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About Me

What do you want to know?
I take a little too long to get ready in the morning.
daisies are my favorite flower.
procrastinating is one of my many talents.
some people think I'm stubborn.
stubbornly I insist that I'm only independant.
My roots? irish-german-american raised in a small town,
a valley girl in an LDS family.
I love my family.
not all of them are related to me.
I'm human, I make mistakes.
but I learn from every single one.
I find I can usually relate to people and make friends easily.
I would like to have the chance to make someones life better
I am generous, caring, and warm.
I'm working on being sensitive to and perceptive about others' feelings
I am enthusiastic, fun-loving, and have a good sense of humor.
My life is a rollercoster.
ups and downs
loops and curves
but I'm going somewhere
and its a fun ride.
scary at times.
but I try to stay on the track.
Life is never as bad as it seems.
I approve of myself.
I love myself.
I am willing to change.
We're all connected, and everything happens for a reason.
this is the place I go to in my dreams.
I'm dancing, in a little white sundress.
and lying in the grass.
Things I don't like about myself:
not being able to say no
having low self-esteem
feeling drained from overdoing for others
not doing things I really like to do for myself for fear of being selfish
criticizing myself for not feeling as loving as I think I should
being upset that others don't tune in to me as much as I tume in to them
working so hard to be tactful and considerate that I suppress my real feelings

Sun Sign: Capricorn
Sun 5Â° Capricorn 16' Capricorn Horoscope
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Moon Sign: Aquarius
Moon 27Â° Aquarius 56' Aquarius Horoscope
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Rising Sign: Taurus
Ascendant 8Â° Taurus 36' Taurus Horoscope
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My Interests

I'd like to meet:

Honest. Genuine. Unselfish.
Caring. Considerate. Independant.
Open minded. Active. Fun.
people.

Music:

a very wise individual once told me there are only two emotions.
fear and love.
Would you rather be right or would you rather be loved?

me + hardwood floors + socks =

Things I love:

my bird
coffee
lying in the grass
giraffes
socks
dancing, like no ones' watching.
blueberry tea
kaskade
the moon
rainy days
cartwheels
watching pigeons dance
laughing
music
art
riding horses
making new friends
mountains
bubble baths
going on long walks
peanut butter (with apples)
I'll put butter on almost anything
being snowed in
cuddling
making cookies
the smell of dryer sheets
anything with vitamin C.
walking to the library in the rain.
spring.
hiking-barefoot.
toliet paper.
sleeping

I'm trying not to distract myself from the things going on inside
tearing down the wall,
facing feelings, and embracing emotions.
I can't escape from myself.
why run?
RADIANCE

I need to EXPRESS MYSELF
I keep it all inside,
I'm told that I don't want to share my creativity.
out of fear.
or maybe i'm insecure? not sure
but I'm working on it.
;o)

"It doesn't have to make sense to be beautiful."

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Heroes:

I want to catch my men the way a praying matis catches a bird.
literally reaching in their chest and snatching his heart away.

. . .famous in many cultures. In some, they are considered holy.
Some believe that if you are lost, and you see a mantis, that you should go in the direction it is facing: that will lead you home.
Others think that the mantis always 'prays' facing Mecca.
The mantis is also famous for its almost human mating habits --
when the male and female are done mating, the female eats the male...

My Blog

overcoming childhood tramas

. . .when I was 5 in kidergarten my teacher told what mayonase was made of. (if you don't know go to the fridge and look) Not thinking that I was affected by it at all I ate a sandwhich oozing w...
Posted by praying mantis on Wed, 11 Apr 2007 06:28:00 PST

jguyf

Food for Thought: Just a quick refresher course lest we forget what has happened to many "friends"of the Clintons.1-James McDougal - Clinton's convicted Whitewater partner died of an apparent heart at...
Posted by praying mantis on Sat, 10 Feb 2007 04:43:00 PST

"The lightning has hit the ground, there's a fire building under the ground..."

driving in the darkness, lost, but not scareda friend and I search for a place,neither knows how to get there. . .On market a man sitting on the side walk wrapped in layers of blankets and clothing as...
Posted by praying mantis on Mon, 05 Feb 2007 12:22:00 PST

January 6th, 2007

I woke up tired today. And cleaned, you know. . .the things you only notice are dirty when your family come to visit you? I was exicted, and anxious, but nervous.Then my mom called and said that...
Posted by praying mantis on Sun, 07 Jan 2007 07:02:00 PST

Fork in the road

Dividing paths, conflicting interests, distorted views, a changing world, and different perspectives. Moving ahead, holding back, falling behind, hitting rock bottom, are all better than standing stil...
Posted by praying mantis on Thu, 14 Dec 2006 08:59:00 PST

dreams of darkness

I've lost it again. I thought I put it in my pocket, and I did, but I think its just gone. I couldn't sleep last night, night terrors kept me awake. Crying, sweating, and shaking af...
Posted by praying mantis on Wed, 15 Nov 2006 07:02:00 PST

I need a shovel. . .

Why even when life seems to be getting just that much better, do I feel like locking myself in my house, curling up in bed, and only seeing the sunlight through my comforter until the end final...
Posted by praying mantis on Thu, 02 Nov 2006 08:30:00 PST

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Daniel always tells me to write blogs more often. I'm byself and the world feels like its tilting, so I thought it be an interesting time to write a blog and it might come out really horrible an...
Posted by praying mantis on Sat, 21 Oct 2006 08:06:00 PST

Be still my soul

I've decided life is a funny thing that takes you in all kinds of different directions if you let it. I never thought I would be where I am now with the people I am now. And how much I wou...
Posted by praying mantis on Thu, 28 Sep 2006 01:21:00 PST

living in the now..

Leaving the past behind feels so good, moving ahead with my life feels amazing. I used to feel sorry for myself, and think that everyone else should too. I'm so glad that phase of my life ...
Posted by praying mantis on Thu, 13 Jul 2006 12:01:00 PST