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Bigg E

That's all we expect of man, this side the grave: his good is....knowing he is bad.

About Me

Going through an emotional epiphany if you will. Finally looking up to see the sunlight. Realizing that success isn't a result of good intentions but rather the actions performed with good intentions as a basis. Letting the breath of insecurities finally escape in what used to be a central mainstay in my personality. Looking at my son, and instead of being afraid of never measuring up to what he deserves, lowering my head and working that much harder just to give it to him. Knowing that new friends are welcome but the two best friends of my life have seen me lie, have seen me struggle, and have seen me in despair yet have ALWAYS been the ones to forgive and support and give me strength when I believed there was nothing left. Relationships in my life have suffered mostly due to the fact that I was a boy playing in a grown man's world. Playing the game pretending to be a man, but never really understanding what that meant. Now, the understanding is abundantly clear. Become the man I always talk about being but am never really sure I can be. Look at my problems and failures head-on instead of shoving them under a mattress of lies and smokescreens of accomplishments. Realize that maybe i'll never measure up to ones expectations but as long as there is motivation from pain in my heart......I won't fail.

My Interests

Playing ball. Like to stay active. Working out. Read quite a bit. Been known to hang out a time or two. Love mixed martial arts.

I'd like to meet:

Pimps, Ho's, Playas, Johns, Tricks, Marks, Mark-Ass Tricks, Trick-Ass Marks, Skeezers, Skanks, Skig-Scags, and Scallywhops!:)
TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: Edrick
Birthday: May 3rd
Birthplace: Lansing, Mi
Current Location: Same
Eye Color: Green
Hair Color: Brown, when not shaved.
Height: Shorter than some.
Right Handed or Left Handed: Southpaw
Your Heritage: Thoroughbred.
The Shoes You Wore Today: White ones..
Your Weakness: Kryptonite.
Your Fears: Leaving no legacy.
Your Perfect Pizza: A hot one.
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: To refuse to be broken.
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: Don't use it.
Thoughts First Waking Up: Fuck..I'm tired.
Your Best Physical Feature: Been told my eyes.
Your Bedtime: Depends
Your Most Missed Memory: I have a few of them.
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
MacDonalds or Burger King: B.K.
Single or Group Dates: Depends.
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Don't like tea.
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate.
Cappuccino or Coffee: Neither.
Do you Smoke: If i'm lit.
Do you Swear: Too often.
Do you Sing: To myself, and my son.
Do you Shower Daily: It's a must.
Have you Been in Love: Absolutely
Do you want to go to College: I need to go back.
Do you want to get Married: Definitely
Do you belive in yourself: If I don't, who will?
Do you get Motion Sickness: No.
Do you think you are Attractive: I don't know.
Are you a Health Freak: Sometimes.
Do you get along with your Parents: I try to.
Do you like Thunderstorms: Yeah.
Do you play an Instrument: I wish I could
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: Yes.
In the past month have you Smoked: A cigar on T-day.
In the past month have you been on Drugs: Hell no.
In the past month have you gone on a Date: Yes, my son is my date everyday.
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: Yes.
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: No
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: No.
In the past month have you been on Stage: No.
In the past month have you been Dumped: No.
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: No.
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: No.
Ever been Drunk: Too many times.
Ever been called a Tease: Don't think so.
Ever been Beaten up: No.
Ever Shoplifted: I stole a Hot Wheels when I was eight.
How do you want to Die: Doing something selfless.
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: A good person.
What country would you most like to Visit: Many places interest me.
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: Doesn't matter
Favourite Hair Color: Doesn't matter
Short or Long Hair: Long
Height: Shorter than me.
Weight: Depends.
Best Clothing Style: Don't matter.
Number of Drugs I have taken: 2
Number of CDs I own: I burn them all the time.
Number of Piercings: Four.
Number of Tattoos: What are tattoos?
Number of things in my Past I Regret: A couple. One above all though.

CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

Music:

All Kinds.Mostly R & B and Hip-Hop. It depends on my mood. Lately been listening to old shit....puts me in the right state of mind.

Movies:

Like many different kinds of movies. "B" rated horror movies are funny as hell. Two of my best friends I've ever had in my life are also my movie buddies. They're the two people in my life that I know that actually are as interested as me in just picking apart and finding something humorous about every movie... width="425" height="350" ....

Television:

If the t.v. is on, it's usually on some kind of sports program. Baseball mostly. Or UFC and Pride Fighting. It's time for the Lions and Spartans!!! They might suck....but they're my teams.

Books:

Anything Stephen King. Also read Tom Clancy. Art Of War. The Annexation of American Government. The War To End Wars 1914-18. Try reading the Bible, but it gives me a headache. Anything inspirational. Zig Zigler. Etc.

Heroes:

Hero is such a big title but there are a couple people who are worthy of this. My son has to be the biggest influence I have and everything I need to do is for his well being. My boy Rude, the good angel on my shoulder. And my Father. He's a little rough around the edges, but he'd do anything for his family which is why he is the person I will always respect most even if I don't show it at times. I couldn't ask for a better parent.R.I.P. Laura Tackett, Essie B. Richardson, Ambrosio Ramos and Mary Shotwell. You'll always be missed and forever be loved.

My Blog

I Know You Remember

I was wondering if you remember. Wondering if you remember what it was like to have me by your side. Wondering if you remember the look you gave me from across the room. You remember the look I g...
Posted by Bigg E on Thu, 17 May 2007 04:17:00 PST

R . I. P. VINCE M.

This week I lost a friend of mine by the name of Vince Murray. He died on Monday due to complications from Diabetes which he was unaware he even had. I'm upset with his passing because he truly was on...
Posted by Bigg E on Sat, 11 Nov 2006 11:29:00 PST

Absolution

God,       I know I haven't spoken to you out loud in a while, but as you know I do every day in my head. I pray that you could give me the strength to be what I need to be.....
Posted by Bigg E on Thu, 21 Sep 2006 12:16:00 PST

Our Deepest Fear

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that mosts frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be br...
Posted by Bigg E on Thu, 21 Sep 2006 10:49:00 PST