Now...new stuff to write...) My life is hard, I'm not gonna lie, but I'm not about to make excuses. I am who I am because I did what I've done. I am alone because I love too much, sad because I care too much, scared because I hurt so much, and cautious because I've learned so much. I think that I think too much. I think that people should say things in black in white, as opposed to jumping on a rainbow of emotions. I believe that, if you really love someone, you could never be scared of what tomorrow brings, and you should never be afraid to find "The One," no matter how young or old you are. Never feel inferior to someone that loves you just because you are having a rough time with life. If you don't have a car, let them take you places because you know they want to. If you don't have the money for something, let them buy it for you, because you know they want to. Don't get mad at yourself if you're not in the position of the relationship that you would like to be at that very instant, because if things were flip-flopped, you would want to be able to do all of those things and more for your significant other. Things can work out with time, just be open and honest. Love like there's no end, but live like there's no tomorrow. I am sad, this is true, but, I am still me, and I am still alive, and I will continue to try, continue to be, and no one can take that from me. I am struggling, due to bills and stress, but... I will make it, because I know who I am and what I'm capable of.
More updates, but for June!: I am so excited about what is happening in my life... I have spent so much time with the love of my life these past few weeks! More so, he is being very mature about our situation, which intrigues me greatly... I can't wait to see how great of a father he's going to be..... I'm so excited!!!!!
EARLY OCTOBER UPDATES!:
So, Ian and I just went to the doc Thursday and the nurses is 90% sure that it's gonna be a girl!! I've spent a lot of time with him lately and just seeing the look in his eyes while he watched the ultrasound and hearing him was absolutely amazing! My favorite part was afterwards, while he was looking at the pictures they printed off, he was completely awe-struck and he said, "Wow, I can't believe how much you can see!" He's been there for me a lot lately, and I couldn't be happier. We just cleaned his house for hours last night, and it was a lot of fun, esp being able to fall asleep next to him after I couldn't stay awake any longer. Plus, I had to get up at 4:30am for work, but it was well worth it, haha!! I don't have a whole lot to say other than how I can not wait to hold my baby... This whole thing has changed my life sooo much, it's unbelievable!
March: So, I am now two days past my due date, and honestly, I can't say that I would still be sane if it wasn't for Ian being soooo amazing... He really has been my rock, my shoulder to cry on, he's just perfect. He's there when I need him, he checks on me, he has went to the hospital and helped me through every time I've went, and to the doc's office... he will be such an amazing father, I know it... I love working together with him, which we've done a lot lately, and it just feels great. Valentine's day this year was by far the best ever, even if we spent an hour cleaning before we went out to dinner, haha!!! It was just nice, ya know??? As far as the baby goes, her name is October Dawn, and hopefully she won't stay in much longer. Hopefully since it's been warmer she will want to come out, haha!!! Idk, it is frustrating, but with Ian there I know that I will make it and be stronger for it...
---------------OCTOBER, MY B-DAY, MY TRAITS-------------------
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.
Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||||||||||| 53%
Stability |||||||||||||| 60%
Orderliness |||||||||||| 46%
Accommodation |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Interdependence |||||||||||||||| 70%
Intellectual |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Mystical |||||| 23%
Artistic |||||||||||| 43%
Religious |||| 16%
Hedonism |||||||||||| 43%
Materialism |||||||||| 36%
Narcissism |||||||||||| 43%
Adventurousness |||||| 30%
Work ethic |||||| 23%
Self absorbed |||||| 23%
Conflict seeking |||||| 23%
Need to dominate |||| 16%
Romantic |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Avoidant |||||||||| 36%
Anti-authority |||||||||| 36%
Wealth || 10%
Dependency |||| 16%
Change averse |||||| 30%
Cautiousness |||||||||||||||| 70%
Individuality |||||| 23%
Sexuality |||||||||||||| 56%
Peter pan complex |||||| 23%
Physical security |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Physical Fitness |||||||||||||| 57%
Histrionic |||| 16%
Paranoia |||||||||| 36%
Vanity || 10%
Hypersensitivity |||||||||||| 43%
Female cliche |||||||||||| 50%
Stability results were moderately high which suggests you are relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic.
Orderliness results were medium which suggests you are moderately organized, hard working, and reliable while still remaining flexible, efficient, and fun.
Extraversion results were medium which suggests you are moderately talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting.
trait snapshot:
rarely irritated, positive, tough, non phobic, fearless, likes the unknown, self reliant, high self control, confident, trusting, strong instincts, prudent, optimistic, willful, likes parties, prefers a specialized career, takes charge, altruistic, strong, high self concept, adventurous, practical, thoughtful
