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James

...It's what we do that defines us.

About Me

I'm being deployed again. I will soon be off to Afghanistan for about a year or so.I have had a lot of major things happen so far this year in my life and for the most part they have been unpleasant. I hope for good things to come and for everyone of us going on this trip to come home safe.I try my best to do the right thing and help others. I believe kindness is best used instead of hate. I try to stay positive about all things and try to look on the bright side, it is almost an impossible feeling now. I always try to believe in people and that they will do right by me and others. I believe in never giving up on thing no matter how dire it seems. Doing what ever I can to be a better person.Trying to: Be less impatient. To listen to what is being said. Doing the right thing at the right time, or lack of doing something instead. Be a better person.I seem to hurt those I care about most when all I want to do is take care of them and make sure they aren't hurt in anyway. All I ever want to do is make people happy. No one do I want to be more happy are those I care for! I had people that I loved that are now out of my life and it seems so meaningless without them. I don't know how or why it got to be like this but now I just feel less than I was. I feel shame, guilt and an over whelming sadness. I hope for things to get better but it's hard to think otherwise.

My Interests

Saving the World! Brushing my teeth, Astral projection, Ninjas, Rubber ducky, Teaching monkeys karate, Kicking those same monkeys butts, Paintball, Opening doors, walking,your Mom, lurking, knitting, Finding things to work on, having others do those things for me, Brushing my teeth, Non-work, inslaving squirels to do my bidding, Corn Bread. .. width="425" height="350">.. ..>

Leaving Yard House, Before going to movies with Jaime & Alison...and you!
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See what I have to deal with! Some people should not drink! Oh and yeah that's you I'm on the phone with.

I'd like to meet:

Quality people.Someone that can improve my life with thier character.I'm not sure I want to meet with God as of yet because I have yet to have that feeling of really been complete and doing life worth living. I was close and some how messed it up. I don't know how to feel about God at the moment. It's all some what confusing now.I hope to meet those I have lost...Cool Beans

Music:

Stone Temple Pilots, Nirvana, Green Day, Beatles, Foo Fighters, No Doubt, Save Ferris, God Smack, Black Sabbath, Doors, Johnny Cash, Garbage, Smashing Pumpkins, AC/DC, The Rolling Stones, Stevie Wonder, Metalica, White Zombie, Velvet Revolver, Led Zeplin, James Brown, Journey, The killers, Cold Play, Linkin Park, Stray Cats, Pearl Jam, Sound Garden, Alice In Chains, and more to come

Movies:

Transformers The MOVIE(1986), Star Wars 4,5&6, Indiana Jones, Pulp Fiction, Clerks I&II, Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back, Ghost Busters 1&2, Saving Private Rayn, Space Balls, Conan The Barbarian, Ferris Bulers Day Off, Van Wilder, Spiderman 1&2, Evil Dead 1&2, Army of Darkness, Bubba Ho-tep, The Last Starfighter, Tron, Batman, The Great Escape, Superman 1&2, Lost Boys, Excaliber, James Bond:Goldfinger, Spartan, Emiper of The Sun, Black Hawk Down, Krull, Wierd Science, Young Frankenstien, Mallrats, Jaws, Lock stock and smoking barrels, Fight Club, Die Hard, The Crow, Elf, Kill Bill 1&2, Batman:Begins, Miracle, Phantoms, Serenity, Willow,

Television:

Futurama, Firefly, The Greatest American Hero, Magnum P.I., The Simpsons, Alias, Family Guy, Cowboy Bebop, Law and Order, Transformers, GI Joe, Above and Beyond, Brimstone, Buffy The Vampire Slayer, CSI, The OC, The Practice, Robot Chicken, Heroes, Battlestar:Galatica, Colbert Report

Books:

Authors: Stephen King, Henry Rollins, Robert HamburgerSomething that I can learn from.

Heroes:

Jaime because of his commitment to his family and friends. Richard for always putting his family first. Anyone that can show love and compassion for others. Someone that can give love and caring to those that might hate them. most of my friends are my heroes!I would love to be someones hero some day and I only hope to be a better person by doing all I can for others.

My Blog

Soltes

It's been about 4 years now since we lost him and the Col and I know I will never forget. I Wear my bracelet every day to remember him and to honor his life that was taken away from him and his family...
Posted by James on Fri, 17 Oct 2008 05:32:00 PST

Chapters of Luke

I couldn't attend services Sunday so I just read from the Bible when I could. It was hard because I was tired and people kept coming to me for things. It was good reading, I usually just try to pick a...
Posted by James on Mon, 13 Oct 2008 05:42:00 PST

I know why you feel sick

You feel sick, you feel bad when you think of me because you know deep down that I was good for you. Look at those you have been with before and I guess now since me and think how I always did things ...
Posted by James on Fri, 10 Oct 2008 06:19:00 PST

Pain in my heart...

I miss you so much! I think of you every night. You're special, I hope you know that. You two are in my heart always. If I had to cut my hand off or have all my bones broken instead of feeling the pai...
Posted by James on Thu, 02 Oct 2008 07:30:00 PST

I will never leave a fallen comrade...

I have lost someone close to me this month. I lost family. I know we all must leave this place at some point but it never seems right. There is always pain. I promise that I will always be there ...
Posted by James on Tue, 23 Sep 2008 07:31:00 PST

Training in NC thus far...

Well we really haven't done much yet. We have recieved a whole mess of stuff that I have no idea how I am going to carry every where, and we haven't recieved all of it yet! For the most part we have j...
Posted by James on Sun, 10 Aug 2008 04:08:00 PST

Hey everyone I am in NC

Hey I am ok. I have been busy training all this time but I have the weekend off on pass. I will give more updates when I can. I miss all of you!
Posted by James on Sat, 09 Aug 2008 11:36:00 PST

Uncle, and my good byes

Well I had to say good bye to my uncle tonight. When I went there he was asleep, knocked out cold. He had some more tubes stuck into him than before and he was getting his blood pumped out and cleaned...
Posted by James on Sat, 02 Aug 2008 11:02:00 PST

What’s your theme song..

I thought I would mix things up a little Your Theme Song is Back in Black by AC/DChttp://www.blogthingsimages.com/whatsyourthemesongquiz/ back-in-black.jpg" height="100" width="100">"Back in black, I h...
Posted by James on Thu, 31 Jul 2008 09:09:00 PST

Mean while...At the S-Mart

Well yesterday was a long day. I didn't get much done deployment wise but I did do a lot. I think I could have done more but I don't know. There's more I should have done a long time ago as well. Well...
Posted by James on Thu, 31 Jul 2008 08:32:00 PST