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Joel

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About Me

I am a drifting piece of clay, buoyant enough to float on the air which keeps me in this place. An insomniac scatterbrain, that is just out of phase, but not enough that I cannot see the eyes that do not meet with mine. I can see through, but not through myself, I am my own biggest mystery. I can feel the difference, but I hide and blend in so that I don’t have to answer questions that have no answer. My only ambition is to just be, until I am no more. Drifting has caused its scars, has given its freedom, has made me forget and has let me be forgotten. I search for like souls, I search for like minds, I search for the answers in hopes to lessen the difference. I am in a thousand pieces, spread across my thought; I am not one person, as the world has made me. Everyday I become someone new, further away from who I once was. I am you in a certain light, and you were me at some point, drifting forwards waiting for whatever comes next….

My Interests

Music:

In no specific order Flaming Lips, Daniel Johnston, Jenny Lewis, Billy Corgan, Ben Harper, Pearl Jam, Dawn Landes, Bright Eyes, Broken Social Scene, Radio Head, Snow Patrol, The White Stripes, Nirvana, Arcade Fire, Postal Service, Ben Kweller, The Shins, The Tragically Hip, Jose Gonzalez, Johnny Cash, The Flaming Lips, The Pixies, Black Francis, Yeah Yeah Yeah's, Dallas Green, Blind Boys of Alabama, Soundgarden, PJ Harvery, Rage Against The Machine, Tricky, (old) Live, Smashing Pumpkins, The Polyphonic Spree, The Killers, Red Hot Chilli Peppers, Stars, Bob Dylan, The Rolling Stones, The Guess Who, Tenacious D, Weird Al, Regina Spektor, Tori Amos, Phil Tulk and millions more..

Movies:

.... In no specific order (although Bill Murray is the king) -Life Aquatic, Blood Diamond, Thumbsucker, What About Bob, Let It Ride, Good Bye Lenin, The Squid and the Whale,V for Vendetta, White Oleander, Layer , Matchstick Men, Adaptation, Spun, Blow, Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas, As Good as it Gets, The Royal Tenenbaums, Ghost busters 1-2, LOTR, United States of Leland, Hotel Rwanda, Motorcycle Diaries, House of Flying Daggers, Samurai Champloo, Princess Mononoke, Star Wars All, X-men All, Batman Begins, Wedding Crashers, Lost In Translation, Garden State, Almost Famous, Coffee and Ciggarettes, The Princess Bride, Kill Bill 1 and 2, The Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy, Edward Scissor Hands, Igby goes down, Secret lives of alterboys, Fight Club, The Believer, Old School, Mallrats, Bill and Ted's Bogus Journey, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Army of Darkness, Man on Fire, Sin City, The Salton Sea, Ninja Turtles secret of the ooze, Spirited Away, Fateless, Everything is illuminated, Elizabethtown, Vanilla Sky, American History X, The Constant Gardener, Capote, Levity, Passion of the Christ, Ben Hur, Rudolph The Red Nose Raindeer(the one with Yukon Cornelious) The usual Suspects, Romeo and Juliet, About A Boy, Love Actually, Shaun Of The Dead, Shoalin Soccer, Kung Fu Hustle, Oldboy, Stay, A Time To Kill, The Shawshank Redemption, Donnie Darko, The Virgin Suicides. I love movies and there are so many more.

Television:

Conan O brian, Lost, Rome(HBO), Simpsons, SNL, Sleeper Cell (HBO), CNN, TSN, The Sopranos, Much Music, I don't watch much TV, but that is what I do watch, when I watch.

Books:

LOTR Trilogy, Silmarilion, Hobit, To Kill a MockingBird, The Fatalist, Shakespeare-R and J and Mbeth the most, Shane, Old Man and The Sea, Chronicles of Narnia series, The BFG, Lord of The Flies, Harry Potter series, any religious text(weird but true). The Bible! I like writing more than I like reading, but I still love reading.

My Blog

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Summer/Winter baby of a different sort, I love you. In everything I do, everything I've seen, in straight and crooked lines, In the shade and direct blinding light, I love you. And I tried to put you ...
Posted by Joel on Fri, 16 Mar 2007 10:08:00 PST

sol

Another restless night, ignoring my surroundings, trying to blend in with the silence which surrounds me. I wish again to disappear completely, not to be seen by your eyes, you who have seen me before...
Posted by Joel on Mon, 05 Mar 2007 01:46:00 PST

Wishes

I wish I could hold on to the glimpse, when I can see the sense in the reflections off of the Exit sign, the way a small door can open into a big room.  I wish I could stay in wonder over the sou...
Posted by Joel on Mon, 26 Feb 2007 12:14:00 PST

Bright Night, Dark Day

The erasing of me, the coming apart of all that I have made myself into, and all I have been made into.  The bare head in winters chill, rubbing on the door, the friction to cause warmth, more th...
Posted by Joel on Sun, 25 Feb 2007 12:04:00 PST

Dottie Mirror

The love that eludes, the shade that grasps the outline making an indistinguishable illusion of someone who is not whole, are in front of me. The piercing light which chases these days away, the openi...
Posted by Joel on Wed, 21 Feb 2007 11:54:00 PST