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About Me

Got Home?(clickhere)I've found that I'm becoming the epitome of imperfection. I'm stupid; end of discussion. I'm too sensitive & think too much. I wish on stars & believe that closing my eyes tightly will make all my problems go away. I'm still a child -- it can't be denied. Sometimes, I like to pretend I'm someone I'm not; sometimes, I attempt to accept myself for who I am & frustrate myself. More often than not, I find myself dreaming of the person I'd like to be. I am always trying to fix myself, as if there was certainly something wrong. In fact, there's nothing I'd like more than to watch myself evolve into someone beautiful & worth something in anyone's heart. It's then that I'll become perfect, & it's then that I will be satisfied. Until then, I am simply the meaning of imperfection itself..Hi there.I'm Mattina Renee.[AKA. Mattie.]&&Chances are.. I don't like you.I'm pretty much that one kidthat no one knows anything about.Unless you're one of the select few who gets to beone of my closest friends.I'm not at all interesting.I'm actually pretty lame, to tell you the truth.I am TAKEN by a wonderful boy.He pretty much owns my heart.[Youknowwhoyouare]♥I'm just shy of my 16th birthday.[its in 2 weeks. getmelotsofpresents.=)]My bestfriends are pretty much my family.If you have a problem with that, well then... screw you.Immature people irritate me. Just thought I'd point that out.I love[♥] one of my bestestfriends Emolyy . =] She's rad.I absolutley HATE dumb, cocky people.Thats pretty much my biggest pet peeve.Just because I listen to "emo" music, doesn't mean I'm EMO.It's a genre, shitheads.Don't send me messages/comments saying i'm pretty, or cute, or beautiful.I'll only try to impress you.I absolutley love[♥] art.Going to local shows gives me a sense of reality.&&It gives me a reason to get away from home.I wish I had a liscence.Because that way, I'd be able to go visit my boyfriend.&&See him more often.♥Don't send me hate mail if you don't know me.That's just dumb.&&PLEASEEEEEEEE read my profile before you judge me.I absolutley HATE people who judge someone just by appearance.Have a nice day.Ciao kiddos.♥The Info You Wish You Knew Before.MSN-[[email protected]]AIM-[xxshadowxfallsxx]YIM- [death_goesxto_disco]Add me on Xanga-[letsxplayxholocaust].♥.

My Interests

♥The likes♥♥Guitar♥♥Music♥&hea rts;Emo boys♥♥My friends♥♥Myspace♥♥Writing♥♥Pointless convorsations♥♥Hugs♥♥Kisses&hear ts;♥Walking aimlessly around town♥♥Cuddling♥♥Rain♥&hea rts;Thunderstorms♥♥Holding hands♥♥Snowdays♥♥The feeling of being safe♥♥Being told that I'm loved, and have someone actually mean it.♥♥My three rad cumberland boys♥♥My camera♥♥Coffee House (my only sense of reality)♥♥Snowdays♥xThe HatesxxTotal silencexxMisplaced trustxxLiesxxSmall, dark placesxxHaving my heart shatteredinto millions of pieces 3 timesxxFalse Accusationsx

I'd like to meet:

My dear Trevor♥I'm breathing for him..♥The rad boys of Cumberland.mhmmthey would be Scott, Ashton, and Mikey.♥&&Jade..one of the most raddest boys in Wisconsin..Here are my friends. Just don't steal them. Mkay? =]

Music:

♥ Ear candy ♥♥ Aiden ♥♥ Academy Is, The ♥♥ Action! Action! ♥♥ All American Rejects ♥♥ Ambulance! Ambulance! ♥♥ Armor For Sleep ♥♥ Audition, The ♥♥ Bayside ♥♥ Bravery, The ♥♥ Clash, The ♥♥ Death Cab For Cutie ♥♥ Emanuel ♥♥ Emery ♥♥ Fall Out Boy ♥♥ Finch ♥♥ From First To last ♥♥ Funeral For A Friend ♥♥ Goodnight Nurse ♥♥ Hellogoodbye ♥♥ Killers, The ♥♥ Lost Prophets ♥♥ Matchbox Romance ♥♥ Mest ♥♥ My Chemical Romance ♥♥ Motion City Soundtrack ♥♥ Panic! At The Disco ♥♥ Ramones, The ♥♥ Relient K ♥♥ Rise Against ♥♥ Scary Kids Scaring Kids ♥♥ Senses Fail ♥♥ Silversein ♥♥ Smashing Pumpkins, The ♥♥ Somerset ♥♥ Spill Canvas, The ♥♥ Taking Back Sunday ♥♥ Used, The ♥♥ Underoath ♥♥ Westfall ♥ Subject: shewasdead

Movies:

♥ Eye Candy ♥♥The Corpse Bride♥The Nightmare Before Christmas♥The Labrynth♥Eurotrip♥Edward Scissorshands♥Pirates of the Caribbean♥Van Helsing

Television:

xXxFun with the peoplessxXxAt walmart after a coffee houseI find it highly amusing...

Books:

♥ Teh people who love me ♥♥ My bestestfriend from New Zealand, Jase♥

Heroes:

♥ Teh Special People ♥♥♥My bestestfriend Lacey♥♥♥My cutieface Trevor♥

My Blog

not like it really matters....

al;sdkjfa;lsdkjas soon as i cani'm leaving hudson and im probably going to somewherewhere no one can find mei need to get away from everything here...there are to many memoriesthat are still freshand ...
Posted by FAKE is the new trend and youre all the rage;; on Tue, 21 Mar 2006 07:43:00 PST

not like anyone cares.. but....

it feels like whenever something goes wrongor when i need someone to talk to..everyone leaves meor ignores meit hurtsno one has any idea how alone i feel right now..i wish i could just disappearor i w...
Posted by FAKE is the new trend and youre all the rage;; on Thu, 16 Mar 2006 08:04:00 PST

A melody softly soaring through my atmosphere...

Ok. So..mattie had an ok daynothing dramatic happeningexcept for her and lyle are now talking?i guess?lolMattie wants to chill with someone tonight.does anyone want to?mattie's been thinking about pos...
Posted by FAKE is the new trend and youre all the rage;; on Wed, 08 Feb 2006 03:33:00 PST

so this whore...

this girl.. whos a whore.. who i have always hated, i told her today i think she's an annorexic little whore.. and we just went at it and, out of no where she was like.. well at least i have two lovin...
Posted by FAKE is the new trend and youre all the rage;; on Fri, 27 Jan 2006 02:31:00 PST

And so.. Mattie posts one of her poems -le gasp-

Water washes away beauty with held in eyes of an angel Blood drips from incisions that no longer compliment her wrists Broken halos litter the clouds that she once inhabited Robes of white absc...
Posted by FAKE is the new trend and youre all the rage;; on Thu, 19 Jan 2006 03:13:00 PST

i wish..

i wish i could go back.. and fix whatever it was that i screwed up so badly... because most things have been my fault..and now i feel shitty because of it......and because i've been blaming things on ...
Posted by FAKE is the new trend and youre all the rage;; on Wed, 18 Jan 2006 07:46:00 PST

and so.....

right now..i feel like i screwed up a lot of thingsand it feels like a lot of people are mad at me/hate me right now...so what i'm going to now, is go and cry..because i canand because thats all i wan...
Posted by FAKE is the new trend and youre all the rage;; on Mon, 09 Jan 2006 03:34:00 PST

take the survay... make me happy

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:? Please do this for me.I committed suicide:I said I liked you:I kissed you:I lived next door to you:I started smoking:I stole something:I was hospitalized:I ran away from home:I ...
Posted by FAKE is the new trend and youre all the rage;; on Tue, 27 Dec 2005 04:35:00 PST

i feel used......it hurts...

i found outthat my former bestfriendwas only friends with meso he could use me as his stupid little sex toythen leave me....it hurtsall i wanna do right now is go curl up somewhere and cry...seriously...
Posted by FAKE is the new trend and youre all the rage;; on Mon, 26 Dec 2005 01:17:00 PST

wow... i feel like shit..

i think i just screwed things upand i didn't want to...i hate myself now...i'm gonna go cry and like.. lock myself i a closetforevernever come out..
Posted by FAKE is the new trend and youre all the rage;; on Mon, 26 Dec 2005 09:19:00 PST