Layout made by sweetjenn at CreateBlog.com .i am fucking nice. too often too much for my own good. i usually know what i want, it's just that other people dont. not a lot of people really know me. most of you will probably just think im some nerd azn, and the rest of you might just think of me as just some ass. but for once in my life, i am beginning to think i deserve things for myself. everything else in my life, i have done for other people, because of other people, in consideration of other people's wants.... maybe, just maybe, you will understand and/or actually pay attention. probably not. but that's ok, too. i get shy. i get self-depricating. i have my rampages. but what i want right now? to be carefree, young, crazy.... i just need to work mostly on the brave part and the rest should come more easily. i am a good person. i should deserve more than this....all that said, back to the old, previously-typed portion of this thing that i dont care to erase (you can just ignore most of it; ill update when i find the time):
where to begin... jap represent. hahaha. i have been called a lot of things. i think "funky fresh" is definitely one of the greats. randomness amuses me....part angry azn, part band geek, even though the two seem contradictory and i'm not a crazy alkie... which might seem a bit surprising considering i'm currently residing in *cow town* during the school year, and there's not always much else to do here. which also might seem odd, considering i could have done engineering at several other places... berkeley, tulane,... etc., but no. here i am. i guess anywhere else wouldn't have been that much better. still the same old racist shit issues, ignorance, psuedo-intellectuals that think they know what the fuck is going on. but they don't. there are so many blind people in the world... and they don't know it. they even prefer to be that way. in their own little, guilt-free worlds, making up illogical excuses for all the shit that they've done or let happen because they can't fucking see what's right in front of them. they think they are the oppressed, but cannot see that in their words/actions they are in fact oppressing others. what a self-centered society we live in when we are willing to bitch and complain and take a stand for our own selves, in our petty self-declared righteous minds, but yet, completely ignore that our neighbors are suffering just as much, if not more, than we. we let others fight when we are not willing to ourselves. but that is the culture of america. a bunch of self-centered little asshole bitches whining that they can't fucking own everything....
ah, ok... but i'm not always so annoyed at society. i guess that's where the band shtuff comes in. its like... "superman and clark kent...." haha. my perception of the hakujin world. and thus is life.
and then there's the engineering part of college. and the entertainment council part. the "fashion"/artsy part. sometimes the profound buddhist part, too. :o) but, my god, i think i should stop typing so damn much. maybe i will change this when the different sectors of my life can coincide... and exist in harmony with one another... .. .."http://download.macromedia.com/pub/shockwave/cabs/flash/s
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