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Melissa

About Me

I really like this quote i saw on a wall the other day. Growing up isnt about finding yourself it's about creating yourself. I'm not who I am because I'm a gemini or my dads an alcoholic. I'm not stuck being this person I don't like. If I wanted to I could change. I'm this way because I want to be.
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My Interests

Finding out what I like. Learning about life. Dorky I know, but it's seriously all I give a shit about.

I'd like to meet:

People who can simplify my world and quite my fears. I like self-discovery without confrontation. Is that possible? Doubt it.

Music:

Wooden Wand, Pink Mountaintops, Blue Goblins, Rogue Wave, Little Country Giants. And as always Aubrey Debauchery and Elliott Smith. Not a day goes by that one of the two doesn't enter my CD player.

Movies:

Trainspotting, Apocoplypse Now, True Romance, Fear and Loathing. I don't know that's hard to think about because I love so many. I don't understand people who don't watch movies. I watched Nurse Betty yesterday for the first time(5/4/07)I liked it.

Television:

After a recent discussion with friends I need to see Survivorman. Update: Survivorman sucked! Man vs. Wild is WAY better!! Metalocalypse, Moral Oral, and The Venture Brothers. Vh1 about 2:15am after the bar kicks me out-the best time to watch Vh1.

Books:

I've been swept up into this wonderful cycle. In my constant people meeting since moving to Kona I keep getting involved in conversations concerning books and then being given books to borrow. Willard has been consistantly giving me neat books. xo.

Heroes:

It's like falling for men-I get a new one everyday.

My Blog

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    Life is so strange...I start out thoughts that way fairly often.I was reading old correspondences from a friend tonight and was thinking about how much less I think nowdays.  T...
Posted by Melissa on Fri, 02 May 2008 04:28:00 PST

All these legal fees

When I have to deal with official business(Cars, houses, bills, debt etc. ) I feel like I'm actually being responsible and accmplishing things in life.  My car passed safety inspection today, set...
Posted by Melissa on Wed, 23 Jan 2008 01:23:00 PST

I want to...

  Go to Oahu by the end of February. Job that will pay me well enough to eat indulgently and travel and save. Involve myself with helping kids grow to be healthy, solid, cultured, open minded ind...
Posted by Melissa on Mon, 31 Dec 2007 12:45:00 PST

Christmas Morning

For the past eight monthes I have enjoyed not having my family around, and for the past 23(or so) years I have been trying to get away from them.  I, of course, love them and miss them so I ...
Posted by Melissa on Tue, 25 Dec 2007 01:46:00 PST

Great quotes from an amazing friend of mine.

I had more qoutes than this, but kept gettting dsitracted when reading the emails I scalped these from and forgetting that I was putting them here.  After realizing what I was doing I didn't feel...
Posted by Melissa on Thu, 09 Aug 2007 01:36:00 PST

Am I even in my own mind?

The concept of self-control and it's role in my life kind of makes me want to pull my hair out.  Like, I make all my own decisions everyday, right?  I don't know.  The reason my life is...
Posted by Melissa on Sun, 05 Aug 2007 02:16:00 PST

Im OK with me so so should you be.

There's this whole new thing in my life where I'm happy most of the time.  Wierd I know, but really-I'm happy a lot.  Then what is even more incredible than that is that I just realized over...
Posted by Melissa on Sun, 29 Jul 2007 09:26:00 PST

Beatiful Jason for beautiful Elise

So in my embittered state of giving up on love and life I have found hope.  No it was not in a man, well, sort of. I just finished looking at Jason and Elise's wedding photos.  I cried. ...
Posted by Melissa on Fri, 01 Jun 2007 12:15:00 PST

working at it

Carrie said she feels out of the loop about my life when I don't blog.  I've felt less inclined to blog since I got this really neat notebook with straps for the outside corners.  It's sweet...
Posted by Melissa on Fri, 25 May 2007 08:03:00 PST

Cohabitation

I've reached no solidifiedconclusion as my readers may have guessed, but at least on this subject I have had reasonable experience.  I think life is just expecting.  I wrote something simil...
Posted by Melissa on Mon, 07 May 2007 10:17:00 PST