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.☆. ZtaN .☆.

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About Me


My Drug

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I try to get on here when I can - I live on my own now and dont have a comp at the moment!,
I dont always get time to reply to things right away but always try to when I can.
Sorry if I take a while to accept friend requests.. I actually like to look at the profiles of people who are adding me not just accepting for the sake of having more "friends".

Do not judge me by how I used to be,
If you used to know me you wont anymore.. I have been through a hell of alot in the past few years and have changed completely, if you dont like it simply eXit my page.
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..2 sides to every story..

........this needs updating again.........

Im sorta like two people in one.
The good side I relate to as Ztan, and the bad Natz.
I have a side of me that can be serious n mature. I find I can relate to alot of people because I have been through many experiences in life already.
I can also be a big kid and seriously immature. Most people tend to like this side of me alot better, I will get along with anyone when im in one of these moods. You will think im insane if you ever witness a "funny five minutes". infact I think I am... I wont stop laughing at stupid things.
It doesnt take much for me to switch. One min I could be happy and the next really down.
I will always have death on my mind whether in a good or bad mood.
When I am down im really down and highly suicidal...
I understand if this is where you exit my page. This is the very reason I find it hard to trust people as I lose anybody I trust or care about.


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These results sum me up in one.
Stability results were very low which suggests you are extremely worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.
Orderliness results were medium which suggests you are moderately organized, hard working, and reliable while still remaining flexible, efficient, and fun.
Extraversion results were low which suggests you are very reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and secretive.
trait snapshot:
introverted, irritable, feels invisible, observer, depressed, does not enjoy leadership, reveals little about self, dislikes large parties, feels undesirable, does not like to stand out, submissive, suspicious, emotionally sensitive, not a thrill seeker, solitude loving, likes silence, fragile, second guesses self, negative, unadventurous, fearful, weird, focuses on people's hidden motives, paranoid, phobic, dependent, cautious, avoidant, semi intellectual

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If you have anything to do with Nailsea, join the group by clicking the link below.

http://groups.myspace.com/peopleofnailsea

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My Interests


* Clubbing at Flamingos.
* Stars.
* Music.
* Singing.
* Drinking.
* Relentless.
* Poker.
* Computer Games.
* Internet.
* Friends.
* My Bird.
* Drawing.
* Writing songs/poems.
* Glow Sticks.
* Gothic Clothes.
* Black Stuff.
* Magick.
* Witchcraft.
* Death.
* Suicide.
* Photography.
* SingStar.
* Robbie Williams.
* Amy Lee.
* Linkin Park.
* Mike Shinoda.

Music:


* Dance,
* Happy Hardcore,
* Trance,
* Pop,
* Rock,
* Some R n B,
* Some Oldies.
* Linkin Park
* Robbie Williams

Movies:


* Home Alone 1&2
* Pulp Fiction
* When A Man Loves A Woman
* War Of The Worlds
* Signs
* The Craft
* Hide And Seek
* Halloween(s)
* Blair Witch
* Pirates Of The Caribbean(s)
* Harry Potter(s)
* The Ring(s)
* Gothika
* Show Girls
* Goodnight Mr Tom
* The Beach
* Piglets BIG Movie
* School Of Rock
* Air Heads
* Green Mile
* Of Mice And Men
* Castaway
* 28 Days
* My Girl 1&2
* Bruice Almighty
* Girl Interupted
* Thirteen
* The Crow - [Brandon Lee]
* Hocus Pocus
* Big
* Jack

Television:


* Lost
* Bad Girls
* Desparate Housewives
* Hollyoaks
* Eastenders
* Neighbours
* Doctors
* Shipwrecked
* Afterlife
* Big Brother


Books:


Heroes:



My Blog

confessions prt 1

Im so down. I cant take it. If you have my xanga then go read there. thanks x
Posted by .. ZtaN .. on Thu, 17 Apr 2008 12:22:00 PST

life

Lifes really really REALLY bad right now.. I have so much to write.. I just cant get anything out right now.
Posted by .. ZtaN .. on Sun, 13 Apr 2008 11:32:00 PST

xtfrrki gyk

Last night I took an overdose. Today I found Robs bench.  
Posted by .. ZtaN .. on Wed, 06 Feb 2008 06:33:00 PST

Life after Death

Lifes shit. The funeral was awful.. it was a great service.. beautiful, but so upsettin.. and ive been upset ever since. We had to throw a rose in the hole n everythin.. I didnt think of any of that.....
Posted by .. ZtaN .. on Wed, 16 Jan 2008 08:49:00 PST

R.I.P nan.. prt2

So it didnt hit me at all till Friday when mum told me when the funeral is. Which is gonna be Friday at 1. I cannot cope with funerals, im gonna break down in front of my family n make everyone else f...
Posted by .. ZtaN .. on Sun, 06 Jan 2008 09:49:00 PST

R.I.P nan..

Nan died yesterday.
Posted by .. ZtaN .. on Mon, 31 Dec 2007 10:45:00 PST

change of address

For anyone who knows where I live or my address.. I will be moving as of Monday/Tuesday from ROOM 4 TO FLAT 3which is on the ground floor and NOT in the main buildin.ta =)...
Posted by .. ZtaN .. on Sun, 04 Nov 2007 06:07:00 PST

first pics

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Posted by .. ZtaN .. on Tue, 30 Oct 2007 01:09:00 PST

bleh

Lifes shit. I dont wanna be here.
Posted by .. ZtaN .. on Sun, 21 Oct 2007 06:47:00 PST

R.I.P

Robs anniversary on Fri... I feel shit enough as it is. *sigh*
Posted by .. ZtaN .. on Wed, 03 Oct 2007 03:50:00 PST