Broken Monkey Pretzels - ProfilesArchive

About Me

What would God say? Probably just shake in rage or in laughter.
Well let start of with life is to short to be boring, do as much as you can while you can without hurting others on the way. Second I guess I should just plain say that I know everyone has a bit of bs in their game and I am no different so I know it not always as advertised and you rarely get what you see. I love life, but I can be a bit grumpy. I have a strange sense of humor and have often been called RANDOM MAN by my friends. I can be Sincere, understanding but it far from a constant state of being. I am able to be wild and wacky as well as cool and subtle. I love bizarre conversation and theology, philosophy and such. I am guided by personality so there you go. I have a diverse group of friends.
THIS LIFE
All this noise spinning inside my head.
All this self delusion of understanding.
Hanging on to perceived reality
waiting for shattered dreams
Hell is for me
it wasn't built for you
Hell is for me
it wasn't built for two.
Desperate forays into the unconscious mind
coming back with idiomatic slime
sludge and filth worn like a trophy of wars fought
hand trembling for what was lost.
vivid misconceptions of my own life
Heaven isn't for me
it was created for you
Heaven isn't mine
It was built for everyone but me.
I created my own paradise
Now I am lost without meaning.
Rescue me.
Hold me, love me, don't let me fade away....

My Interests

airsoft, akira, anime, anne rice, ashville, bauhaus, biting, black and white photos, bondage, boobs, books, boots, c.s. lewis, calefaction, candles, child abuse, chocolate, computers, cooking, daggers, demons, dragon, dragons, driving, dune, eyes, faeries, fairies, fantasy, faries, fingers, fire, gargoyles, godhead, goth, goths, grass, guns, h.r. giger, handcuffs, harly quinn, harry potter, hr giger, jelly beans, katanas, knives, kylie, labyrinth, leather, legend, lord of the rhymes, lord of the rings, lore, matrix, music, mythical creatures, mythology, narnia, norse, nudity, o-neg, passion, philosophy, photography, pirates, poetry, poi, psi., punk, reading, ren fair, renaissance faires, samurai jack, sci-fi, science fiction, scifi books, stargate sg 1, storms, swords, tattoo, tattoos, techno, the nightmare before christmas, theology, theosophy, tolkien, towson, trees, vampires, velvet, werewolves, wicca, wolves, world of darkness, writing, punks, The past, hands, and more to come

I'd like to meet:

anyone and everyone I have no prejudices

Music:

I really like all music but my favorites are OldSchool punk, Folk, metal, Celtic. DRI, Subhumans, Fugazi, SOD, MDC, Agnostic front, Skinney Puppy, Bauhaus, Murphy's Law, AFI, 99 fingers Louie, Cindi Lauper, Dead Milkmen, KMFDM, Nitzer Ebb, Ramstein, Blackmores Night, and oh so much more, hell if there is talent in it I will probably listen to it

Movies:

Permanent Record, Aboslute zero, What Dreams May Come, Stigmata, Say Anything, Breakfast Club, Freaks, SLC Punk, Dead Poet Society, Lost Boys, Dusk Till Dawn, Vampires, Street Trash, Plan 9 from outer space, Legion, Toxic Avenger, LOTR, Braveheart, Magnificent 7 (Japanese Version), WestWorld, Ben Hur, Man Called Horse, Spartagus, The Boy Who Could Fly, Legend, Wizards, Benny and June, Dreamscape.

Television:

Star Gate SG1, Star Gate Atlantis, Battlestar Galatica (New and old), CSI

Books:

Heinlein, Tolkien, Phillip K. Dick, Asimov, Frank Herbert, Terry Brooks, Piers Anthony , C.S Lewis, Kurt Vaugnagit, Mercedes Lackey, Those HP books, basically give me a book and I will probably read it.

Heroes:

I have no heroes in my life only protagonist. I have always had to be my own hero from childhood up, abused, neglected, molested, hated, rejected and cast off. I have always had to take care of myself since I was 6 years old. So my heroes are the children and adults who survive the abuse and manage to live on. I will be someone else hero but I will not have any heroes.

My Blog

Here we are.

Sorry I have been absent. There is just so much to deal with between recovering from surgery and now working from home I have been a bit preoccupied. So I imagine I will give a status update. I ...
Posted by Broken Monkey Pretzels on Wed, 02 Jan 2008 06:03:00 PST

surgery and all that stuff.

Alright, so here is my update on surgery. The surgery only took about 1.5 hours which is awesome because it was quicker than they thought it would be. Most of the pain the back is gone. I am actually ...
Posted by Broken Monkey Pretzels on Tue, 04 Dec 2007 07:31:00 PST

Interesting thoughts

An amazing speech made by Charlie Chaplin for a movie called Dictator. It applies in so many ways to my current thinking.I'm sorry, but I don't want to be an emperor. That's not my business. I don't w...
Posted by Broken Monkey Pretzels on Mon, 05 Nov 2007 04:26:00 PST

Textual arguements

Perhaps no one is reading. Perhaps no one cares. perhaps we have all just become complacent in our lives and feel that what we think and say have been proven not to matter anymore. This is wholl...
Posted by Broken Monkey Pretzels on Wed, 31 Oct 2007 10:58:00 PST

Spreading vocal dissent

Seeking supportive members in the hope of restoring The United States of America into a Free democracy which follow the Original Constitution of the United States of America including the amendments, ...
Posted by Broken Monkey Pretzels on Fri, 26 Oct 2007 10:00:00 PST

Long lost little sister found

An amazing thing my littlist sister got in touch with me this week. I haven't seen her since I was maybe 8 or 9. It is very awesome. I am mixed emotion on this. I think it is great and I realy want to...
Posted by Broken Monkey Pretzels on Tue, 23 Jan 2007 10:22:00 PST

In the darkness

My mind has been full of unusual ideas lately, not ideas that I enjoy or that I normally think, and I am not exactly sure of what the source of them is. I have been having constant ...
Posted by Broken Monkey Pretzels on Sat, 02 Sep 2006 11:17:00 PST

Not so interesting thoughts.

Status on health, not as sucky as 3 months ago but I am still not happy with the way I feel. Lots of pain throughout my body, I can tell the difference between the pain I had in my back and this pain....
Posted by Broken Monkey Pretzels on Sat, 19 Aug 2006 09:39:00 PST

Getting cut up

I am getting my back surgery 2 days earlier then expected on 05/06/2006.( I know this is news for most of you that read my journal) I am getting a Lapendectomy with implimentation. That is the fancier...
Posted by Broken Monkey Pretzels on Thu, 04 May 2006 07:27:00 PST

Surgery

I finally have my surgery scheduled, May 8th. So much to do before that. I have to apply for temp disablility because I am going to be out of work for 3 to 4 months depending on how I heal. I have to ...
Posted by Broken Monkey Pretzels on Wed, 19 Apr 2006 04:12:00 PST