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I ain’t expectin’ yah ta read this. I know yah ain’t interested. I understand na nakakatamad and na yah don’t really care naman talaga ‘bout me. But I’d appreciate it if yah’d check this out. My fullname is Khriska Bea Claudia Villanueva Violago. January 1 is mah birthday. I’m the eldest in the brood ov five. I have three bros- “Khris” Marlowe, 15; Khris Von “Miguel”, 13; Khris Lee “Briane”, 12; and a sis Khrissa “Lea” Eliza, 11. My mom’s name is Marilou Balbakal Villanueva and my dad is Cresenciano Agustin Violago. My father died ov lung cancer when I was 15. We have close family ties. I consider each member ov mah family as mah bestfriend. We share secrets. Misunderstandings arise but we try ta patch things up right away. I have half-bros and half-sistahs. I ain’t a good daughter and sissy..hehe. I’m lazy. I don’t do household chores and I don’t run errand for anyone. I’m ain’t obedient..in lieu, I’m hard-headed. I don’t obey wha mah mom or mah friends tell me though I know they’re thinkin’ ov mah own sake. That’s why I always end up bein’ hurt, deceived and full ov regrets..crying. The ironic thin’ is, I don’t learn from mah past mistakes. Weird..ü I love clothes! I’m a fashionista. I wear anythin’ as long as it’s comfortable. Sometimes I follow the trend but most ov the time I prefer wearin’ jeans and shirt. I’m vain. I look at the mirror or any shiny object everytime I get the chance ta look at mah self. Life, foe me, would be miserable witout mah lipgloss and mah hanky. I hate puttin’ on make up. It irritates mah skin. I used ta have pimples. Good thin’ I don’t have it na. I have a keloid on mah right knee..the nerve! Oh, how I wish I was taller, too. I remember takin’ growth capsules. I’m ain’t satisfied wit mah body. I find it fat! I’ve tried doin’ aerobics before, I tried workin’ out in the gym, too and I used ta do lotsa exercises befoe ta keep mah self fit buh I stopped..kakatamad eh. how I wish sipagin ako ulit so I’d appreciate wha I have. I can’t control mah self from eatin’ kasi. Eatin’ is the coolest part ov livin’, hehe. I’m a gourmet. I especially love Japanese foods (sushi, teriyaki, takoyaki/samurai balls, tongkatsu) and Italian cuisine (pasta dishes, pizza). I consider Burger King as the best place ta munch on mah favorite-burgers! I also spend my time eatin’ at Mcdo, love ko ‘to! Some ov mah otha fave restaurants are Sbarro, Tokyo Tokyo, KFC and Cinnabon (yum yum cinnamon rolls!). I love blueberry cheesecake. i love Autie Anne's pretzel wit butterscotch or chocolate dip.. I love the Melon flavored Pearl Cooler in Greenwich. I also love eatin’ street foods like fishballs, squid balls, cheese sticks, kikiam, dirty ice cream, scramble and gulaman especially the ones outside our school. Oh so yummy! When I feel like havin’ coffee, I go ta Starbucks or Seattle’s Best. mah meal isn’t complete witout somethin’ sweet, desserts..i love cakes, pastries and cookies. I’m chocoholic! Chocolates are more than enough ta turn mah bad day inta a supercalifragilisticexpialidocious one. I love fruits den and among mah faves are apples, mangoes and bananas. Moreover, i love mayonnaise (oh, yes!). I’m a sports buff. I enjoy watchin’ basketball games buh I dunno how ta play it. I’m a huge fan ov Los Angeles Lakers’ Kobe Bryant and Shaq O’Neal. Locally, I watch UAAP. I’m cheerin’ foe La Salle Green Archers’ Joseph Yeo and BJ Manalo and Ateneo Blue Eagles’ JC Intal (hmm..) and Larry Fonacier. I enjoy playin’ soccer in school coz I love runnin’ ‘round, kickin’ and bumpin’ wit the otha players. I love jumpin’ ‘round, too. I play badminton. I love walI climbin’ and trampoline. I love swimming. I actually love the beach but I hate summer (except the fact that it’s vacation..no classes!). I just can’t stand the heat ov the sun. Heat makes me ill-tempered. I’m a music-freak..sobra! I love J. Lo, Ja Rule, Justin Timberlake, Ashanti, Avril Lavigne, Usher, Outkast, Incubus and 50 Cent, All American Rejects and Maroon 5.. Locally, I love listenin’ ta South Border, Freestyle, Parokya Ni Edgar, Moonstar 88, Rivermaya, M.Y.M.P, E-heads, Kyla, Nina and Jimmy Bondoc. I enjoy listenin’ ta fast and groovy music coz i love dancin’. Buh sometimes, when I feel like cryin’ or emotin’ or depressed, I listen ta mushy songs. And oh, I love listenin’ ta classical music, instrumental type..kinda strange or peculiar buh it soothes mah mind kasi. I do collect pics ov the significant and very special people I mah life, cds, dangling earrings (my only accessories), teen fashion mags like Candy, Seventeen and Cosmopolitan. I’ve written lotsa poems, too. I love the colors black, blue (in any shade), white, pink and silver. I don’t have vices. Yah, I’ve tried drinkin’ buhtha time I was just forced ta do so coz twas a friend’s birthday. It happened thrice. Once, I was even grounded! I don’t even wanna try smokin’ coz I can’t bear it’s smell. Malabo nga pala mata ko so I apply contact lenses into mah eyes. Right now, I’m wearin’ a gray one. It’s not tha I like it, I just didn’t have a choice! There was an unavailability ov stock ov otha colors. At first, twas such a shame! I’m still on the process ov gettin’ over mah shyness in wearin’ these odd stuffs. They would call me cat’s eye, vampire, sanib and malikmata kasi. In school, I love science subjects except physics. I used ta hate Math befoe but I’m beginnin’ ta like it now. I also enjoy mah English class so much. I hate hubbub while I’m studyin’, kahit little noises lang, I get easily distracted. I’m the type ov person who doesn’t forget ta carry wit me a pen and paper in mah bag. I enjoy watchin’ funny movies or tv shows. Bruce Almighty is mah all-time favorite movie, I admire Kristin Kreuk, Natalie Portman, Drew Barrymore, Angelina Jolie, Catherine Zeta-Jones, Gwyneth Paltrow, Cameron Diaz, Nicole Kidman, Sandra Bullock and again, Jennifer Lopez. I like Daniel Radcliffe Jim Carrey, Eddie Murphy, Adam Sandler, Mel Gibson, Sean Connery, Leonardo Di Caprio, Tom Cruise, Rob Schneider, Richard Gere, Keanu Reeves and Brad Pitt. I have an arachnophobia- fear ov spiders! I’m a nosey parker (an excessively inquisitive person). I’m loquacious. I love conversin’. I’m a mall rat. It takes me 3-5 hours in choosin’ and buyin’ just one stuff I need. I’m a couch potato. I even enjoy watchin’ the commercials, hehe. I’m a mouse potato, buh not a computer heel. Mah email ad is [email protected]. I log in foe ‘bout 3-5 hours in the net, just chattin’ wit different people. Coz I always wanna expand mah circle ov friends. I always make it a point ta greet everyone when I meet ‘em somewhere. Albeit I’m not a connoisseur when it comes ta givin’ advices, people run ta me ta ask foe help. I’m their confidante. I ain’t a homebody. I’m very outgoing, gimmickera..layas! hehe.ü I don’t like stayin’ in one place, especially sa house, coz I get bored easily. Nababadtrip ako when I can’t think ov somethin’ fun ta do. I love chillin’ out at mah buds’ houses or I hit the mall or when mah sched and mah mom permits me, I go on a night out. Kuripot daw ako..uhm..yeah, i think so, too. but, hey, mind you, pag naman ako gumastos, ubos agad. I’m convivial, a certifieda party animal..till the wee hours. I love night time. Tha’s why I love stayin’ up late at night. I’m wacky and hyperactive. I turn beet red when I laugh, when it’s hot, when I’m mad, when I’m annoyed, when I’m humiliated, when I’m flattered. I love people-watchin’..guy-huntin’, ta be specific..hehe.ü ayt, I gotta admit it, life sucks witout boys! Just can’t get enough ov ‘em. i'm a sleepyhead. i remember, one time, i didn't mean ta sleep in my social studies class! during math time, my teacher would notice my drowsiness tha's why she would call me Sleeping BEAuty..whoa! I can’t sleep witout huggin’ mah fave pillow. And when I hear soft sounds, nagigising ako agad then it would be very hard foe me ta bring mah self ta bed again. i'm a certified pintasera..sobra..as in..expert ako sa pang-ookray. I’m so bad noh? I find it hard ta refuse, can’t say no especially ta special people. I trust everyone way too easy kahit kakakilala ko lang don sa person. I’m very transparent. I always have difficulty expressin’ how I feel. But contrary ta this, one ov mah ex-bfs told me I’m so sweet..but..i don’t have thrill. =( I’m ambitious. I wanna be a doctor someday. I wanna travel ‘round the world. I wish mah wedding would take place in Vatican, administered by the Pope. (whoa!) I wanna live in France. I wanna learn how ta speak all kinds ov parlance, most especially, French. I wish I had the body, beauty and height coz it’s always been mah dream ta be a supermodel..hehe.ü and if possible, I wanna be the richest woman at least here in the Phiippines. In mah next life, I wanna experience how it is ta be a man. Sometimes, I hate bein’ a girl. Girls suffer more than boys do- the monthly cycle, the pain felt during first intercourse, conceivin’, limitations when goin’ out, and the fact tha we just can’t come up ta a guy and propose. In our society, it’s cheap. But actually, foe me, it’s bein’ true ta yah self. So basically, doin’ the first move is an act ov courage. Courtin’ is just fine. But hey, I haven’t tried it yet ah! Maybe when it’s desperate measures..haha! sometimes, I feel so idiot coz I can’t do even the simplest things, can’t help mah self. Sometimes I hate life itself! So unfair! Based on mah past relationships, I’m always betrayed- unfaithfulness (third party) and insincerity. Lagi din ako yung pinagsasawaan. I wonder tuloy if I’m boring ba or somethin’. I often reminisce and ask mah self what’s wrong. As far as I know, mah friends enjoy mah company naman. I guess, I’m not a girlfriend material lang talaga kaya I haven’t had a long term affair wit anyone. Lagi ako yung iniiwan. Laging ako yung napagtitripan and niloloko. I’m always taken foe granted. Laging reputation ko yung nagsasuffer. Sabi nila malandi ako..well, aminado ako. But accusing me ov mudslingin’ or castin’ malicious slurs is somethin’ I won’t take sittin’ down. Pero malay ko ba sa sarili ko.. Galit ako sa sarili ko coz hindi ko magawang gumanti sa mga taong nagtrust ako nang sobra tas gagawan pa ko ng hindi maganda. I just cry and bear grudge unto them. Inspite ov the horrible incidents, I still find mah self trustin’ all over again. Stupid me! Buti na lang, thank GOD coz finally, nadala na ko. Right now, ayoko muna magboyfriend. Temporarily, I’m closin’ mah heart. Yoko na mahurt. I’ve learned mah lesson. Next time, I’m gonna make sure the guy’s really serious..as in 100%. Mahirap na ren. Baka sa huli, magsisi na naman ako accompanied by the complete destruction ov mah future. Next time, I’m gonna consider consultin’ mah family and friends befoe decidin’. I promise ta listen ta ‘em na talaga coz they know wha’s best foe me. Pero *****, may namimiss talaga ko! Gosh, I need ta overcome this feelin’ befoe it’s too late..i might fall again then masaktan ulit. ta tell yah the truth, love ko pa yata talaga sya buh obviously, he doesn’t like me anymoe. As far as I know, he never really loved me, he wasn’t really serious ‘bout me. I even heard he just made a fool out ov me and nagspread ng rumors..buh then..we remained friends.. tigas ulo ko eh, hehe. Eiun. For now, sana may mangyaring miracle between us. I’d be the happiest woman in the world pag nagrant yung ultimate wish ko na yan. I’m gonna end this already. I’m getting’ so madrama na, haha! Thanks foe the effort, time and patience yah offered foe this very long and nonsense “bout me”. uh, i'm a total dork...buh genuinely nice! read na lang mah friends' testimonials, ayt?!ü