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[N...]

And then, something happened... I let go... Lost in oblivion... Dark and silent and complete... I fo

About Me

Mad; adj. Affected with a high degree of intellectual independence; not conforming to standards of thought, speech, and action derived by the conformants from study of themselves; at odds with the majority; in short, unusual. It is noteworthy that persons are pronounced mad by officials destitute of evidence that they themselves are sane... MyGen Profile Generator.. I'm a flawed hero seeking redemption for my evil past... I'm a quixotic demi-god in search of beings that only exist in my short-lived dreams... I'm a drooling beast who has forsaken my Belle in order to not be eaten alive by my breathing hate... I'm a mobile pretty corpse that bathes his innards with toxins to maintain a mind that seems to be lacking simplicity...[THE VIEW FINDER INTO HEAD LIES BELOW MINUS HEIROGLYPHICS AND LEAD FRAGMENTATION DEVICES].. width="425" height="350" .. ...[INGRAINED AUTOMATISM]..... width="425" height="350" .. ...[MENTAL TRACE]..... .. ...[ABSCONDING DELIVERANCE].....

My Interests

Only a beast can truly appreciate what something is to be defined as beautiful.......Dog carcass in alley this morning, tire thread on burst stomach. This city is afraid of me. I have seen its true face. The streets are extended gutters and the gutters are full of blood and when the drains finally scab over, all the vermin will drown.The accumulated filth of all their sex and murder will foam up about their waists and all the whores and politicians will look up and shout "Save us!"...... and I'll look down, and whisper "No."

I'd like to meet:

....gunowners and lonely rich people... I have my few friends... thats all i need... i have my music and them to keep me sane while i have my toxin consumption and sweat-coated arsenal to keep me warm in my empty bed with each desperate night... width="425" height="350" ..

Music:

...die defilier kill the monster... if i didnt make music i dont know what i'd do with myself... i killed a man... a man that looked like me... I'm currently working on few projects... my main website is currently under construction but i set up myspace music accounts also for each project... my personal projects are "GOD AMONGST INSECTS" which is mostly random experimental at this point and "ENDING ELLIPSIS" which is more ambient classical type sound but on the side i have a drum and bass project "MORTALE" which seems to be the most desirable by most... yet my main personal project is ...die defilier and is also the only music i am still currently producing i have put others on shelf for time being......

Movies:

"What if I told you insane was working fifty hours a week in some office for fifty years at the end of which they tell you to piss off; ending up in some retirement village hoping to die before suffering the indignity of trying to make it to the toilet on time? Wouldn’t you consider that to be insane?"Anything violent or heart-growingly clever... too many to list... Movies and music seem to be my drug of choice...

Television:

try not to watch too much of the tele brain deteriation it does cause much... .. "Good weapons are instruments of fear; all creatures hate them. Therefore followers of Tao never use them. The wise man prefers the left. The man of war prefers the right.Weapons are instruments of fear; they are not a wise man's tools. He uses them only when he has no choice. Peace and quiet are dear to his heart, And victory no cause for rejoicing. If you rejoice in victory, then you delight in killing; If you delight in killing, you cannot fulfill yourself." .. "Political power grows out of the barrel of a gun." ..

Books:

.. ... .. .. NO REMORSE, NO REGRETS!

Heroes:

heroes have become extinct in these hard times... thats why we have been gifted with imagination to give us hope once again... .. "When death smiles at man all he can do is smile back.." ..... ....Main Entry: attrition Pronunciation: &-'tri-sh&n, a- Function: noun 1 : sorrow for one's sins that arises from a motive other than that of the love of God... 2 : the act of weakening or exhausting by constant harassment, abuse, or attack... 3 : a reduction in numbers usually as a result of resignation, retirement, or death...

My Blog

Ida...

"I'm getting more pissed with every passing heartbeat. Yet, one can only wonder, isn't every pasing heartbeat another step towards death? Are we not in this world, only so we can die? Is the only reas...
Posted by [N...] on Wed, 03 Jan 2007 09:46:00 PST

"stay positive"

Cos this world swallows soulsAnd when the blues unfoldIt gets cold solids burns holesYou're going madPerhaps you always wereBut when things was good you just didn't careThis is called irony When you m...
Posted by [N...] on Mon, 02 Oct 2006 06:43:00 PST

"fake plastic trees"

Her green plastic watering canFor her fake chinese rubber plantIn fake plastic earth.That she bought from a rubber manIn a town full of rubber plantsJust to get rid of itself.And it wears her out, it ...
Posted by [N...] on Wed, 08 Feb 2006 12:56:00 PST

"Baptism"

the day is mine, the night is also mine.thou hast set all the borders of this earth.but i've never been one to believe in the preconceived limitthat's set for me. i'll spit in the face of the haters a...
Posted by [N...] on Thu, 15 Dec 2005 10:50:00 PST

"fitter happier"

Fitter, happier, more productive, comfortable, not drinking too much, regular exercise at the gym (3 days a week), getting on better with your associate employee contemporaries , at ease, ...
Posted by [N...] on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

...HUMANITY...

You cannot ignore emotion. You cannot supress instinct. You cannot repress evil. The levee fills all too quickly, and the flood waters never stop adding to the reservoir. No dam is free of cracks and ...
Posted by [N...] on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

"moksha with rainbow sprinkles"

Should it not be love that conquers dreams or dreams that destroy love or fanasties that change your once hopeful surroundings... surroundings becoming real too only further disguise your fiction... b...
Posted by [N...] on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

"stay positive"

Cos this world swallows soulsAnd when the blues unfoldIt gets cold solids burns holesYou're going madPerhaps you always wereBut when things was good you just didn't careThis is called irony When you m...
Posted by [N...] on Mon, 02 Oct 2006 06:41:00 PST

"stay positive"

Cos this world swallows soulsAnd when the blues unfoldIt gets cold solids burns holesYou're going madPerhaps you always wereBut when things was good you just didn't careThis is called irony When you m...
Posted by [N...] on Mon, 02 Oct 2006 06:41:00 PST

[nature and demeanor]

NATURE: [PENITENT] I am unworthy. I am sinful. I am base, vile and lacking in virtue. I have no right to exist and am utterly beyond redemption. Either because of my low self-image or because of th...
Posted by [N...] on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST