David

I edited my profile with Thomas' Myspace Editor V4.4 Life is pretty good, I mean in the grand scheme of things I’m really lucky, good job, a few true friends, and no major problems. I have a great family, that I probably take for granted way too often, but when the shit hits the fan they are always there. I can honestly say I am most definitely my own biggest problem. You see, I think too much. I try to just go with the flow, but my brain is constantly moving creating issues out of nothing. I look at the world and my heart breaks, I should be doing more to help, instead of worrying about what I should buy next. I feel like a hypocrite, I don’t want to be one of the me firsts, but you always seem to just get caught up. I work so much, that most of the time everything I have even a slight interest in doing falls to the wayside. I worry, about money, the future, am I going to fail. That last one is the big one, I get so afraid of not being good enough, not getting the approval of those I respect, I put myself into overdrive. When this happens, very few things seem to help me unwind; painting, surfing, and reading. I am a dreamer, an idealist by nature, and in these endeavors I can allow myself to see the world as I feel it should be. Reading allows for escape, while painting allows me to recreate the visions in my head. Now surfing, something I just don’t get to do enough of, well it sets me free, the solitude, the vastness of nature, I’ve never been the guy to shred, my favorite times out in the blue has always tended to be the calm just before. Sitting my board waiting for a gift, lost in time, the oceans song calming me, the current stirring my blood, and knowing that soon I will see that white crest churning and writhing towards me. I’ve always felt, excuse the corniness, that in surfing I come as close to being in a state of zen as my nature will allow. I am far from a great surfer, and still it calls to me. It’s never been about being the best for me, but rather just being. I think that’s what I love most the ocean never expects anything of me aside from the attempt, success, failure all is moot. When you are out there all alone, its not about standing out, but instead blending with it, to succeed you must become part of the vastness, the power of the sea, you can’t beat that wave into submission you have to sit back and let it take you home. God, I need to get to the beach! Actually there are quite a lot of things I need to do, just always seems that life gets in the way. I guess that is something I have to work on… Home | Browse | Search | Invite | Film | Mail | Blog | Favorites | Forum | Groups | Events | Videos | Music | Comedy | Classifieds "Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We were all meant to shine, as children do. It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."