20 September 1987, Age ov Pisces;
Sun, Venus, and Mercury, in Virgo;
Moon, and Mars, in Leo;
I am born in Dallas, TX, where I live until I am 3. I am very sociable and playful as a baby. When my family and I move to San Diego and I attend Jerabek Elementrary. At age 7 I have my first shamanick experience with Earth. Shortly after, I am sexually abused by one of my peers, immersing me into a world of emotional confusion that haunts mE for years. Between rigidly dogmatic protestant parents, and a world of fear and confusion, I am very suicidal throughout my adolescence: I need an escape, a way to end the pain inside, so I sought to rid my conciousness of this earthly shackle through death. Suicide attempts failed or inturrupted, the only other place for mE to turn is thee inner realm, far reaches of space and time, to force myself outside of reality by finding a way to realease my soul from my body, into the fabric of eternity itself. I begin reading profusely, and exploring the outer reaches of imagination, of conciousness itself, through experiementing with ways to transmit/recicve new realities through communication with people & entities. I build a time machine out of a jungle gym at the same day care center when I am 9 years old, manipulate the various rays of the Sun's Light to achieve a tear in the space-time fabric for us enslaved children to escape into. I achieve these communications in my dreams, meditations, and work outdoors with the spirits/energies/vibrations that whisper to me on the Four Winds. My father begins my martial arts training at age 4 in Tung Soo Do, which I continue practicing until age 13, when I earn my 1st Dahn in Tae Kwon Do. I have practiced various martial arts, including Shaolin Kenpo, Judo, Yoga, Pilates, and rock climbing. My father takes me to my first renaissance faire when I'm 8, telling me its a "pagan" place, which of course "means You have to pay to get in" (those are his words). I have a psychedelick experience with a Tarologist, and am hooked on that feeling of timelessness for the rest of my life, for its the same feeling I get when I do my first enchantment, and when I do martial arts!
My family and I move to Anaheim Hills in 1999. Being uprooted from my social circle, I choose to create a entirely new personality, completely burying my old ideas of "self" in a complex web of lies, woven out of KISS-FM pop music, MTV cliche catch phrases, and consensus reality. I completely lost touch with my magickal side, seeing conformity as the only way to ensure the contact and acceptance of my peers. This gives me many new ideas, shadows of mysteries of Light, that my body & mind are not okay, and they aren't even mine to begin with. I find the personality quite formless, and in fact chaotic in nature, attaching to whatever we choose to percieve us as needing to maintain survival. Getting lost in our decrepit, soul-sucking society of mind-control and self-abuse, it is not until I witness the 9/11 tragedy and experience social pressures with peers in junior high (El Rancho Middle School) that I begin to remember that I am the only one who only will ever do or think what's best for me, ever. Out of sheer boredom with the old one, I decide to create yet another new personality my junior year of high school.
High school (Canyon High School) marks the beginning of my musical and magickal studies. I take up thee six-string guitar, and begin learning music theory. In high school my favorite classes are: biology; chemistry; geometry; trigonometry; french; music theory; art; english; psychology; world history. I begin practicing meditation throughout high school, and step into thee world of psychedelics, and psychedelick magick, which I begin learning & practicing via the excellent primer, Generation Hex published by Disinformation Press. I am enrolled in honors classes throughout junior high and high school. In my junior year of high school I drop out of the honors program and join the CHS Golden Warrior Regiment, playing: mellophone; french horn; trombone; auxilliary percussion & electric guitar (jazz ensemble). I get together with all musical people I meet, attending the Fullerton Train Station drum circle, and forming the band Albatross for an audition at CHS Battle of the Bands. Has been seen playing live psychedelick musick in various Anaheim Hills locales. I meet and coalesce with Le Guild de St. Martin at the Koroneburg Renaissance Festival in 2005, where I begin practicing drumming and rhythmic rudiments.
I lose interest in school, and drop out, and leave my parent's house. Surviving in cars, hotels, friend's couches, I finally make it to Riverside where I am able to get my own apartment. I am furthering my music knowledge at Riverside Community College, writing and playing musick, currently developing my own system of musick therapy (which is my desired major), utilizing sound and color to open various Kundalini energy vibrational wavelengths in the human biosphere.
...and having a fantastick time! In Chaos and Bliss! ♥
to BE continued! (22.02.2008)
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