Nicholas

Attention women: I am currently looking for a girlfriend. If you approximate Michelle Meyrink's character in the film 'Real Genius', I want to meet you!!! Let's hang out!!! Really!!! Glasses and short hair are a big plus, as is excessive use of the word 'neat'!!!
My favorite film is Steven Soderbergh's "Sex, Lies, and Videotape". My favorite album is Sonic Youth's "Bad Moon Rising". That's probably the best condensed description of my personality.
I'm 27 now. I've been waiting to be 27 for 3 years. 27 seems like the first age where you don't have to defend your age. I thought I'd be more together by now, but I've made tremendous strides in the last year (which says where I was a year ago). I've had my first real business this year. I feel respected as a professional for the first time this year. I have a gut that I probably need to get rid of if I want to have a girlfriend. I'd really like to have a girlfriend.
I'm bipolar. I talk a lot when I'm happy. I love conversation. I love talking about politics and religion. I feel like my core essences can only be expressed in the abstract, often by being absurdly self-deprecating. I am completely brilliant at free association. I love tying things together that are seemingly distinct.
I spend most of my time working on recording projects. I've been working in sound since I was 16. I'm pretty good at it now. I have good hearing (especially timbre of sounds and the effects of digitization such as jitter) but I have an extremely hard time grasping basic music theory so it's often hard for me to communicate with musicians what I'm experiencing in their music. There's this amazing Karlheinz Stockhausen lecture from the early 70's that I saw where he talked about his experiences with modified tape recorders in the 50's where he could speed up or slow down recordings by 10,000% and he realized that timbre is simply composition on a different time structure.
I appreciate feedback from the band when I'm mixing.
I am a master of pep talks. I like to think that every creative endeavor that I undertake has the potential for true greatness. When I work with a band I try to motivate them to that level. I want to contribute something meaningful to this world.
I'm renting a warehouse ("The Silo") in a really good location of Portland, OR (Tillamook and Interstate just north of the Broadway bridge) that I have built a recording studio control room into and moved in all my great recording equipment. Right now I'm working in the Silo with the Shaky Hands and the Newspapers, and I just finished the Narwhal vs. Narwhal record that got started in my house.
I recorded several hundred hours of live indie rock in Santa Cruz, which I am now editing and mastering for a mammoth website that I am creating which will be done in a month. www.Post-Consumer.com.
When I was 19, I was self-medicating for bipolar disorder with sleep deprivation. I passed out once on I-5 and crashed into an 18-wheeler's trailer as the sun was setting. I got out and hugged the driver, then in the dust on the trailer above my car I wrote 'NT '99' with my finger, after Marcel Duchamp's urinal readymade, and photographed it.
I am completely unshockable in conversation, and generally very sympathetic if not very appreciative of people who are (esp. self-identified) social rejects, provided they are not mean/violent, which most social rejects are not. I will never be condescendingly 'nice' to people who I think don't match up to some abstract societal standard, standards of 'coolness' for example that most of the most physically degraded heroin addicts I've come across abide by as if it were the gospel truth. If you're 'cool', you've got your personal clothing and conversation/body language thing honed down to a science, good for fucking you. You're probably fun to look at and can't have an interesting conversation to save your life. I think it's totally normal to try to reflect your values in your personal appearance, I certainly try to even though I don't dress very well. It just really bothers me when people invest all of their identity into something that I can only engage with in the most superficial way.
I sleep in my clothes and keep nocturnal hours when I can. I'm pretty messy too.
I spoke in a convincing British accent while attending my fourth high school and had everyone convinced I was a foreign exchange student. I did it so people would leave me alone, and because Alan Watts was my role model for articulation. I spoke that way until I was 20.
As a music recording engineer I have a good understanding of the high subjectivity but extreme relevance of 'fidelity'.
I am rarely attracted to women (a curse!). I like flirting with and sometimes kissing gay men but no more than that. I have often found gay men to be more authentically feminine than most of the women I know, and that quality brings out the romantic in me.
Most of my friends are either culturally Catholic or Jewish, but I'm a Puritan at heart.
I appreciate Dayquil induced religious experience.