pale green soap dish

: hi. i'm alison. :
: aimless love by billy collins :
This morning as I walked along the lakeshore,
I fell in love with a wren
and later in the day with a mouse
the cat had dropped under the dining room table.
In the shadows of an autumn evening,
I fell for a seamstress
still at her machine in the tailor’s window,
and later for a bowl of broth,
steam rising like smoke from a naval battle.
This is the best kind of love, I thought,
without recompense, without gifts,
or unkind words, without suspicion,
or silence on the telephone.
The love of the chestnut,
the jazz cap and one hand on the wheel.
No lust, no slam of the door –
the love of the miniature orange tree,
the clean white shirt, the hot evening shower,
the highway that cuts across Florida.
No waiting, no huffiness, or rancor –
just a twinge every now and then
for the wren who had built her nest
on a low branch overhanging the water
and for the dead mouse,
still dressed in its light brown suit.
But my heart is always propped up
in a field on its tripod,
ready for the next arrow.
After I carried the mouse by the tail
to a pile of leaves in the woods,
I found myself standing at the bathroom sink
gazing down affectionately at the soap,
so patient and soluble,
so at home in its pale green soap dish.
I could feel myself falling again
as I felt its turning in my wet hands
and caught the scent of lavender and stone.
: random factoids :

: i took/passed/kicked the GED's ass in october of 2005
: i'm a writer
: i went to miller south school for the visual and performing arts, my intest area being drama
: i'm very close with my mom (deb), brother (jordan) and cousin (jeremy)
: i saw the lord of the rings trilogy 24 times in the theatres
: i could live in cold weather for the rest of my life
: i've experienced every form of education: private, public and home schooling
: i live within walking distance of a 2nd run movie theatre, a convenience store, a park, a library, and a used booksstore
: i hate having to wear shoes
: i have never regretted dropping out of high school halfway through my freshman year for an iota of a moment
: i'm particular
: i despise with a fierce disappointment nearly every moment of the film version of 'harry potter and the goblet of fire', except for the graveyard scene
: i collect coffee mugs
: i believe in the supernatural, thomas merton, and gravity
: i've always gotten along better with boys than with girls
: i have a freakish memory for the dates of every concert i've ever been to
: i own nine copies of little women, as of january 2007
: i make the best mixed CDs and apple pie in the world
: i could live on swedish fish
: i have a horrible habit of knocking things over
: i swear like a truck driver, but am able to filter myself when needed
: i used to say the offspring was my favorite band and mean it when i was seven years old
: i like being by myself but hate being home alone
: i spontaneously went to sewickly and moon and coraopolis pennsylvania to semi-stalk wentworth miller
: i hate to travel by airplane
: i love calendars
: i was breed on soap operas and dave matthews band, mr rogers and georgia o'keeffe, the moomintroll books and comfort food and movies with ratings higher than my age
: i have specific laughs that come out during specific tv shows
: i've spoken with jerry spinelli
: i own an obnoxious amount of tshirts and bags
: i plan on going to a small liberal arts college with a major in creative writing and minor in women's studies
: i'm involved with epitome magazine
: i could never live in a house without a porch
: i've met sean astin
: i mentally compare all my relationships with cory and topanga's and all my mentors to mr. feeney
: i named my laptop norbert because i name everything
: i write more prolifically at pam's old apartment in louisville than any place else in the world and don't know why
: i think lincoln, FDR, carter, and clinton are my favorite presidents
: i get depressed and elated over the happenings on my TV shows just as much as things in my real life
: i love confetti and red rose tea figurines
: i look up to madeleine l'engle and brendon small immensely
: i get disgusted by young people's lack on involvement in politics. stand up and speak out
: i love pins and stickers
: i hate when people are commended for acting decent. everyone should always act decent
: i am the chicken secretary and am really enjoying it
: i have been involved with theatre since age six
: i adore talking to pam on the phone while we're both doing other things
: i'd like to learn to play the mandolin someday
: i save and store everything
: i sometimes think roger miller is the soundtrack to my life
: i'm also interested in political science and library science, though i really hate science in general
: i love small post-it notes
: i cry everytime i hear 'in this life i was loved by you'
: i love religious iconography, but have no religion
: i have very thick hair
: i associate albums with seasons. examples: mraz's waiting for my rocket is summer, nickel creek's this side is fall, thicke's beautiful world is winter, and john butler trio's sunrise over sea is spring
: i dawdle like no other
: i really hate coffee places that feel like a living room. just come over to my house and have some coffee or tea for free
: i have my own writing office
: i will always be grateful for my friends who have supported me and my choices and antics
: i admire james lipton to no end
: i volunteer at a salvation army soup kitchen every week
: i crave swinging on a swingset when i'm upset or listless or really don't want the day to end
: i have a list of life goals that includes going to college, owning good luggage, and dating a hockey player
: i have no tolerance for bigotry, sexism, bullying, and lazy grammer/spelling mistakes
: i keep a graditude journal
: i love love love history and think everyone should have to learn more about the true founding of north america, the patterns of war, and the people who have changed our world, and less about polynomials and biochem
: i think my favorite word may be almanac
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