xLe

Name's Krystle, but you can call me xLe. =)
i can't hear anythin
but maddening screams
& the soft strains of death
you promised me...
somebody/anybody
sing a [chinay] girl's song
bring her out
to know herself
to know you
but sing her rhythms
carin/struggle/hard times
sing her song of life
she's been dead for so long
closed in silence for so long
she doesn't know the sound
of her own voice
her infinite beauty
she's half-notes scattered
without rhythm/no tunes
sing her sighs
sing the song of her possibilities
sing a righteous gospel
the making of a melody
let her be born
let her be born
& handled warmly.
-for colored girls who have considered suicide when the rainbow is enuf, by ntozake shanae
chinay (half Pinay ~ Ilocana and half Chinese ~ Haka) // dreamer // "HR no.5" to the ST fambam // hopeful romantic =) // singer // dancer // poet // mahinhin ("reserved") // actor // proud auntie! =) // photographer // developing artist and performer // activist // old soul // total dork // sarcastic // open-minded // constantly evolving // has a good heart // laugh-a-holic // smiler // cultural // passionate // family-oriented // silly // loves food // naturally quiet and naturally loud O_o // has one tattoo (baybayin of lakas ~ "strength") // lover // fighter // doesn't have pierced ears // always down to support the community // hype womyn ;) // gives but doesn't give up // genuinely nice...until someone decides to bring on unnecessary drama // Backstreet Boys fan for life (KTBPA!) // student of life, love, and every form of art // "transformed" // grammar & spelling fanatic // loves the word "hella" // event organizer // mover & shaker // doodler // randomly bursts out into a song // is and always will be a [northern] California girl // too forgiving // too caring
I want to "fall in love four times" (inside joke, but I took this as not only falling with someone, but with a way of living, a culture, a history, etc). I want to travel the world and experience life in an uncensored way. I want to feel myself becoming one with these moments of immersing myself in different cultures. That's how I want to learn. My being is just not satisfied being kept in a gloomy classroom, forced to listen to the drones of regurgitated information that may not really apply to my life and may limit my actual comprehension of it. See, LIFE is my teacher. I want to understand and learn what truly interests me, not what others think I should learn. I want my knowledge to breathe life into me to help me survive life and not just drag me along to only get through it. I want to come to a peace of mind. I want to fulfill my purpose. I want to make a difference in this world.
People have asked me at parties, "Did you drink? Are you drunk?", and my response has always been "No, I LOVE LIFE. I'm just having a hella good time!". I enjoy getting high off of life, thank you. Life should be experienced consciously not through a subdued awareness. Life means so much more.
SERVE THE PEOPLE.
MAKIBAKA, HUWAG MATAKOT.
"ang pag-ibig natin ay walang hanggang paalam
at habang magkalayo papalapit pa rin ang puso
kahit na magkahiwalay tayo ay magkasama
sa magkabilang dulo ng mundo..."
[Joey Ayala, "Walang Hanggang Paalam"]
"To live in hearts we leave behind is not to die."
[Thomas Campbell]
"Ang taong hindi marunong lumingon sa kanyang pinanggalingan ay hindi makakarating sa kanyang pupuntahan."
[Jose Rizal]
"If you find someone that you know you love, just love that person and God will see you thru the rest of the way."
[Musiq Soulchild]
"If it takes patience to build a nation, then I will love you one brick at a time."
[Alan Maramag]
"LOVE LOVE and FIGHT for its possibility!"
[Glenda Macatangay]