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Bleach-Blonde Narcissist

One minute you laugh, the next minute you're slowly sinking into something black, I get the feeling

About Me

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I'm strong
But I break
I'm stubborn
And I make plenty of mistakes
Yeah I'm hard
And life with me is never easy
To figure out, to love
I'm jaded but oh so lovely
All you have to do is hold me
And you'll know and you'll see just how sweet it can be
If you'll trust me, love me, let me
Maybe, maybe
Someday
When we're at the same place
When we're on the same road
When it's okay to hold my hand
Without feeling lost
Without all the excuses
When it's just because you love me, you let me, you need me
Then maybe, maybe
All you have to do is hold me
And you'll know and you'll see just how sweet it can be
If you'll trust me, love me, let me
Maybe, maybe
I'm confusing as hell
I'm north and south
And I'll probably never have it all figured out
But what I know is I wasn't meant to walk this world
without you
And I promise I'll try
Yeah I'm gonna try to give you every little part of me
Every single detail you missed with your eyes
Then maybe
Maybe, yeah maybe
One day
We'll meet again and you'll need me, you'll see me
completely
Every little bit
Oh yeah maybe you'll love me, you'll love me then
I don't want to be tough
And I don't want to be proud
I don't need to be fixed and I certainly don't need to be found
I'm not lost
I need to be loved
I just need to be loved
I just want to be loved by you and I won't stop 'cause I believe
That maybe, yeah maybe
Maybe, yeah maybe
I should know better than to touch the fire twice
But I'm thinking maybe, yeah maybe you might
Maybe, love maybe

My Interests

my band, movies, tv on dvd, expensive jeans, tattoos, kelly clarkson, dancing, cell phones, pancakes, writing, reading, candles, disco balls and strobe lights, shoes, prada handbags, body glitter, gummi bears, drag queens, snow angels, working hard for the money, redheaded sluts, 50's music, movie theater popcorn, caramel apples, chocolate, safety pins, edward norton

Music:

weezer, jeff buckley, justin timberlake, kelly clarkson, marilyn manson, guster, james taylor, howie day, the flaming lips, rasputina, tegan and sara, tatu, gay man techno, kelly, fiona apple, janet jackson, toni basil, the pussycat dolls, violent femmes

Movies:

poetic justice, pan's labyrinth, amelie, harry potter and the goblet of fire, lord of the rings, tank girl, gia, underworld, resident evil, step up, blue crush, little women, the princess bride, kiki's delivery service, the fifth element, howl's moving castle, spirited away, mulan, star wars, winnie the pooh

Television:

i no longer have cable.

Books:

catch 22 -jospeh heller, animal farm -george orwell, the divine comedy -dante, harold and the purple crayon -crockett johnson, harry potter -j. k. rowling, the sun also rises and the garden of eden -ernest hemingway, the cather in the rye -j. d. salinger, the giver -lois lowry, the melancholy death of oyster boy & other stories -tim burton

My Blog

dull.

i'm supposed to be writing a story for my fiction class.  i have no inspiration.  when did all of my muses die or fade away, and why didn't i get the memo?  i never get the damn memo....
Posted by Bleach-Blonde Narcissist on Thu, 20 Apr 2006 07:54:00 PST

tv is weird

I was watching greys anatomy and there was this really strange commercialThere was a basketball lying on the pavement of a streetside court and it began to rain. The ball started to grow and eventual...
Posted by Bleach-Blonde Narcissist on Mon, 03 Apr 2006 08:17:00 PST

little pawn.

do you even care that i'm still alive?    i'm sorry for things that i shouldn't feel guilt over. i beat myself up over things that aren't my fault. i feel useless and disposab...
Posted by Bleach-Blonde Narcissist on Mon, 27 Feb 2006 09:36:00 PST

broke...back mountain (sorry for the bad pun)

i saw brokeback mountain today. it's so gay that it has scared the straight general public into liking it for fear of being called homophobic.  i guess it wasn't that bad when i could find a plot...
Posted by Bleach-Blonde Narcissist on Wed, 15 Feb 2006 09:29:00 PST

pb&j?

i cooked dinner for some people tonight.  i tried my shaking hands at being domestic.  i didn't do so bad.  i have to go watch talk sex with sue now.  she's old and funny because s...
Posted by Bleach-Blonde Narcissist on Mon, 13 Feb 2006 08:22:00 PST

ginger ale

i feel like i'm split completely in half.  i might as well be.  i feel like i'm not even healing.  it still hurts and keeps me from getting on with things.  sometimes i wish that i...
Posted by Bleach-Blonde Narcissist on Sun, 12 Feb 2006 07:43:00 PST

oh i'm dumb

apparently i think that it is possible to beat up my appartment building...starting with the wall in my room.  i watched the public access channel for over an hour today because they were airing...
Posted by Bleach-Blonde Narcissist on Sat, 11 Feb 2006 01:33:00 PST

it looks like i'm pathetic guys.

batman bandaids can't help heal all wounds.  but at least they can over them up and help with the denial.    at least when the ground is frozen my sneakers don't get muddy....
Posted by Bleach-Blonde Narcissist on Thu, 09 Feb 2006 06:28:00 PST

again.

i haven't written anything that isn't a blog entry in a long time...but i've been writing lately...and i know that something is wrong because i am writing about you. 
Posted by Bleach-Blonde Narcissist on Fri, 03 Feb 2006 11:01:00 PST

.

i am useless.
Posted by Bleach-Blonde Narcissist on Fri, 03 Feb 2006 10:18:00 PST