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The Martyr

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this is what i'm all about.
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CYCLICAL DICTUMS
INTERMINABLE SYMPTOMS
EXECRATE ANGELS AND PROSTRATE TO FICTIONAL
DEMONS AND DIETIES
POSTULATE FANTASIES
IMPIOUS
BLASPHOMOUS
SOMEWHAT ANALOGOUS
FALLACIOUS
RELIGIONS
PRACTICES ASCETICS
LEAVING THE CANTORS WITH NOTHING TO SING

oh yeah, pot's really kept me from learning and developing my mind. clearly.

here, have a taste

THE AXIOUS ANTHEM
RELENTLESS AND RANDOM
THE COPIOUS OPIATES LEAD TO DAMNATION
PERDITION PREVAILS, AS RUDIMENT FAILS
PEREGRINATION ON ASCETIC TRAILS
THIS VOCABULARY IN GREATNESS DOES VARY
YOU THINK THAT THE MESSAGE I SEND IS QUITE SCARY
IMPORTANT
INTELLIGENT
LACED WITH INCESSANTNESS
ACTUALLY I HAVE SAID NOTHING AT ALL
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VOICES OF THE DEAD
i'm the backround guitarist and backround vocalist for Voices of the Dead, the best fucking local band ever (if you think otherwise, unhinge your jaw with a stencil please). i'm funny, sweet, artistic, very romantic, modest, uninhibited, scary (to some), cuddly, sentimental, CORE NIGGA, different, unique, pretty much all the sugarcoated words for Freak lol. i'm devoted, definate in my aspirations, and making it there one step (or corpse : ) at a time.

i can be a savior, i can be a saint, i can be a God, and i can be an Evil. i can be the Dark, and i can be the Light, it all depends on what religion you follow.

i hate sluts, so, if you're a slut, fuck off. i don't fuck aroud with relationships, it's retarded. you cheat on me, no forgiveness, other than that i can let just about anything go. but yes, no sluts = no fucking drama. it's easy.

i live in the middle of fucking nowhere, aka Carlisle MA. i fucking hate it here, but love the scenery. i'm unclassified in regards to clicks and such (i'm classified as a drug addict though, but i kicked speed 2 years ago so i guess i'm no longer a drug addict, unless of course you consider weed a drug). i mix and mingle with everyone, and my style is different every day. i'm known as "the freak" "the faggot" "that chill kid" and "Eric" in my other town, Concord MA. i love my family, my second family (friends), my techno, my metal, my Manson for sure. i LOVE my dog Tiny, you hurt her i fucking kill you and have fun at it too. i also love my knives, my art (if you wanna see it lemme know and i'll show you some, i like the style, some may not though), and rollin a fat blunt with friends YO (someone shoot me, i'm gangSTAR).

i've always been a bit more dark than light. but i really see nothing dark about the things i am interested in. true, some of the things i'm interested in are viewed as evil and weird, defiantely dark. but i don't consider it any of those things, i just find the "darker" side of things to be interesting. and i've ALWAYS been a Mansonite, ever since 6th grade. i was the first goth in my grade lol. good times. but hey, just cause i'm goth doesn't mean i'm a kinky mofo ok (snickers)? i just wanna fuck, nothing fancy, unless it's like pinky-out all over fancy. tried BDSM once, ended with me saying "yeah, um, babe? i can't feel my hands" lol. true story too lol.

i sing and scream, but like to scream to Manson alot better.

no, i'm not an evil person (least not in my eyes, disturbed, yes i suppose, but i have fun with it). no, i don't hate life, quite the contrary infact. no, i'm not a satanist (snickers). no, i don't sacrifice animals to my infernal gods. no, i don't want a sex change, i like my penis very much thank you. no, i am not a bad kid. no, i'm not cynical or mean, you'll find me to be quite nice i think. no, i don't do the things i do for attention, i'm most comfortable dressing the way i am and i do the "wacky" things i do for my own amusement. i'm just sick of all the steryotypes associated with my genre of peron. and NO, i will not meet up with you if i don't feel comfortable enough or if you're over 21 (with exception). just cause we live close to each other doesn't mean anyhting's gonna happen k? so don't send me a message saying something like "hey, you are very attractive. i live in the area, we should meet up sometime." no, no we shouldn't, you're fucking 40. ok, on with it then...

i love to love and try to get along with everyone. the only time a friendship won't work is if they don't like me, except in the rare occasion that i just straight up don't like them. lol, it's really not that rare that i don't like someone, but whatever.

i got an open mind and am very uninhibited, so there you go.

they say it's wrong to use the word "nigga" and i get glared at and critisized for doing so. well, that's just silly. call me a cracker, whitey, honkey, you name it and it's totally ok. but when it comes to "spik", "chink", "gook", and "nigger", among others, it's wrong. and not if another race says it, only if "whitey" says it. racial slang is totally normal and a ok in my book. it's not putting anyone down, and if it is? then that individual/s needs to grow up, it's only words after all. i mean, i could talk about how "my people" were enslaved by the egyptians in ancient times, then later put in concentration camps and brutally murdered. not to mention all the negativity Jews get for being Jewish. but i won't complain about that shit, cause it never personally effectd me. just like i was never enslaved, neither were you, so just stop and let it go. true, if we forget the past then we are condemmed to repeat it, but don't dwell in it. getting offended by simple words only furthers racial inequality. so fucking grow up niggs.
i'm an amatuer ghost hunter, and don't give me shit for it. i know it sounds "crazy" but if you've seen and experienced what i have, you'd think different, most definately. IT IS A LEGITAMATE FIELD OF SCIENCE and is the funnest, most exciting thing i've ever done, and I'VE DONE ACID MANY TIMES, so i know what fun and exciting is lol.

yeah, i smoke pot, fucking deal. it's rediculous that it's illegal, absolutely rediculous. i've read every "side effect" that comes with the "drug" (it's a fucking natural plant. fuck it, ice cream's a drug technically, it contains chemicals, and we ingest those chemicals, and they have an effect on our bodies, some positive and some negative. is that not what drugs do? true it's not the same intensity but it is pretty much equal, i think anyways) and it's all bullshit, every single bit. yeah, in alot of cases your motivation is effected (i know mine is), but that's also known as adolescense and depression, something everyone suffers from at one time in their life. you either learn to deal with it, kill yourself, or go on medication or do other things to help minimizae it. i personally just fucking deal with it, that's life, it's not the funnest thing in the world most of the time. and if you can't deal with it, don't do the drug niggs, cause you don't deserve it if you can't handle it. impaired motor skills? to some people yeah. but hey, if you're stupid enough to get behind the wheel without knowing if you can drive stoned ("i know i can drive" doesn't fucking count you idiot, i hate people who get overconfident, they're the people that kill others in car accidents) then you don't deserve to smoke the shit. you people give all pot heads an even worse name. and in regards to developing relationships? i've made every single friend i now have while stoned, and my friends are the best thing i could ever ask for in my life. they're sweet, caring, and definately funny man, i love them. the only legitimate side effect from marijuana that happens in every case is the destruction of brain cells, but who the fuck gives a shit? smoke a cig, you'll lose a whole shitload more brain cells that way. once again, if you can't deal with the consequenses don't fucking do it, moron. if anything should be illegal, it's alcohol. so many have died directly due to alcohol (poisoning) and so fucking many due to DUI and OUI related accidents. marijuana does NOT have the potential to fuck you up as bad, i know, i've smoked 3/4 of an ounce of headdies (better than any shit you smoke lol, one hit and you're gone if you haven't ever had them. and if you've never tried pot one sniff from the bag'd get you buzzed lol) and i was still able to stand and carry on a conversation. the only thing it's really hurt is my motivation and definately my wallet lol. but i can't help it, i have expensive tastes.

i will give you fuckers this much though, it is a gateway drug, for sure. but hey, it's your choice, and if you decide to see what the "next best thing" is (in my opinion there's nothing beter) then fuck it, it's all you. if you become addicted to a substance, then hey, fucking deal, clean up or go down. that's all i have to say. don't fucking whine about it if it becomes a problem. try and quit and go to SMART recovery (check em out at SMARTrecovery.org) they fucking rock. that's what i'm involved in right now and it's awesome. very caring people, and unlike AA there's NO religious aspect. you don't have to "give yourself to a higher power" like some fucking cult shit. i hate AA.

FUCK other drugs (excluding hallucenogens, i love you silly little psychadelic drugs). i mean, if you wanna do them? hey, it's your temple, decorate and accessorize accordingly. but with me it's a no no, besides hallucenogins that is. and hey, if anyone has any sort of a drug related question, come to me. i've done every single drug you can name (except PCP, could never find the dust) and a few you can't most likely, ask my friends lol, they'll tell you i'm the real deal.

BUT IF YOU'VE NEVER DONE DRUGS, FUCKING DON'T. you have NO IDEA what it's all about and all the things you'll change about you and those around you. if i never did a drug i'd be in a fucking ivy league college or some shit, but i love my life and the way it's turned out, so if you're a user, i won't treat you like everyone else does (like DIRT). but yeah, so contrary to popular belief, i do NOT condone drug use to those who are simply curious. i think everyone should smoke a little pot in their life. and i DEFINATELY think that doctors should try it a few times. all these fucking doctors from Harvard and Yale and all the fucking "highly acclaimed" colleges actually know nothing about drugs. they only know what they read in their fucking textbooks. YOU CAN'T POSSIBLY BEGIN TO UNDERSTAND SOMETHING UNTIL YOU'VE EXPERIENCED IT. i know this, and because of this i've actually been told by doctors in rehabs that I SHOULD BE THE DOCTOR, NOT THEM, since i seemed to demonstrate a much better knowlege and understanding of drugs and teenagers than they ever knew lol (no lie).

well now i'm all fucking pissed off, this is what happens when i get involved with talking about drugs lol. I'M FORCED TO BE SOBER RIGHT NOW, AND IT'S REDICULOUS. if i get probation? yeah i'm gonna be sober, i'm not that fucking stupid. but once i can i'm moving somewhere a little less harsh in regards to marijuana.

if you got any queations for me, ask and ye shall recieve. peace

My Interests



cooooool

philosophy, psychology, alcohol ad substance abuse (studying), cultural anthropology, makeup, kids, animals (especially dogs), writing/drawing, twisted fucked up artwork, knives and all weaponry other than guns, surgical instruments have always fascinated me beyond belief, anatomy and the human body, mummification and preservation, death in general mezmorizes me. no, i don't want to die. but is it not the biggest mystery known to man? we know of life, but we know nothing of death and whether or not there is some great beyond, or reincarnation or whatever. there is no proof to say one way or another, you know? music's another big thing of mine, not listening to it as much as making it though

your ever so friendly (and free) father

I'd like to meet:

chill people who wanna have some fun. some dark souls and some realy chill club kids. preps or goths, jocks or metal heads man. i get along with just about everyone, and i love variety.

i really wanna meet some more "dark" people though. people into the supernatural and the occult, fun people. already got a ghost hunting group set up, but the more the merrier. but yeah people interested in what i'm interested in, contact me. cause believe me, it's hard to find someone who's into the whole "dark thing" these days lol, i mean like REALLY into it. like more than just dressing like it, studying and maybe even practicing in regards to the occult. well just contact me lol, i'll be able to tell pretty quickly if you're serious or not, i think.i'd like to say i've met Ralph Steadman, but really wouldn't like to meet him, i'd probably piss him off and wind up getting hurt in some terrible, terrible way...

i honest and truly wish i had met Steve Irwin. he was a fearless role model and a fierce crowd pleaser. not one of his episodes were even relatively close to being boring, and at the end of every show i'd find myself saying "did he really just do that?"

he was funny, kind hearted, gentle, absolutely fearless, and a great father and husband. god couldn't have provided a better role model. i just found out that he's leaving TWO, not one, child behind. it's just heart-wrenching. but he did die doing what he loved, and if that's not the best way to go out than i don't know what is. he will be missed more than words can describe. he was more than another TV host, he was looked upon as a great teacher and entertainer. he sure did make science and biology fun, that's for sure. and he also got quite personal with his viewers. bringing his wife and daughter along for the trips, and who could forget the lovable Suzy, his late canine companion?. i remember an episode when he let his daughter hold a tarantula that he just found on the ground lol, and the amazing thing was, she wasn't scared in the slightest! imagine how fearless she'll be when she grows up lol. it's just an absolute shame. his youngest daughter will never get to know her dad or how great he was (or that he held her while feeding a croc lol, i remember how much critisism he got for that). i mean, of course her mom will tell her, she was madly in love with Steve, but just like hearing a story just isn't the same as experiencing it, merely hearing about Steve will never truly do justice to him.

now i know that i didn't know him in person, but that doesn't soften the blow for his family, friends, and avid fans. and i also know that the chances of someone in relation to Steve, be it friend or whatever, are slim to none, but i still felt a need to do a little rememberance portion. he was a great man and will be missed by his public almost as much as he will be missed by his family and friends.

CHECK OUT VOICES OF THE DEAD, IT'S THE BAND I'M IN, THEY/WE FUCKING ROCK. CLICK VOICES OF THE DEAD IN MY TOP FRIENDS TO HEAR OUR STUFF.

Music:



THIS WAS SUCH AN AWESOME SHOW, ANYONE WHO DIDN'T GO MISSED OUT BIGTIME, BUT THERE WILL BE MORE
THIS IS ONLY THE BEGINNING

CHECK OUT MY BAND, VOICES OF THE DEAD. WE'RE FINALLY UP AND RUNNING AND ARE DOING SHOWS. IF YOU DON'T LIKE US JUST GO AHEAD AND DELETE YOURSELF FROM THE ATMOSPHERE CAUSE YOU'RE NOTHING.

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good death metal for sure, and VOICES OF THE DEAD as well. i LOVE my Manson and Cradle of Filth too. but i also have a very strong passion for techno and all that gay shit. i just love it, and you can definately find some creepy shit in some artisits. Omar Santana, Hardcore for the Headstrong, there's a good set of cd's

Movies:

pretty much anything by Stephen King, The texas chainsaw Massacre 1 and 2 (original ones, none of the remakes, i hate it when someone tries to make something better cause they always fuck it up in regards to movies, LEAVE A GOOD THING ALONE), Boo, Alice in Wonderland (Disney version), any of the old school Disney movies, any good horror flick, i've seen alot already lol, if you got a suggestion or question relating to horror flicks, lemme know k? i love that shit

Television:

dont watch TV unless its a series on DVD. Tom Green is my idol however, and i love those reality tv shows about meth and drugs and shit, it's so disturbing lol. and who doesn't love family guy? come on now

Books:

don't read much. when i do i like to read a good psychological thriller ex. The Red Dragon.

the Bible's a good book too. not sure if i believe in, well, ANY of it. but a good book nonetheless.

FUCKING READ DESPERATION BY STEVEN KING, IT'S FUCKING AMAZING

Heroes:


Marilyn Manson

RALPH STEADMAN

Hunter S Thompson (1937/9 - 2005)

My Blog

poems from the hospital continued...

4. (the funner poems) the axiom anthem relentless and random the copious opiates lead to damnation perdition prevails, as rudiment fails peregrination on ascetic trails this vocabulary in greatness do...
Posted by The Martyr on Sun, 14 May 2006 10:14:00 PST

some poems i wrote while in a mental hospital : )

1. the razor endangers my conscience grows stranger i don't know the meaning i don't know the meaning the metal cuts flesh, in water i rest i don't know the meaning i don't know the meaning i wake up ...
Posted by The Martyr on Sun, 14 May 2006 09:58:00 PST