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Boo! I scared you

Call it Demented, but it's only from a Different Point of View

About Me

Unique individual inspired by suffering...Because, Because Passing time in the bliss of numbness, Deadened by swollen thoughts of the preexistence Inspired by the pains of instance. Rush me, douse me… How it is to feel the blackened crisps peeled away by other’s feat. Scalded, blistered and visually weak. Exploited, damaged and externally tormented, Stillness ablaze I breathe the demented. Immovable essence flickers brighter. Existence craves desire, For the afflictions of these liars. The knowing of glowing embers that bite at human warmth, Stitches inconclusive thoughts into s disordered web of complexity. Absent from society, I am left with no propriety. Mystified by the perplexity of my own lonely difficulty. Blazing eccentricity, I am the immaculate intensity of life’s inaccuracy. Bewildered! Suffocated identity, wanting realities without fantasies. Mind is a mass of confusion with a beloved need of sovereignty, Over this fallacy. Time cascades along, still I am… Because, because… Words will fall and tears will say, Heart will ache and body will beat, To carry on into this confusion is the only way Life: completely incomplete with the completed thought of the known, That, continuing on into the smoldering glow of burning awareness, I, with frozen fingertips and icy eyes, am alone. 10-27-04 ..View full size
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My Interests

Manic Obsessions and Depressive Motions.Currently working on side business of selling unique jewelry, scarves and gifts.Also, writing an Autobiography"Splitting at the Seams: A memoir of mental illness, Anorexia and Self Mutilation"and a book of poems"Beauty in the Breakdown; Poetry inspired by Suffering"I have the scars to prove it..

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I'd like to meet:

my true self.Artsy Fartsy, Inc. Unique designs inspired by suffering.i want to walk on the path of serenity, a life of buddhahood, of balance, of inner strength and stillness.

Music:

silence

Movies:

how about reality? listen to someone else's story- now that's entertainment.

Television:

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Books:

all of them.

Heroes:

buddhadalai lamaand all those who suffer every day with life's tribulations

My Blog

ima a fuck up

im a fuck up. thats all i know. im a piece of shit. i hate myself. i wish i was dead. my life sucks
Posted by Boo! I scared you on Sat, 09 Jun 2007 06:35:00 PST

I want to go home

close the door, grab a beer, click on the keyboard take a long sip as I write to my content in my own apartment with my own things, my own space even with my own oven mitt, with my art on the wall, wi...
Posted by Boo! I scared you on Fri, 08 Jun 2007 12:07:00 PST

defining sadness

sadness.   days are quiet, friends are few, words are none.   shhhhh. sober and no parties. nothing in between. just silent.
Posted by Boo! I scared you on Tue, 22 May 2007 03:37:00 PST

Awake

These days pass filled with insomniac nights and inconclusive days. The months of February, March, and April always are filled with this cycle of depression. So, is this what Bi-polar really is? Mani...
Posted by Boo! I scared you on Wed, 04 Apr 2007 10:39:00 PST

Let me Survive

~ ~ ~ Cry Painful Tears If Caring Is A crime, Let me Confess If Regret is a Star, Let is blaze. If you are a Dream, Let it be true. If Passion is a Nightmare, Let me never Waken. If Aching is Heart,...
Posted by Boo! I scared you on Wed, 04 Apr 2007 10:37:00 PST

leave it be

"This is the moment of embarking. All auspicious signs are in place." -tao saying In the moments before the begining we must find our clarity. Find ourselves, our boundries and embrace our love for hu...
Posted by Boo! I scared you on Sat, 28 Oct 2006 12:14:00 PST

dont understand...

people.   dats it.   i just dont.   arrrgggghhhh.
Posted by Boo! I scared you on Fri, 27 Oct 2006 07:20:00 PST

myspace sux

ok i think I'm done wit this.   im finished. my dog is blue...he tried to chew on a pen, it got on my scrubs and carpet.   everything is blue. my dog is blue and its funny! oh well. i d...
Posted by Boo! I scared you on Tue, 24 Oct 2006 08:41:00 PST

Smiling because...

they labeled me insane, and I think I'm more normal than most. Once you see Insanity, self-preservation is the only defense, because the physical blows from someone who once loved me were of rage - of...
Posted by Boo! I scared you on Fri, 20 Oct 2006 06:57:00 PST

the skies are open

to think I laid next to you. the light is flickering on. i feel the light on my face. it is true. My body next to you was not. Dreaming I was not feeling, and always was i dreaming. Sitting on the cl...
Posted by Boo! I scared you on Mon, 16 Oct 2006 06:30:00 PST