THOTH~ D.P.B.~

I'd like to meet:

Lurking in the shadows Thirsting for life Come unto me Take my soulOr let me love you As forbidden as it may be I long for the darkness That burns within your soulMy vampire My only love And to me it was told That we could be foreverBut one in the same Change me, my vampire So I can love again Or forever be blinded by the lightwhen I would much rather be left dead to prowl the night where in the shadows I lurk waiting to quench my thirstfor the blood that glows red and runs in veins of filth ridden people who I hunt in the darkplease take me my lost love, my vampire so I may know, no matter how forbidden, loveor else I shall die here alone forever more a heart tragically broken but worst of all, ill remain un-forgiven Pain, it the obstacle to which we can never defend, No one can help us be they family or friend, Pain is the tormentor that pulled us towards that ledge, It’s all their fault they pushed us over the edge, It was too late when we fell down, Through the sky onto the black charred ground, Can you feel how much we hate and despise, Let us tear, pull and rip out our eyes, You see this is humanities ideal, To tell each other how much hurt we feel, This is how it should be for all time, When we are chasing sanity from our minds, How we would cut our skin and let flow our black blood, Knowing that we would be washing the agony away for good, To be gone from the world that teases us so inside of a coffin of silk and gold, To be remembered fondly even when our bodies are cold, They caused us to cry tears of utter nothingness, They forgot to be our guide when we wandered the wilderness, Can you see how we’re drowning in our sin? Let us scratch and peel away our skin, They pushed us into an early grave; they pulled us into the earth by our hair, But the thing you have to ask is, do we really care? I think the answer is no because despite their persistence, We remain even in death empty, indifferent, Humanity helped us to live, but encouraged us to die, It taught to disobey, to steal, kill and lie, Outcasts we lived our futures now, Drinking deep from the blood that dripped from God’s brow, We don’t give a damn even now about our fears, Let us claw and scream to rid us of the whining in our ears, But we don’t need them; we are free now, in death in hell, We are free from our confines, free from our shell, Come, let’s free our anger, let’s lose our distress, And together we shall surrender to eternal darkness

Music:

Movies:

Lurking in the shadows Thirsting for life Come unto me Take my soulOr let me love you As forbidden as it may be I long for the darkness That burns within your soulMy vampire My only love And to me it was told That we could be foreverBut one in the same Change me, my vampire So I can love again Or forever be blinded by the lightwhen I would much rather be left dead to prowl the night where in the shadows I lurk waiting to quench my thirstfor the blood that glows red and runs in veins of filth ridden people who I hunt in the darkplease take me my lost love, my vampire so I may know, no matter how forbidden, loveor else I shall die here alone forever more a heart tragically broken but worst of all, ill remain un-forgiven

Television:

We are the nameless ones. No shout can hold us down, No whisper call us forth. We have no identity, And cannot be bound. We are the seekers. Ours are the dreams of magic, Ours the search for reason. We are more real than reality And know our selves as no others can. We exist beyond the blood. Our bodies are more than flesh And feel more than flesh can feel. a href="http://s156.photobucket.com/albums/t15/thoth_2007/?act ion=view&current=2mef7lpg2BIG-2.jpg" target="_blank" We exist beyond the mirrors. Our minds are not reflections Of others' shallow wishes.Our clothes have never fit us. The nameless spend forever Searching time for titles. Though we have never found them, Something inside us always looks. We are the mad. We live from birth to death Catching glimpses of heaven and hell - Confused between the race we're born to And the one we feel inside. Look at her, her face drips blood, pouring tears of acid rain. Heartache all among the ruins, lost in a world of confusion, minds all crazed and broken parted, faces grey and rotting corpses. Sitting lost among the living, watching, waiting, needing something. Fire from hell itself, never ending to be out. Fear gripped faces of the future, longing to feel the warmth, look around the world of living, wonder why there's nothing there. People round the world are calling, walking into danger's core. Laughter gone and submersed, screams anger from inside, seize the darkness, come down under. Watch the moments grow stronger, looking down i see your pain, anger deep in core of man, it wishes to be free to wander, longing for something to hold. Watch the clock as it ticks by, death is coming in with every breath, wait a minute, stop the yelling, voices start to fade and wander, calling out as they go by. People wishing, people dreaming, saying prayers no one hears. looking up they see the light, going down the pain grows stronger. For one moment it seems right, for one second they can't wait. Screaming as they go down under, pain is coming, they can feel. Watching, waiting and wondering, looking for something to grasp. Asking when will it be over, getting nothing in return. MY DARKEST THOUGHTS, I FOLLOWED THEM TO EVERY CHASM OF THE MIND WHERE OFTEN VISIONS ARE NOT KIND SOME ARE ANGRY, SOME ARE HATE SOME ARE TEMPTING, FORNICATE ICY RIVERS FILLED WITH LUST RUN THROUGH VALLEY OF MISTRUST A PRIVATE GRAVEYARD FOR THE DEAD THEIR VISIONS FLOATING IN MY HEAD A LAND OF DARK, AND DESOLATION TIME OVERWHELMED WITH DESIMATION THESE BLACKENED VISIONS FILL MY THOUGHTS MY SPINE, AND STOMACH TIED IN KNOTS THE FEAR OF LOSING ALL IS CLOSE IT'S CARRIED BY GRANDFATHERS GHOST I BEG YOU HELP ME QUELL THIS PAIN FROM SLOWLY ROTTING OUT MY BRAIN RENDER ME PENANCE SO I MAY HAVE ABSOLUTION AT LEAST TODAY SO I CAN FIND A WAY TO COPE AND NOT DIE SWINGING FROM MY ROPE

Books:

Watch as this tear falls into empty space See it fall into life's nameless place Can you see the sparkle as it catches the light That sparkle once was happiness that is no longer in sight As it falls watch it, its color has changed From blue to bright red, it has a wide rangeThere it goes all alone, it continues to fall With it, it takes the emotion, the emotion of all Wait, can you hear it? A sob has broke free Has shook the lungs cold, but yet it continues to be Here it comes, a force has been built between the eye A wall of shear water, it's now time to cryA shudder, a scream, darkness envelops your soul The darkness of the night has taken its toll Pain of love you know i know its over you cheated your way out left my life forever left me with tears of blood hitting the flawed floors put me in a rage of depression how can you live your life knowing you hurt me you burned my bloody heart wacthed it burn to ashes laughing at me mocking me opening my dark thoughts sharing my cold feelings with you did you mean it......... when you said you cared did you mean it......... when you said you loved me I know i meant it Dont walk away before i say what i have to say dont leave i need you..... you are the light the brightens my world without you im stuck in the darkness alone..... again when im hurt i dont feel a thing you hurt me alot cant feel..... cant think..... cant eat...... cant sleep..... i puke everday you took my shallow soul......... ill always love you until i fade in the air..... my wounds will never heal........ ill always be a shatered mirror.....

Heroes:

CALLING TO THE POWER OF DARKNESS THE POWER THAT TAKES AWAY THE LIGHT. BRING UPON ME NOW...... THE POSESSION OF THE NIGHT. TAKE ME TO THY ABYSS, BRING MY SOUL TO REST. TAKE ME TO THE DEAD THROUGH THE SEA OF INCEST. BREAK THE DECPETION THAT WAS GIVEN TO ME THE NIGHT OF MY BIRTH. TAKE AWAY THIS PAIN AND LET ME SLEEP WITH THE EARTH. CALL UP THY SPIRITS TO COME SHARE MY BLOOD, DRINK IT ALL AND SHARE MY SOUL, THIS INCOMPLETE SOUL WITH A DISTURBED MIND. NEVER KNOW WHEN IM WRONG NEVER KNOW WHEN IM RIGHT. INLOVE WITH THE DEAD OR HATE LIFE INSTEAD? YOUR PAIN I FEED ON AND MINE I TRY TO FORGET. I DROWN IN TEARS AND CHOKE ON MY SORROW! I CRY FOR TODAY AND SCREAM FOR TOMORROW. MY DREAD GROWS AS THE ANGRY HAND OF FATE FALLS ON MY SOUL. IM MOT ALIVE, NOT ALIVE AT ALL!!! BRING UNTO ME MY FATE SWALLOW THIS HOLLOW SOUL!! - If fear is the unknown, then life is my fear Each precious life is unknown until lived out Then the darkness looms and another fear appears The unknowing of death Death by guns Death by age Death by the hand you call your own Your reflection shattered in the darkness of night As the death creeps thoughout your afflicted body You struggle but there is no escaping For when death calls you know it shall be your last breath your last word The last pump of your unwanted heart Your heart dies alone just as your body does The darkness comes when no one is there Then you cant escape it or call for help No one cares or even notices Because that is what your life is leading to A cold and lonely death Hate loves &Love hates: My heart is torn and cannot be mended My thoughts that roam my mind are no longer splendid To love is to hate and to hate is to love To that special four letter word I will push and shove My breathing is weak and I cannot see Your face is there when I drop to my knee Let God have me now... ..Blood drips from my brow Taste the hate and feel how it is warm It welcomes well in its form My heart is torn and cold inside It rips open and lets forth a dark blooded tide It is "love" that has caused all this trouble And it is"love" that has made hate in my heart double If this word causes so much pain For this word why do others seek and try to gain?