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bewilderment

don't apologize. we're all the sad realized residue of our infinite possible selves.

About Me

i'm living a fractal lifestyle, wherein everything resembles everything else, but becomes fiendishly complicated on further reflection. it's always wierder than you expect.

i've gotten over my geekish insecurity, and now i know that i'm a 9 our ot 10 for general perfection.

unfortunately or not, i'm underhip.

My Interests

everything eventually, more or less, but for now i'm prioritizing. i especially like that which is far forward-thinking, like permaculture and science fiction, since it's the future that's in doubt - the present will always be here.

i'm really interested in saving the world. and in childraising.

I'd like to meet:

i'd like to meet all my lost friends on the street some day. i'd like to meet the embodied avatars of natual forces. i'd like to meet aliens. i'd like to meet anyone smarter or more usefull than me. i'd like to meet some dead writers like walker percy or borgés or pkd. i'd like to meet a good teacher/guru, but i'd settle for anyone awesome.

Music:

since i got soulseek, i'm working my way through all of music. after that, i'm doing literature.

Movies:

movies are making us all a little more crazy, a little bit at a time. they're undermining reality, our understanding of the world, the consensual concept of reality, and our ability to distinguish right from wrong.

i like movies.

Television:

modern reality frequently resembles the transreal. it's pretty interesting when its not banal.

Books:

principia discordia, liber null, the transreal - rudy rucker is my current hero. charles stross. greg egan. iain m. banks. etc. etc.

Heroes:

bill mollison. masanobu fukoka. patrick ironwood. rudy rucker. my parents. entropy. uncertainty. issac brock. leo mcgarrity.

My Blog

since you missed me,

hain't posted since februari. thus, hence.becoming a mechanic now, in addition to electrician and plumber. in over your head? grow. messing with fuel lines and filtration. wtf. all these lines of forc...
Posted by bewilderment on Wed, 22 Aug 2007 06:02:00 PST

i never like to state my subject too quickly.

assorted notes from the endless book of interesting things: just like anywhere, else, women shoot bananas out they punani.   slippery fuckers. simple buisness model wherein one party pays to...
Posted by bewilderment on Thu, 11 Jan 2007 05:03:00 PST

call for change, america's last chance

callforchange.orgi know it's a little late, butit's important.
Posted by bewilderment on Tue, 07 Nov 2006 04:53:00 PST

subject, ax

two more days and i move to my tent.to start working, instead of working towards. building, instead of building to. living instead of waiting. all of this, in a tent. a simple fence and a govt recogni...
Posted by bewilderment on Tue, 17 Oct 2006 02:38:00 PST

NO LOVE FOR

i love my typewriter more than i love you.
Posted by bewilderment on Sun, 17 Sep 2006 08:22:00 PST

antianticipation, selfplagaristic

my name is piracy and i'm an awareness addict.i've just realized that with caffiene and nicotine, that's what i'm looking for, an extra bit of focus, intensity, clarity. whereas mostly what i get is d...
Posted by bewilderment on Fri, 21 Jul 2006 11:09:00 PST

in my dreams i...

i dreamt last night that i was a cross between a seraphim and ambergris, a mass of eyes and flesh and wings and beaks, half digested and half angelic, hanging from a string, and slowly, slowly turning...
Posted by bewilderment on Mon, 10 Jul 2006 10:02:00 PST

NO FUCKING SUBJECT, OKAY?!

today it rained for fuckin real; it was GLORIOUS.the words of the day, for bonnaroo were: "headies," and "groundscore." - here's the best part about bonnaroo: stupid fat stoned american kids with disp...
Posted by bewilderment on Sat, 24 Jun 2006 06:46:00 PST

MEIN KAMPF

mein kampf, by david lerner. all i want to do is make poetry famous ali i want to do is burn my initials into the sun all i want do do is read poetry from the middle of a burning buildi...
Posted by bewilderment on Fri, 04 Nov 2005 06:53:00 PST

senior goddamn thesis

pardon the bad web translation and lack of plan drawings... as though anyone were gonna read all 39 pages anyway. section 1: first principles why design a village? global dynamics...
Posted by bewilderment on Thu, 25 Aug 2005 06:43:00 PST