Beautiful Something<RIP Tyson <3>

About Me

FreeRice Imagine me as some one you once knew. as some one perhaps you liked.
or better yet, imagine me as you.

Keep your memory vagueThe Soul selects her own society,
Then shuts the door;
On her divine majority
Obtrude no more.

Unmoved, she notes the chariotâ€™s pausing
At her low gate;
Unmoved, an emperor is kneeling
Upon her mat.

I â€™ve known her from an ample nation
Choose one;
Then close the valves of her attention
Like stone.

collateral damage: injury inflicted on something other than an intended target
im sorry you had to be a victim of my self-destrucion.

My Interests

Make a difference.
Change is near.

I'd like to meet:

Tyson Andrus 09/22/89-11/21/07
You are amazing. You showed me so much about life. I am going to miss you so much. I am going to miss your beautiful smile. Your long curly hair. Your hugs are the best in the world; nothing compares.
I want one of your massages so badly. I wish so bad you would come and hold me, give me a kiss, and tell me everything is okay. I call your phone just to listen to your voice. I hope that maybe this is a horrible joke and you'll answer.
Every song reminds me of you. Everywhere I go, I see you. There are so many memories we still had to make. So much time to spend together. I will watch all the movies on our list and I know you'll be watching them with me.
I regret never telling you exactly how I felt. I regret that I didn't fully appreciate you. I wish I could take it all back. Especially if it meant you'd come back too. This was your decision and I respect it. You are happy now. I miss you.
I miss you so much baby. I love you.

Music:

which came first, the music or the misery?

i wanna hear the song that makes me believe there is something to believe in

Movies:

what are you doing?
filming this dead bird.
why?
because its beautiful.

Television:

the Discovery channels, Food Network...

Books:

I love books. I am always reading something. Currently reading: Scar Tissue

Heroes:

my mom ♥
My twin, Infiniti

My sunshine, Sara

My Blog

"the answer is always waiting at the liquor store"

i havent had time to realize who i am by myself.for as long as i can remember i have been in a relationship. as soon as i get out of one im right into another one. i need to figure out what i wa...
Posted by Beautiful Something[[RIP Tyson <3]] on Fri, 14 Mar 2008 10:06:00 PST

T.M.A.

i am a loss for words.i wish i could figure out how to say how i feel.i wish i could figure out how i feel.i know it seems like i dont care.i know it seems like it doesnt affect me.its all a front.ple...
Posted by Beautiful Something[[RIP Tyson <3]] on Thu, 27 Dec 2007 10:58:00 PST

"old enough to know, and young enough not to say no"

i should know better. i should know that i will just end up hurting myself. why do i continue doing this? i gain nothing from it. but pain and shame. i lose respect. for myself. for them. they lose r...
Posted by Beautiful Something[[RIP Tyson <3]] on Thu, 11 Oct 2007 11:12:00 PST

jeffrey jenkins

im soo upset with you right now. you are not the person you used to be. i dont even know you. what happened to you? please, be the person that i fell in love with again. you were amazing. you were sp...
Posted by Beautiful Something[[RIP Tyson <3]] on Tue, 10 Jul 2007 12:07:00 PST

R&K

it bothers me. i dont know why. i have no room to talk. im a big fucking hypocrite. i can try and justify it and make excusesbut its the same. i have no reason to be upset about this. i dont see why i...
Posted by Beautiful Something[[RIP Tyson <3]] on Mon, 14 May 2007 07:38:00 PST

Means To An End

the people i thought i could trust i cant. really. it doesnt even matter what i do. everyone thinks im lying anyway. everyone seems to find a way to turn my words aroundand make me the guilty person....
Posted by Beautiful Something[[RIP Tyson <3]] on Wed, 11 Apr 2007 10:37:00 PST

1:23am

i checked my email. i have sixteen emails. all but one from colleges.there is so much pressure put on me to succeed. there are so many expectations. what if i cant meet them? what if i fail? i think ...
Posted by Beautiful Something[[RIP Tyson <3]] on Thu, 08 Feb 2007 12:24:00 PST