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{CATD3STROY3R}

lustfully burdened to disappoint….

About Me

Im insecure and often lonely even when surrounded by people, I have dreams and hopes of some day becoming the person i feel i am supposed to be, but im constantly dissapointed and hurt, Im tired of how fake everything and everyone around me is, I wish to feel something that doesn’t leave my tongue bitter and my heart empty, I feel that there is little left the world has to offer me,there are no posessions that make me feel, not enough money to create comfort, so I will spend these short moments here trying to surround myself with what I believe to be significant, I believe in compassion though it is rare. I have found so much beauty in some and so much filth in others, those I hold closes to me I am willing to sacrifice for, for others I will at least try, I want so badly to open others eyes, but I often find mine to be tightly shut as well,i didnt even know how blind i was untill a certain someone showed me the light of fresh ideas and meaningfull thought, this person allowed me to lay out my heart and not have to fear the rejection that so many are ready to give, i wont even name this person because inside of her there is a beauty that cant be described or labeld, she is autumn, inspiration, content.rawr .

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The Best Myspace Survey
* . . About You . . *
Eye Color:: greenish
Hair Color:: haha depends on what i could afford
Height:: 5 something, not tall enough
Favorite Color:: black,pink,red
Screen Name:: catdestroyer (I LIKE CATS 333 on live)
Favorite Band:: ohh way too difficult
Favorite Movie:: pi/donnie darko/28 days later cant choose
Favorite Show:: boondocks/ATHF
Your Car:: haha evrolet valier (some letters missing)
Your Hometown:: g-wood
Your Present Town:: waite park
Your Crushes First Name:: kayla
Your Grade:: A+ studd
Your Style:: my own so dont touch
* . . Have You Ever . . *
Sat on your rooftop?: at my old house all the time
Kissed someone in the rain?: hmm i dont think so
Danced in a public place?: dance..........i dont dance
Smiled for no reason?: well if i smiled for no reason wouldnt that be a reason in itself
Laughed so hard you cried?: cried so hard i laughed
Peed your pants after age 8?: nope, unless pools count, them pissed my pants at 18 :)
Written a song?: well no, i was in a band so sorta no
Sang to someone for no reason?: all the time
Performed on a stage?: yep,
Talked to someone you don't know?: ha im not social
Gone out of your way to befriend someone?: sorta, like i said i have hard times with being social
Made out in a theatre?: grrrrr. people dont need to .."makeout.." in public, cute kisses are ok though
Gone roller skating since 8th grade?: nope
Been in love?: my heart only wants love, and it does
* . . Who was the last person to . . *
Say HI to you?: kyle
Tell you, I love you?: kayla
Kiss you?: kayla
Hug you?: kayla
Tell you BYE?: pat :) ohhh pat
Write you a note?: haha kayla so many notes
Take your photo?: me
Call your cell phone?: my mom
Buy you something?: hmmmm not sure
Go with you to the movies?: kayla
Sing to you?: kayla
Write a poem about you?: :( no one wants to write about me
Text message you?: kaylas mom
Touch you?: myself.....oh yeah j/k
* . . What's the last . . *
Time you laughed?: pats comment about plumbing was worth a chuckle
Time you cried?: i dont like crying in front of others, not a macho thing just a personal thing
Movie you watched?: i think it was 28 days later?
Joke you told?: hmmm im not a joke guy
Song you've sang?: dirty little secret :) so hard not to
Time you've looked at the clock?: crap just now, you tricked me
Drink you've had?: dr. pepper
Number you've dialed?: 867-5309 eeeeeee-iiiiii-nnnnnneeeee
Book you've read?: choke
Food you've eaten?: hot dog from gas station, mmmm
Flavor of gum chewed?: minty stuff
Shoes you've worn?: my duffs
Store you've been in?: fleet farm gas station
Thing you've said?: i just read that last question out loud so that one
* . . Can You . . *
Write with both hands?: not well
Whistle?: not really
Blow a bubble?: sorta
Roll your tounge in a circle?: god i have no skills
Cross your eyes?: oh wait i can do that sorta
Touch your tounge to your nose?: i can touch it to my nose ring
Dance?: depends on your definition of .."danca.."
Gleek?: not on purpose, only at akward times
Stay up a whole night without sleep?: no i need sleep
Speak a different language?: i speak my own language
Impersonate someone?: np
Prank call people?: cant everyone?
Make a card pyramid?: im too shaky
Cook anything?: you wont want it
* . . Finish The Line . . *
If i were a ...: bored person i would take this survey
I wish ...: people would be open minded
So many people don't know that ...: i exist
I am ...: sweet
My heart is ...: the metaphorical center of my universe
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My Interests

watching people, music, emotions, and of course your opinion

I'd like to meet:


Get this video and more at MySpace.com my evil twin, your mom,

Music:

i love music, i have personal favorites but i honestly will listen to anything,

Television:

yes

Books:

halo series, choke, those books kayla makes me read

Heroes:

there are no heros here, just idols of greed and lust

My Blog

im not really this dramatic

Your lies burn my throat and turn my stomach, Ive been lying in this pool of sins with my heart barely breaking the surface, I stopped screaming for help long ago, as every second passes I learn more ...
Posted by {CATD3STROY3R} on Sun, 03 Sep 2006 03:39:00 PST

A.B.S........W.T.F?

who thought it would be a good idea to let my car decide when it wants to stop? its purpose is to increase traction in an emergency situation, which is great because this gives me the option...
Posted by {CATD3STROY3R} on Fri, 10 Feb 2006 07:51:00 PST