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Amanda [I will make you hurt]

What have I become, my sweetest friend? Everyone I know goes away in the end. And you could have it

About Me

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Name: Amanda Stock

Birthdate: May 12, 1989
Birthplace: Salinas, CA
Current Location: my cave.
Eye Color: blue
Hair Color: naturally blonde, but i prefer the dark red. it suits me better.
Height: 5'8"
Weight: 130? noo idea. im just guessing here.
Piercings: ears for now. i want more.
Tatoos: none yet, but i have several i want.
Boyfriend/Girlfriend: My pookie Benjamin
Overused Phraze: "fuck that noise"
FAVORITES
Food: Kraft Mac N Cheese and baked potatoes w/ sour cream and butter
Candy: Butterfingers and Reeses... i adore peanut candies. but i wouldnt say no to a good ol' Hershey bar either.
Number: 13... im not a ganstar.. i just like the number.
Color: any dark color will do, but especially red and black
Animal: i love all animals. even the scaly and slimy ones.
Drink: Monster
Alcohol Drink: i dont drink alcohol
Bagel: ? random much? lol.... cinammon raisin with lots of cream cheese
Letter: F. its the first letter of one of my favorite 4 letter words. ;)
Body Part on Opposite sex: eyes, lips, and hair.
This or That
Pepsi or Coke: Coke is disgusting. Pepsi, bitches.
McDonalds or BurgerKing: i dont eat meat, so neither.
Strawberry or Watermelon: Strawberries!!
Hot tea or Ice tea: ick. tea makes me nauseous.
Chocolate or Vanilla yummy... ill take both.
Hot Chocolate or Coffee: Hot chocolate.. coffee nauseates me too.
Kiss or Hug: depends on the person... if its coming from my pookie ill take the kiss, cuz i know a hug's coming with it. anybody else, ill stick with a friendly hug or a handshake.
Dog or Cat: i love all animals... right now i dont have any dogs. just my Boobookittyfuck and my best friends 2 shitheads.
Rap or Punk: FUCK THAT NOISE
Summer or Winter: hmm... winter... i love to snuggle under lots of blankets with my pookie and watch movies and be lazy.
Scary Movies or Funny Movies: i LOVE horror movies, but i watch my share of funny ones too.
Love or Money: LOVE... you can have all the money in the world and still not have love. if you have all the love in the world, money doesnt amount to much.
YOUR...
Bedtime: when i finally pass out.
Most Missed Memory: napping in the doghouse with my dogs Priscilla and Baron.
Best phyiscal feature: umm... if you ask me, its my eyes, if you ask Benji, its my curves. take your pick.
First Thought Waking Up: are you shitting me? its 2 pm??
Goal for this year: get a job and get into school
Best Friends: Benjamin, Ariel, & Ashmee
Weakness: Benjamins "puppy face"... if youve seen it, you know what im talkin about.
Fears: Losing my Benji and being alone for the rest of my life. I dont want anyone but him.
Heritage: ha... Heinz 57.
Longest relationship: with Benjamin. we've been together since July 8th, 2005
HAVE YOU...
Ever Drank: yup. not anymore though
Ever Smoked: yup. no more. though
Pot: yup. ditto.
Ever been Drunk: yup.
Ever been beaten up: yup.
Ever beaten someone up: yup.
Ever Shoplifted: when i was 6
Ever Skinny Dipped: yup.
Ever Kissed Opposite sex: ...duh?
Been Dumped Lately: meh... it was in April. that really sucked.
IN A GUY/GIRL
Favorite Eye Color: Blue
Favorite Hair Color: any color works, as long as it suits him.
Short or Long: LONG!! omg... i love Benji's hair.
Height: i like the tall ones. they should be at least as tall as me or taller.
Style: what can i say? i loves the musicians. preferably the "rockers" and the "metalheads"
Looks or Personality: looks help.. lets face it.. you cant really see a persons personality from across the room... but personality faaar outweighs looks in the end.
Hot or Cute both are nice
Drugs and Alcohol: ew. not a fan.
Muscular or Really Skinny: hehe... i like the yoga bodies. muscular, but not bulky.
RANDOMS
Number of Regrets in the Past: too fuckin many to enumerate
What country do you want to Visit: all of em eventually.
How do you want to Die: with my Pookie knowing how much i adore him and our children gathered around to see me off.
Been to the Mall Lately: nope. fuck the mall. shop online.
Do you like Thunderstorms: YES!! i love the flashes of lightning and the rumbling of thunder. i love it even more when i can watch it with Benji
Get along with your Parents: sure, as much as any normal 18 year old does.
Health Freak: a bit. I went vegetarian a while back because i learned a lot of bad stuff about meat and what it does to your body eventually.
Do you think your Attractive: My pookie thinks im sexy. thats all i really care about.
Believe in Yourself: meh. not always.
Want to go to College: i should be in now. but im a fuckin procrastinator. and i cant drive.
Do you Smoke: used to. i quit that a lil while back.
Do you Drink: nope. quit that shit a looong time ago.
Shower Daily: if im not going out for a while, i shower every other day. i dont like to waste water. If im going out somewheres regularly (school) i shower every morning.
Been in Love: ♥ I am right now ♥
Do you Sing: haha.... better than i once thought... lol..
Want to get Married: Only if its to my Benji.
Do you want Children: Only if they're Benji's
Have your future kids names planned out: lol... we both like the name Dante for a boy and i love the name Zoey Jane for a girl.
Age you wanna lose your Virginity: ha... a bit late for that, ain't it?
Hate anyone: meh... i hate what they've done to me, i cant say i hate them.
Things that make me happy: explosives, guns, knives, heavy metal music, meeting new people at concerts, 5" heels, sexy lingerie, looking damn good in sexy lingerie (if I do say so meself), Benjamin, Vampyres, medieval torture devices, dark romance, Jeffrey Dahmer, matches, Boo Boo Kitty Fuck, grape juice, cookie dough ice cream, new friends, EXPLOSIVES, playing my geetar, violence towards those that deserve it, writing poetry about how fucked and ironic life is, BENJAMIN, analyzing song lyrics, Charles Manson, watching fireworks, sex scenes in movies-- especially foreign ones-- UFC, Shakespearean love poetry (yeah... he knew what he was talking aboot), fencing, hollering nonsense out he car window and seeing how many dirty looks I can get, farting in an elevator full of people and blaming it on my brother, Mickey Rooney's Crazy Pills (so crazy he takes off his shirt and screams at rats, and poops down the chimney... hold out your stockings kids!)BENJAMIN!!, horror movies, Albert Fish, midgets, the Travelocity gnome, "Pull My Finger"... yes, i still giggle my ass of at that game... lol, teddy bears filled with razor blades, the Berries and Cream guy on the Starburst commercials, my new icon collection... which i do plan to add to, so if you come across a funny icon, dont be stingy.. TELL ME SO I CAN PARTAKE IN THE ICON FUN!!
Things that piss me off: buying stuff online and having it take FOREVER to get (thank you very much Spooky Boutique... assholes...) people that think they can just do and say whatever the fuck they want to and don't take into consideration how it will affect the ones around them, polluters, gay bashers, "emo kids" that think they have problems... but in reality, they bring the shit on themselves, fat people that complain about being fat, but still make their daily trek to the nearest fast food eatery, finding hair in my food, finding CURLY hair in my food, making stupid mistakes at crucial times, people that think they have the right to judge others,the random people that message me wanting to chat and have me add them to my IM list, cruelty to animals, cruelty to people who can't defend themselves, burnt cookies, liars, cheaters, cat barf, crappy horror movies that I actually spent my money to go see (that weren't meant to be crappy), and when my cat eats more of my breakfast than I do... So yeah, I pretty much rock. Yeah right.
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My Interests

I am 75% Metal Head.
.. I was born with the mark of the beast on my forehead and an axe in my arms. I am the god of all things metal! Now if only I could get my parents to give me back my car keys..... Take the
Metal Head Test
@ FualiDotComI am 79% Evil Genius.
.. I am pure evil. I lie awake at night devising schemes of world domination, and I will not rest until all living souls bend to my will. Take the
Evil Genius Test
@ FualiDotCom

Type O Negative- Angel
I'm looking straight
In the mirror of truth
I am not a model
I've lost my youth
Maybe I see the hell
Maybe the paradise
But one thing I surely know
That my spirit will be rised

Angel, I want to be with you
So tell me, what can I do?

My soul starts to burst
I'm going insane
More than the dead I feel
The blood in my veins
I know im gonna die
And the lie is all I see
I'm still looking in the mirror
There, Angel, always be

Angel only you can see
You are the one, you set me free.

I see the sadness in your eyes
My whole life was a disguise
At the funeral you will be there
I will follow you. Everywhere

Angel I want to be with you
So tell me what can I do
Angel
Angel only you can see
You are the one, you set me free
Angel
Angel
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Playing my guitar, METAL!!, watching movies, going out to the shooting range, making swords and blowing stuff up, going to the Renaissance Faire, laying out under the stars with my best friend/ lover just talking about nonsense, fantasizing about becoming a hobo sniper with a license to kill... Oh yeah.... and eating Taco Bell at 2 AM.

I'd like to meet:

Well, there was only one person in my entire life that I really wanted to meet... and that is my Prince Charming. *Check one fer Amanda* His name be Benjamin. He can be a real asshole sometimes, just ask him for yourself-- but at the same time, he melts my heart like a snow cone in July. I love this young man to the core of my being. He is the keeper of my heart... has been since the sixth grade. Some would have called it "puppy love"... but we knew better, didn't we, Pookie?

Also, I would have liked to meet Saddam Hussein so I could kick him in the balls for letting himself get caught. If he's such a freakin' criminal mastermind, why was he hiding in a spiderhole?!? Hitler was a true criminal mastermind. He managed to run an entire regime based on anti-Semitism and hatred, when he himself was a Jewish foreigner! With one testicle! Also, i would like to meet Satan. Yeah. Satan. [laughs maniacally]

Music:

Metallica, Megadeth, Iron Maiden, Judas Priest, Static-X, Nine Inch Nails, Marilyn Manson, Primus, Nightwish, Cacophony, Iced Earth, Lamb of God, KoRn, Tool, A Perfect Circle, Mudvayne, Helmet, Mushroomhead, (old) Slipknot, Bloodsimple, Dying Fetus, Shadows Fall, Six Feet Under, System Of A Down, Pantera, Damageplan (R.I.P. Darrell Abbott), A Boy And His Gun, Fear Factory, Chimaira, GWAR, Alice Cooper, Godsmack, Deicide, Morbid Angel, As I Lay Dying, Bury Your Dead, Mastodon, Black Sabbath, SEIP, Ozzy Osbourne, God Forbid, Dimmu Borgir, Zakk Wylde/ Black Label Society, Kyuss, King Diamond, Rob Zombie, Powerman 5000, Coal Chamber, Unearth, In Flames, Amon Amarth, Type O Negative, Skinlab, Blind Guardian, Job For A Cowboy, Rammstein, Arch Enemy, Lacuna Coil, Kittie, Strapping Young Lad, Nile,Combichrist, Genitorturers, Devildriver, and there are soooooo many more....

Movies:

Donnie Darko, House of 1000 Corpses (Yeah its cheesy, but who gives a shit?) The Devil's Rejects, The Hills Have Eyes, Saw 1 and 2, A Clockwork Orange, The Crow, The Crow: City of Angels, Underworld, Underworld Evolution, Equilibrium, Cheech & Chong's Up In Smoke, Nice Dreams, The Corsican Brothers, Constantine, Sleepy Hollow, The Matrix (all of them), Girl Interrupted, Leon The Professional, Clerks, Clerks 2, Family Guy Movie, Van Wilder 2, Team America, (puppet sex senes are great!) The Princess Bride, The Goonies, Fight Club, Aqua Teen Hunger Force Colon Movie Film For Theaters, Pulp Fiction, Hostel-- Quentin Tarantino is a freakin' GENIUS!!! And I know this sounds weird-- Shakespearean movies/plays- Romeo & Juliet, Much Ado About Nothing, A Midsummer Night's Dream, Julius Caesar, The Taming Of The Shrew, Antony & Cleopatra, Hamlet, Titus Andronicus...The Silence of the Lambs, Hannibal, Red Dragon, oh yeah.. any movie based on a Stephen King novel-- Salem's Lot, Misery, Thinner, IT(!), Dolores Claiborne, lots more but Amanda's brain is gettin' feverish with excitement... [passes out]... I went to see the newest installment of the Hannibal Lecter saga... 'Hannibal Rising' was everything I thought it would be. Freakin' amazing. Let's see if they did the book justice. Ehhhh.... no. the book is waaaaaaayyyyy better.

Television:

CSI:, Criminal Minds, Inked, Miami Ink, Tattoo Stories, Headbangers Ball, South Park, The Simpsons, Family Guy, American Dad, Futurama (hooray for snoosnoo!) , The Oblongs, Aqua Teen Hunger Force, The Dead Zone, Invader Zim, Naruto, Inuyasha, Shin-Chan... basically anything that comes on late at night and will potentially turn my brain to mush. Hurray for mush!

Books:

Intensity- Dean Koontz, The Vampire Chronicles: Interview With The Vampire, The Vampire Lestat, The Queen Of The Damned, Memnoch The Devil, The Vampire Armand, The Tale Of The Body Thief...- Anne Rice, The Silence of the Lambs- Thomas Harris, Hannibal- Thomas Harris, Red Dragon- Thomas Harris, Hannibal Rising- Thomas Harris, Dragonlance, The Lord of the Rings (trilogy)- JRR Tolkien, The Count Of Monte Cristo- Alexandre Dumas, The Three Musketeers- also Alexandre Dumas, The Handmaid's Tale- Margaret Atwood, Helter Skelter- Vincent Bugliosi, The Divine Secrets of the Ya-Ya Sisterhood- Rebecca Wells, I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings- Maya Angelou, Go Ask Alice- Anonymous, and ANYTHING written by Mr. William Shakespeare.

Heroes:

My parents-- without whom I wouldn't be sittin here typing, Trey Parker and Matt Stone-- without whom we wouldn't have such genius episodes of South Park as their throwback to Titus Andronicus... the one where Cartman feeds Scott Tennerman his parents in a pot of chili and makes him cry in front of Radiohead. Jhonen Vaquez for sharing "Invader ZIM" and "Johnny The Homicidal Maniac" with the world. My best friends in the entire world: Craig, who never fails to make me smile with his redneckedness and big heart (I love you, buddy!!)and Ariel: my partner in crime since the 6th grade,and my sister for life (enjoy those bubbles chicka! lol!) And finally, Benjamin Dains. He is the best thing that has ever happened to me in my short 18 years... despite the problems we have faced, he has stuck by my side (sorry hon... i forgot to tell you I spilled the glue... lol)I love you so much, Pookie... you really are a hero to me.

My Blog

God bless....

God bless:Jeffrey Dahmer, Theodore Kaczynski, Richard Ramirez,Robert Berdella, David Berkovitz, Albert DeSavo, Joseph Briggen,Timothy McVeigh, Gary Leon Ridgway, Paul Bernardo and Karla HomolkaTed Bun...
Posted by Amanda [I will make you hurt] on Sun, 16 Sep 2007 04:08:00 PST

Dont stop believin... hold on to that feelin

i love you so much, my darling benjamin... i wish i couls show  you... you are the very thing that keeps me going  without you in my life i was merely existing. you truly are the thing that ...
Posted by Amanda [I will make you hurt] on Tue, 28 Aug 2007 12:18:00 PST

What would I give to behold the smile, the face of love?

your kiss makes the world stopeverything freezes the only thing i see is youstanding in front of me,gazing back at me with the same shining eyesand beaming smile as i have for you your touchmelts my ...
Posted by Amanda [I will make you hurt] on Mon, 27 Aug 2007 04:06:00 PST

like the shed skin of a snake... it... it holds but a diminished essence of its occupant.

wow... i sit here on benjis bed and look around.. it feels so weird. like the shed skin of a snake... it... it holds but a diminished essence of its occupant.  i feel so strange to be sitting her...
Posted by Amanda [I will make you hurt] on Sun, 26 Aug 2007 07:03:00 PST

Heh. bitch, you have no idea. Im fucking CRAZY.

Disorder | RatingParanoid: Very HighSchizoid: LowSchizotypal: ModerateAntisocial: LowBorderline: ModerateHistrionic: HighNarcissistic: HighAvoidant: HighDependent: HighObsessive-Compulsive: Moderate U...
Posted by Amanda [I will make you hurt] on Sat, 25 Aug 2007 02:43:00 PST

You may say Im a dreamer, but Im not the only one...

"Imagine" A Perfect CircleImagine there's no heaven,It's easy if you try,No hell below us,Above us only sky,Imagine all the peopleliving for today...Imagine there's no countries,It isnt hard to do,Not...
Posted by Amanda [I will make you hurt] on Wed, 01 Aug 2007 08:18:00 PST

I love you as certain dark things are to be loved, in secret, between the shadow and the soul.

..> ..> XVII (I do not love you...)  ..> ..>   I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz,or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.I love you as certain dark thi...
Posted by Amanda [I will make you hurt] on Tue, 31 Jul 2007 02:48:00 PST

First when the clouds go to sleep you can see us in the sky... We are afraid and alone

Who in his lifetime is good on Earth Becomes after death an angel And you watching the sky ask yourself, Why can't you see them? First when the clouds go to sleep You can see us in the sky We are afra...
Posted by Amanda [I will make you hurt] on Wed, 25 Jul 2007 10:41:00 PST

Saint Peter greets with empty eyes, then turns and locks the gate

OZZFEST WAS FUCK..NG AWESOME!!!   The smells... the s..ghts... the sounds... ..t was all such a r..ch exper..ence. To my dy..ng day .. w..ll never forget Ozzfest 2007. The smell of weed and c.....
Posted by Amanda [I will make you hurt] on Sat, 21 Jul 2007 12:29:00 PST

Anger rising up inside me yet again...

i want to burstthe awful things that swell up inside of meare begging to get outsomeone please get me a doctori cant get rid of this diseasethe bad things claw their way up my throatand spew from my m...
Posted by Amanda [I will make you hurt] on Fri, 06 Jul 2007 12:08:00 PST