Rockgoddess ♥'s FORTHUS - ProfilesArchive

About Me

(Click the edge of the post-it note to see music, books, heroes etc.)Begin: A beautiful stranger, and I- so udderly in lust hopelessly hoping, heavy heart in hand.Frame by frame, it all replays. leaving me to bare the shackles of three For a crime committed by one... Pushed down, and broken by the ungentle hand of a man whos soul left him before he ever existed.Welcome to envys end, my friend. I'm pushing you off of your cloud AGAIN. (beauty thus become)*******'Give me a reason to believe that we're not just wasting time here. Hoping, pretending that we're not descending. Knocked down and dying. my flesh, my bones, my blood. They hold my hate, my love. So stay, and watch me bleed. This hurt... push it through, cut. Cold and shaking, holding on... Waiting for you. always waiting for you... "I love you"and love has become my suicide of self, a four letter lie... I'm too numb to feel this anymore.I have no idea what all the junk is below this line, just ignore it! _______________....

My Interests

Music is my life, my muse, my krutch, my pulse...I like Poetry. Writing. Art. I like people (sometimes) and my fish named ernie. I like sleeping late, driving fast, and the spring when it rains. I like to cuddle, and sing in the shower when no one is around. I like campfires and acoustic guitars. I like it when people think i'm weird. I like the feeling when I stand next to the ocean and being in the company of good friends. I like concerts and losing my voice from screaming so loud. I like laughing until I cry. I like my chuck taylors, my ripped jeans and my mis-mathced socks. "I LIKA YOU" but most of all, i like me!

I'd like to meet:

Jim Morrison,
Layne Staley,
Your Mom,
M.C. Escher,
Julia Cameron,
Glen Hansard,
Elanore Rigby
Kenny G
Big Foot,
YOU,
Webster (ya know the dictonary guy),
Marketa Irglova,
The King,
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"Heaven's not a place that you go when you die
It's that moment in life when you actually feel alive
So live for the moment And take this advice,
live by every word, Love is just a hoax
so forget anything that you have heard..."

-TSC-
"I must go now, Don't hold me with your eyes
and reach your heart across the room
like that or my own will break.
Love you? Of course I love you...
That's why I have to go... Before you know how much."

*MY MUSICAL MOOD*

"Broken Bones"
By: Rev Theory

Walking a fine line between wrong and right
And I know...
There is a part of me that I try to hide
But I can't win
And I can't fight
I keep holding on too tight
Running away from the world outside

Now I am calling
Hoping you'll hear me
We all need somebody
To believe in something
And I won't fear this
When I am falling
We all need somebody
That can mend... These broken bones

Caught in the confines of the simple life
And I am...
Holding my head high in the rising tide
And I can't win
And I can't fight
I keep holding on too tight
Running away from the world outside

Now I am calling
Hoping you'll hear me
We all need somebody
To believe in something
And I won't fear this
When I am falling
We all need somebody
That can mend... These broken bones

I'm not coming home now
I know...
I'm so far away
So far from home
I'm not coming home now
I know...
I'm so far away
I'm so far away

And I can't win
And I can't fight
I keep holding on too tight

Now I am calling
Hoping you'll hear me
We all need somebody
To believe in something
And I won't fear this
When I am falling
We all need somebody
That can mend... These broken bones

And I can't win
And I can't fight
I keep holding on too tight
Running away from the world outside

"It seems like the daylight is coming,
And no one is watching but me
But I don't mind the dark
Discovering the day
Cause the night is a beautiful bright blue and gray
what brings me down now is love
cause I can never get enough"

-AD-

Music:

(In No Particular Order)Pulse Ultra Strata Circa Survive Coheed & Cambria Lovedrug Silversun Pickups Muse Days Away Chiodos Glen Hansard & Marketa Irglova The Frames 30 Seconds to Mars Shinedown Rev Theory Red Breaking Benjamin Earshot Chevelle Hurt Edgewater Dishwalla John Mayer Anberlin Thrice Dustin Kensrue Jimmy Eat World Lifehouse Prime STH The Spill Canvas Brand New From Autumn to Ashes Framing Hanley Ashes Divide Augustana Goo Goo Dolls High Flight Society (hed)pe Mayday Parade Paramore So They Say Instruction Dry Cell Course of Nature Theory of a Deadman Silvertide Cinder Road Poets & Porn Stars The Color Fred Damien Rice Familiar 48 Sugarcult Fuel Open Air Stereo The Classic Crime Matchbox 20 Jack Johnson 10 Years Ra Taproot Flaw five.bolt.main Chris Vols Evans Blue Matisyn Screams Patience 36 Crazyfists Nonpoint Blank Theory Skillet 12 Stones Submersed Decyfer Down Breaking Point Socialburn Silverchair OneRepublic My American Heart Outspoken Luna Halo Lifer Jimmie's Chicken Shack Deepfield Tool A Perfect Circle Team Sleep Soil American Head Charge Drowning Pool Alien Ant Farm Greenwheel Bayside Counting Crows Straylight Run Alice In Chains HIM Incubus Outspoken Dark New Day Lo-Pro Egypt Central Memento 32 Leaves Speak no Evil Epidemic Noise Therapy Sunset Black Unloco Fivespeed Reach 454 Vonray Element Eighty Closure Endo Tantric Liquid Gang Nothingface Sevendust Seether Reveille Nullset Spineshank Vulpine Nonpoint Point One Ill Nino Hourcast Lynam

Movies:

*ONCE Clerks, Clerks II, Dogma, Mall Rats, Chasing Amy, Waynes World I & II Hot Rod Dead Poets Society The 13th Warrior Freddy Got Fingered Borat Napoleon Dynamite Juno Fight Club The Boondock Saints Pulp Fiction Harts War A Knights Tale Sling Blade August Rush The Doors Movie We Were Soldiers Into The Wild The Illusionist Lords of Dogtown Big Fish Stop Loss(a never-ending list)

Television:

Family Guy The Simpsons Lil Bush Roseanne Futurama Degrassi Saturday Night Live Fresh Prince Extreme Home Makeover Don't forget the Lyrics Jimmy Neutron The Fairly Odd Parents How It's Made Dirty Jobs--------- what happened to... The Dinasours Salute Your Shorts Hey Dude Pete and Pete Inspector Gadget Rocos Modern Life Doug Crank Yankers

Books:

American Night by Jim Morrison Wilderness by Jim Morrison The Lords and the New Creatures by Jim Morrison, The Right to Wright by Julia Cameron, The Artists Way by Julia Cameron, Revolution on Canvas 1 & 2 The Pocket Muse by Monica Wood

Heroes:

My brother & my dad and any other american soldier that has or is serving our country.

My Blog

"The price of a memory is the memory of the sorrow it brings."

"It's so quiet now,You're surprised, and then you wake For all the things you're losingYou might as well resign yourself to try and make a change"'cause all the times we shared,When you looked me in t...
Posted by Rockgoddess ♥'s FORTHUS on Mon, 02 Jun 2008 11:09:00 PST

Welcome to Envys End

Begin: A beautiful stranger.And I- so udderly in lusthopelessly hoping, heavy heart on my shoulder. Frame by frame,it all replays.leaving me to bare the shackles of threeFor a crime committed by ...
Posted by Rockgoddess ♥'s FORTHUS on Sat, 17 May 2008 11:16:00 PST

A Four Letter Lie

We're all at fault here. Pointing our fingers like childeren. a year full of lies, a year full of deception... not only from you, and her, but from myself as well. and here i am, again. a broken ...
Posted by Rockgoddess ♥'s FORTHUS on Tue, 13 May 2008 10:50:00 PST

The Cross of You

It began with a look,a desire, merely a thought;Taking nothing and surrounding it by armsThat needed so much more.and sometimes seconds last for hourswhen you're not around.The clock, it stops and ble...
Posted by Rockgoddess ♥'s FORTHUS on Sat, 10 May 2008 12:22:00 PST

Poem for a Rainy Day

In fields of patchy grass,Of mud and of all that's washed its way here,I'm taken. Mystified. As the rain drenches my soul Through the glass of myFront door window. I am home here, With this comforting...
Posted by Rockgoddess ♥'s FORTHUS on Tue, 26 Feb 2008 12:42:00 PST

The "poet" without words. (winter, the lost muse)

I need to write again, just to get this feeling to go away... I'm so unaccomplished lately, my head is spinning with words but I can't seem to put them together. Winter has failed me again, once known...
Posted by Rockgoddess ♥'s FORTHUS on Fri, 22 Feb 2008 08:18:00 PST

Wash It Away

The rain will wash away someday, Just as your face and name,That's been painted in my memory for days.But, I'm not alone at being alone here,Your eyes say it all. And tonight, I'll break apartAll by m...
Posted by Rockgoddess ♥'s FORTHUS on Mon, 28 Jan 2008 08:31:00 PST

Blame it on the Weather

In the sky, Your constant reoccurance.The stars, you are,And will always be. Blame it on the weather,Piercing the soul,Breaking the mind. Memories entangle thought,Restless, motionless.Searching for a...
Posted by Rockgoddess ♥'s FORTHUS on Mon, 28 Jan 2008 08:25:00 PST

~~Set Me Free~~ {Older Blogs}

Remove my hear from the hand that has broken me-Breathe again, live again, BE AGAIN. I live for this moment alone: Today will set me free. Turn this page and begin again, Never weakened by this pain. ...
Posted by Rockgoddess ♥'s FORTHUS on Sat, 10 Dec 2005 09:48:00 PST

If my heart stops beating

If my heart stops beating, Just let me fall. Into the wake of deaths dream. Gather my pieces and put me on display. held up by the ones who have broken me. The world, my audiance. Announce to them tha...
Posted by Rockgoddess ♥'s FORTHUS on Thu, 29 Nov 2007 02:06:00 PST