lauryn [intensive care]

I'd like to meet:

%D%A %D%AI'm Lauryn. I'm rediculously afraid of the dark still and because of it I still sleep with a night light. I'm only fifteen which means im pretty much too young for everything and to old to be the kid that I still want to be . I fell in love with music and I live life as best I can.If I wasn't so fucking lazy i could make something of myself. I have a thing for photography, photographs, beautiful things, beautiful people, and pictures in general. I don't want to grow up. I want to be a fashion designer. I'm addicted to DDR ,Monster, and God juice. I'm really outgoing and i like to have fun. I am honestly sick of being hurt.Whenever a good thing comes along i seem to lose grip. I'm sick of my house, and the way we do things around here. One day i AM going to get out. I'm still getting to know my self, so don't tell me you know me. But I do know that I like to speak with an english accent. I'm not as good as I should be.I have a defiance problem. I've got my flaws, but give me a break. I'm only human. I won't rub my life in your face, if you won't rub yours in mine. I cuss alot. I stay up late, and enjoy going to shows and concerts and anywhere with music. I've got love for the true friends the ones i know I can count on. I'm getting a bit tired of "friends" not acting like real friends should. I'm over emotional. I always feel a bit self concious and i always will. I wont be the best person you meet, but ill give you all iv'e got to offer. I don't make promises I can't keep. If you make a promise to me, be able to keep it or it'll hurt me bad. I'll talk to anyone, I like new friends. I am not a liar. I'll be honest. I am bipolar, but don't call me out on it. Sometimes you can tell, sometimes you can't. I act like a little kid. I can be as mature as I want, when its needed, but i am silly. I dont have a way with words, unless I mean what I'm writing.i can't wait until spring break and summer i need it so bad. I like to laugh, take photos, and really just live. I don't really mind the way others think of me. But sometimes i take things to seriously. People love me, People hate me. I'm a pretty positive person, but i can be a bit of a pessimist. I'd rather not hate you. I'd rather you not hate me. I believe things happen for a reason, everyone has someone and everyone gets hurt. But in the end, we're all happy about something. I believe in second chances and wishing at 11:11. I'm probally the most jealous and overprotective person you will ever meet. I don't want to forget anything or anyone. I hold on to my past and old memories way too much. I'm not a slut, skank, whore. I'm not two faced, or worthy of being a role model. I'm really not hard to get along with, until you lose my trust. This really doesn't even begin to describe me.Get to know me. It's all you can do.%D%A
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